OH WHAT A NIGHT!!!

well once again i have waited until forever to write in this thing, but i have been busy so whatever! (i just had a flashback to 6th grade..o my!)   i have been working and packing and cleaning for the last 4 days, but still managing to say hello to my friends and bake cookies for my friends at work so i can say goodbye to them!  tho it has been stressfull, im glad i get to do this for everyone that has really been good to me this year!  the saddest part of this whole ordeal with me leaving for the whole summer is i had to say goodbye to one of the most important ppl in my life last night!  david danckwart is a man who has changed my life like there is no other...he has been there for me through the highs and lows that are my life.  im sad he is leaving, but that only means i have to drive a little farther to see him...roadtrip!!!

speaking of danck, last night was my last convo with him and it was amazing.  usually i walk in there at about 330 and we talk about meaningless things while everyone else is around and then we talk about the problems my friends are having and he asks me questions about sergot, nick, jim, adam, etc.  so i go in at 330 and we work on my song for his concert on saturday and then i hungout with mu and others until 530.  at 530 i went back to his office and our talk was really awkward...i mean both of didnt want to say goodbye, but in a sense we did.  so we did the usual talk about others and find out how life is and all that jazz.  then the senior honors night ppl came in and we talked with those crazy kids for an hour and then they left and the convo became serious.  for the first time in the 6 years that i have known him he got me to talk to him about me and my problems.  i have no idea how he did it, but we started talking about a song i hate performing and then it delved deeper into why i hate on my own.  that night was the first night was honestly able to forgive certain ppl that have hurt me in the past that i was holding onto in my heart.  i dont think dd will ever know what he has done for me in the past 6 years, and especially what he did for me last night!  i love him and ill miss him!

Currently Listening Nine (1982 Original Broadway Cast) see related

WAY TOO LONG!

ok so it has been forever since i last wrote.  so much has happened with ragtime, hospitals and my father's birthday party!  alright so ragtime was AMAZING!!!! i mean it was so much fun getting to know new ppl at columbia and to have all my friends and family come and see this amazing show.  im so glad that my friends came because it means a lot to me and that my family came in because it is always great to have support.  i also wanted to thank the directors for an experience that makes me smile.  i have made friends i will keep for life!  hospitals are not fun especially when ur brother is in one! :(  he is ok he just got out yesterday, but honestly it was so scary and still is because we dont know what caused the seisure.  it was also hard because he was crying whenever i went in to see him or called him from my father's party, it is heart breaking to see that.   that brings me to the party of the century which was UNBELIEVABLE!!! i mean there was over 200 ppl that came and it went so smoothly!  i cant believe that i pulled it off with all these different groups of ppl coming together and they all had a wonderful time.  i might have a survival job as a party planner bc it is fun and exilerating when you get it done!  im excited because i get to finally relax and spend some time with my friends before i leave for the summer and before they leave.  as i stated in February:

I LOVE LIFE!!!!

Currently Listening Pal Joey: 1995 Original New York Cast Recording By Richard Rodgers, Lorenz Hart see related

well here we are like forever since i last updated.  i will make this short and sweet (as short as i can): got into the New Rochelle cast of Ragtime, i am interning at Peninsula Players this summer, got a headway on dad's gift, saw oliver! and thought it was ok, am seeing much ado about nothing tonight, classes going well, not the best tapper! and im just overall happy!!!

tegan and i are looking at apartments and i love that this is really going to happen, im excited that we are gonna find a great place for the both of us and that we are getting along.  i was worried that after her having to see me pretty much everyday she would get sick of me and we woudlnt be rooming together, but it has worked our so far!!!  i just love school and all my friends.

i miss all my other friends because i never see them/call them/talk to them online...it makes me sad that i feel we are moving apart, but i know if i need them they will be there as i will be there for them!  overall im happy for their happiness and i know they are happy for me!!!

I LOVE LIFE!!!!!

Currently Listening A Year with Frog and Toad (Original Cast Recording) get a load of toad see related

well officially i am confused.  yesterday i wake up to get ready for my voice lesson and i checked my email.  there was a request to be friends with someone from my space and it was someone i havent talked to in a year!  all of a sudden he comes back for no reason and no explanation for y we didnt talk for a year.  i dont know what to do and im totally thrown for a loop bc i wasnt friends with anyone from myspace and all of a sudden he finds me!?!?!  im just confused (as ive stated many times). o well im gonna play it by ear and see where it takes me.

a year with frog and toad is AMAZING...go see it at the goodman theater.  really great music, script, directing, acting, and it is short (1.5 hrs).  great times :)

Currently Watching ER - The Complete First Season By E.R. see related

r e l a t i o n s h i p s
1. who are your best friends?: sarah, leahruth, sergot, amy, ro, wow that is a lot and there are probably more that im not thinking of this morning!                                                     2. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no, but with the ones above, who needs it

f a s h i o n | s t u f f
1. where is your favorite place to shop:  borders, old navy, gap, new york & co. (great discount)                                                                                                                         2. any tattoos or piercings: finally got my ears pierced freshman year of college (yay claires)

s p e c i f i c s
1. do you do drugs?:   nope                                                                                             2. what kind of shampoo do you use?: herbel essences and pantene hydrating curls           3. what are you most scared of?:  silence and being alone
4. what are you listening to right now?  ER and the garbage truck outside                         5. who is the last person that called you? my dad, cancelling the movie today
6. where do you want to get married?: definately either chicago or disney world
7. how many buddies are online right now?: 40, but most are away
8. what would you change about yourself?:  id make myself skinner and actually grow a backbone.

F a v o r i t e
1: shoes: my clogs & payless heels                                                                                   2. food: pickles, pizza, diet pepsi (no ice), CHEESE!                                                        3. boys names: eddie, jordan, gabe
4. girls names:  jackie, sarah, jess
5. subjects in school:  acting, choir, and music theory
6. Animals: pigs, hippos and puppies
7. sports: improv olympics...that's the closest i get
8. color:  blue and purple

 H a v e | y o u | e v e r
1. given anyone a bath?: yea, babysitting
2. smoked?:  never, only second hand
3. bungee jumped?: kinda, the thing at six flags
4. made yourself throw up?: yea, only when im really sick
5. skinny dipped?: yea...kinda cold
6. ever been in love?:  no, only with my friends
7. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: nope, havent needed to                                  8. pictured your crush naked?: no, dont really want to
9. actually seen your crush naked?:  no
10. cried when someone died?:  of course                                                                           12. fallen for your best friend?: yea, but we don't talk anymore
13. been rejected?:  yea it sucks                                                                                    14. rejected someone?:  unintentionally
15. used someone?:  y would u want to
16. done something you regret?: yea, but i learned from it and have never wanted to feel that way again

c u r r e n t
clothes: black lounge pants and cami with built-in bra
music:  musicals, but what's new
make-up: none needed
annoyance: the garbage truck
smell: lillies
fav Actor-  sean krill, he is my inspiration. but famous one: hugh jackman & colin firth
fav Singer- toby keith & kelly clarkson
favorite group:  sugarland
desktop picture:  my IUB buddies from guys and dolls
cd in stereo: oklahoma soundtrack with hugh jackman
dvd in player: cinderella with julie andrews

l a s t | p e r s o n
you touched: good question
hugged: betsy cade
you imed: leahruth
you yelled at:  andy
you kissed: hmm. not really sure

w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a
kill:  no one really, i have had a good life and anyone who hurt me, i they deal with the pain of losing a friend.                                                                                                         slap: my brother
talk to offline: anyone who wants to hang out tonight
talk to online:  anyone who wants to hang out tonight


r a n d o m
in the morning i am: awake and happy to start a new day
all i need is: to find someone special to fill a hole in my heart
to be: happy & loved
love is: easy to find from friends, but not from a significant other
i dream about:  my life in the future and the mistakes i made in the past

o p p o s i t e | s e x
what do you notice first:  eyes, smile, and legs
last person you slow danced with: drake
worst question to ask: (in the clearance section) do u have any other sizes, no we dont ma'am, o well where can i find these pants, that is all we have out, i dont believe u
makes you laugh the most: anything
makes you smile: all of my friends smiles and their laughter
gives you a funny feeling when you see them:  when they look at me and ask my opinion
who do you have a crush on: dont have one
who has a crush on you:  i got a whole lotta nothing, but i never knew when others had a crush on me
is easiest to talk to: i havent found anyone yet, but when i do ill let u know

d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you?:   no
save conversations: once, a song sergot sent me when he was upset
wish you were a member of the opposite sex?:  sometimes it seems easier,other times not so much
wish you were younger:  no not really, been there done that
cried because someone said something to you?: yeah...who hasnt?

N u m b e r
number of times i have had my heart broken: ive had my heart broken several times, not for love, but friends
number of hearts i have broken:  i hope none, but i dont know
number of continents i have lived in: one, but visited many
number of tight friends:  hmm...2-3 i think
of cds i own:  over 200
of scars on my body:  6
of things that i regret: 3, but im getting over them

y o u r | t h o u g h t s
I know:  a bunch of info, but not all useful
I have:  a problem needing to be loved by all
I wish:  i could lose weight and find that special someone
I hate: people who are fake, and liers

I hear: a commercial about bladder control and the garbage truck
I try:  as best i can
I wonder:  what my life will be like in 6 months
I love: family, friends, musicals, theater