| | Heart Big Enough for the WorldIt was the catchy slogan of a missions forum I attended during a retreat many years back. I think I was in middle school. I'm pretty sure I prayed for God to give it to me. I couldn't possibly have known what I was asking for.
This year I've realized how hard it is to love even a small fraction of a percent of the population in my own town. They come into your life, grab your heart, and refuse to let go. Truly loving people who are not cared for by their loved ones. Truly loving stubborn and strong-willed individuals with huge personalities. Truly loving people with beautiful dreams and no means of fulfilling them. I want to fix all their hurts and compensate for all the shortcomings in their situations. I want to shake them into overcoming the odds against them. I want to walk with them through their journey and make sure they have every opportunity, not just the few they know about.
But I can't.
And it hurts.
The problem with truly loving someone is the intensity of it. Can't stop thinking about them. How to help them. Make them smile. Secure their future by enriching their present. To heal their past To listen. And everything they say in those passing glimpses into their hearts and lives. Those just tie me closer by another strand.
Hard because they took my heart by storm and won't give it back. And I know time is short. And loving them is exhausting. And all I can do is love them more.
And recent inklings hint that God answers prayer.
Hijole.......
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| | Posted 2/8/2008 10:23 PM - 2 comments
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