I've come to find that life plays an interesting game.

People:

1. Suck.
2. Don't listen to advice.
3. Rarely have true faith in the Lord.
4. Sin (too much... waaaayyyy too much).
5. Don't pray.
6. Don't care to pray.
7. Don't care about anything!
8. Are conceited.

Myself:

1. I'm hurt.
2. Scared.
3. Worried.
4. Confused.
5. No better than the average person.
6. I try to pray, but I forget.
7. I only remember God when things are either going REALLY GOOD or REALLY BAD.
8. I care about everyone, but the humanity inside me causes me to put myself first every once in a while.

Life is so confusing!  Why do things happen this way?  Why can't we live in a utopia?  Where everything is fun.  Everyone is happy.  We all praise the Lord.  We all love, and we don't sin.

Maybe I'm just looking forward to being with my father again.

Update:

I'm still with Alicia.  I'm giving her another chance.  The thought:

"fool me once, shame on you.  Fool me twice, shame on me."

comes to mind.  I hope there won't be a second time, but I owe it to God to give love another chance.  Only through Him will love be perfect.  Therefore, this love will only be through Him.  We will love each other, guided by His rules, and his desires.  God is perfect, for He created the world and everything in it.  Live life by His words.  READ THE BIBLE!  Ask Alicia, it's more fun than you'd think!  There's so much in there.  It's our Father... Talking to us.  Through a book.  Look at it as the "phone" book.  He calls us from it, and we call Him.  We can listen to Him; directly.  What's better than that?  C'mon.  Pick it up.  Read it.  Love it.  Tell everyone about how great it is.  Open to a random page, and begin reading his wonders.

God bless you all.

Remember what God is:

Love, Forgiveness, Peace, Beauty, Purity, among so much more.

Wow... I can't wait to be with my father.... again.

Beshoy Girgis