Either read it or leave, don't skim.
How responsible is Christianity for preparing me for being
human?
How can we make people ready to live in a world by teaching
them of another?
Is this life meant to be lived or laid on the alter of Romans
12?
How much of the current teaching and doctrine on
participation in life is from scripture?
Why am I so
uneducated?
Frustration takes me because I cannot know what I want to
talk about. Too much at once, too many topics. Pick one… Humanity and the Spirit.
What should my outlook on life be?
Am I to focus on the next life so much as to miss this one? I
thought I was too live this one as if in the next one.
Whose expectations am I aiming for? What does God expect of
me? I could be a hermit with my cousin in West Virginia.
Working all day for food and praying at night seeking the next life with all
the time available. I could be a self-absorbed business man, materialistically
seeking relief from my guilt. The guilt that comes to all successful Christian
men because they feel like they aren’t Christian
enough.
What share of me does the world get?
Can I do things for their own sake?
Is life here for its own purpose?
The 80
years I get are nothing but a groan. How should I look at this? Because both
sides are wrong. Living this life for itself leads to hedonism. Living this
life for God leads to monasticism. Where
do I compromise? Is it a
compromise? To live a life
that is full? To adventure, seek, discover, woo, romance, love? We know to deny
our self and take up a cross to follow, but never………………this is funny I never struggled
with this. I listen to my heart every day and I think about a choice. I know
now that there is the path that wont work; and that is the one I should take. I
have always seen things like everyone else, there is nothing unique about what
I see. But, I know that the one less traveled will lead me to happiness.
It always has, I have never been let down. I have done many stupid things when
it come to the big choices in life. College and career are things that everyone
has to figure out. I never cared because I knew that I would never have time
for them. There was one thing that I needed to do and that was commune with God
and everything else always turned for me (There were no monks at career day).
It was easy to think that I could do it on my own because everything turned so
easily for me. The funny thing is I don’t care if I can do it on my own, it is
more dangerous when I let Him drive. It all makes me peaceful now that I am at
the end of this post. Maybe it is because I am back in the safety net of my
preprogrammed religious nonsense, or that this is home.
Why does he leave a place where everything is good? Because
he is not good there, he only is; like everything else. So then what I am
asking is must I go where it is bad to find God? Suffering in Theology is very
nice to look at; Christ wants us to join with Him in His. Is
it the suffering of watching us re-crucify Him over and over? Or original substitution?
This post isn’t fair
because there has never been one like it and there most likely will never be
one again.
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