Enough is Enough.

i'm sick of young people throwing their lives away.
i'm sick of seeing young people making stupid decisions and suffering from the consequences.
i'm sick of seeing young people not living their life to the fullest meaning it can bring.

i dont understand.
these are people my age, and probably yours too.
the amount of hope invested in their lives,
and the limitless future that they have right under their noses.
gone. wasted. finished.
it's like i wanna go up there, give them a good slap,
and go "WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU DOING TO YOURSELF!?"

i cannot tell you how much it hurts on the inside when i see or hear of things like these.
of binge-drinking and alcohol poisoning, of smoking and lung cancer,
of drugs and death of overdose?
and i havnt even touched the fact that there are people who put their hope into these people.
are we truly a hopeless generation?

i absolutely refuse to believe that there is no hope.
and if there is any cause i will serve for the rest of my life,
it will be to make sure that nobody ever throws their life away again.

no more. enough is enough.

IS night.

meh. i keep procrastinating australia dont i? XD
apologies for looking fat in all the pictures...
it took effort to upload these pictures man!
so.

school buddy, lorna.

super hebat guitarist, yunlai!

fafa!! clinging to each other like life depended on it (but for no apparent reason) ahahah

john the junior who talks alot!

david the junior who sings like a celebrity (and will soon become one)

darian the partner and his stupid expression.

cheryl the sexy!

cute cute angelina (best dressed) showing off her ethnicity!!

ALVIN!!!!!!

SARAAAHHH!!!

*ahem* "brother-in-law" XD

the only SIX left in IS.

DANIEL THE SEXY! XD

kiki the multi-capable!!

SC president 2008, Chua!

Queen Regina!

angela lu!! she's very nice!

the single most guilible person ever. XD

JUSTINNN!!!!!

this, my friends, is a picture of myselves, and ivan with his silly face at the back

YVOOOONE YAAAAAPPPP!!!!

faith, my "favorite" guy in IS

pearleee!!!

Rowie and Amy!!

linds the gorgeous!

kevin, lookng very dignified in his suit!!

fong yee bing XD

sexy sexy skye (or at least i think her name is skye)

Surabhi!!! thanks for laughing at everything i said!!

siah tiong shie, mr popular!

sue ann the cute singer!

pretty jing jing!!

karyn, the very good pianist!

robin, the lame/funny classmate who put food on my plate! thank you!

kelvin, the other classmate that i knew since i was a kid from church.

best dressed lecturer, ms joanna!! (we did our hair at the same place)

michelle the prom queen!

kimmie!

ana kong who sang "how do i live"!

tai mei hui! XD

sharon!!!

fafa again... haha this time not clinging to each other lol

YSK, very very very de hebat guitarist!!!

IAN!

HotnSexy gloria!!

this was the happiest moment at the end of the night.

draculah! XD

deborah, in the most popular color of the night!

the other 12Jan baby, also in the popular color!

acting sexy with justin's hat. pretty good hey. XD

me and arjuju!! hahaha i was on the floor by then. we had a "floor gang"

the queen herself, this time with the flower on her hair.

i dont know how to title this one.

when i seriously think of it,
i dont think there are many who can come close to you when it comes to impacting my life.
challenging me in ways that i would never imagine if i had never met you.
being a companion, someone to walk with me,
and to hear me out when i need it too.
to keep my head straight on my shoulders when im about to go crazy with confusion,
to watch as i cry and not judge,
you've loved me in a way so gentle, but firm at the same time.
part of who i am today, is the result of your love and care,
and the time and effort that you've spent with me,
and to spend all the crazy times with lame jokes that are funny..
every moment spent with you is precious,
and i wouldn't have wanted anyone else to walk with me that journey that i've walked.

no, your love wont go to waste,
your passion will not die.
though you've left,
parts of you will never leave,
because deep in my heart it remains,
the way parts of you remain in others as well.
and together, with little parts of Janice in each of us,
and humongous parts of God working thru us,
we will rise, as God's chosen generation.

love you, Janice. =)
and miss you heaps too.

oh my word

Tammi Cherise Tan Jia Yi, you are crazy!!

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves .
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse . These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by . Continue this game by sending it to other people .

#1 If your lover betrayed you , what will your reaction be ?
♥ dont really have a lover yet, so i dont really care for now. haha

#2 If you can have a dream to come true , what would it be ?
♥ oh, the things i have longing in my heart!

#3 What will your dream wedding be like ?
♥ tucked away at some secluded, serene area...which is preferably NOT hot cuz i dont wanna sweat in my makeup and wedding gown.

#4 Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you ?
♥ not really confused, but more like... some weird form of anticipation.

#5 What's your ideal lover like ?
♥ dont really wanna say anything about this.. cuz it almost never happens.

#6 Which is more blessed , loving someone or being loved by someone ?
♥ both are blessed in their own way. loving is more a privileged ability than anything.

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love ?
♥ if i REALLY love him, forever duznt seem too long now does it.

#8 If the person you secretly like is already attached , what would you do ?
♥ move on. cuz if he were meant for me anyway, moving on now could still lead me back to him. 

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days ?
♥ dont really recall. but some people just GOTTA grow up.

#10 If you have a choice ,what kind of family you want to be born into ?
♥ is this supposed to be some kinda trick question for our parents to read and feel bad about themselves?

#11 Is being tagged fun ?
♥ hahahahaha depends on who the tagger is.

#12 How do you see yourself in ten years time ?
♥ 29 years old, hey? i really dont know. God knows what He'll do with my life.

#13 Who are currently the most important people to you ?
♥ God, my family, and all my friends. no kidding. they all keep me sane.

#14 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is ?
♥ HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA "she got them apple bottom jeans, boots with the fur... the whole club's lookin at her..." XD

#15 Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor ?
♥ single and rich. cuz singlehood is temporary anyway. such a not-tricky-enuf trick question. XD

#16 What's the first thing you do every morning ?
♥ press the snooze button to get more sleep. XD

#17 Would you give all in a relationship ?
♥ no. but i would give all to Jesus. (and no, its not just some sunday school answer)

#18 Do you live to love , live to hate or live for the sake of living ?
♥ i live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love
to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live to love to live. =)

#19 What type of friends do you like ?
♥ the type that sticks on you like UHU glue till the end.

#20 What type of friends do you dislike ?
♥ i dont call them friends if i dislike them

Tagged by : Tammi Cherise Tan Jia Yi.

Here are the 8 lucky people who's gonna be tagged :
♥ Kavita.
♥ Apple
♥ Steffi
♥ Derek
♥ Carrie
♥ Joel?
♥ Dont
♥ Know

6 things I'm passionate about;
♥ For this generation to be His again
♥ That people get treated the way that they should be
♥ Consumer rights
♥ Malaysia. (crappy government, but this is my land.)
♥ THOU SHALT NOT DISS FAT PEOPLE.
♥ For every woman to realise their self worth, and their irreplaceable place in God's love story for them.


6 things I say too often;
♥ omg.
♥ wth.
♥ LOL.
♥ HAHA!
♥ drat.
♥ like, (and follow with something).


6 books I've read recently;
♥ In Her Shoes.
♥ Bible.
♥ Managerial Accounting For Business Decisions (call me a nerd now).
♥ NW magazine that an angmoh lady kindly gave to me at the airport for free (and realised that LiLo is marrying her lesbian partner.which makes me angry)
♥ Organisational Behaviour (toldju im a nerd)
♥ i really should read more, isnt it? =P


6 songs I could listen to over & over again;
♥ Extreme - When I First Kissed You (yes kavita. its my turn to get stuck)
♥ Jordin Sparks ft. Chris Brown - No Air (to aaron heng: got air got air!!)
♥ Francisco, FloRida, T-Pain - Low (Remix)
♥ The whole See The Morning album by Chris Tomlin (thats more songs than six already)
♥ Trading Yesterday - Beautiful (thank you jo ann!)
♥ Jon McLaughlin - So Close (hopeless romantic)


6 things I learnt for the past year;
♥ That this generation seriously needs to go back to Him
♥ That i am not able to handle a relationship.
♥ That really, sometimes shutting up is a hell lot better.
♥ That there is nothing more constant than change
♥ To trust God (and am still learning every single day)
♥ That i actually can love myself.

6 people to tag:
♥ copy + paste the above list down here

*cough cough*
*blows away dust and cobwebs*

my apologies, people.
(if u still read this abandoned blog)
been busy and away,
and will continue to be busy anyway.
i feel like my life is hanging by a thread now..
all my past habits are gone in the busyness.

will update about lovely australia soon.
but now,
because ann tagged me <3

10 Years Ago, I...
1. was 9
2. was bullied in primary school
3. didnt know that my name was eilvane
4. uhm.
5. yeah. hahaha

5 Years Ago, I...
1. was in form 2
2. was my 2nd best secondary year.
3. started to get to know lotsa ppl
4. attended my first ever youth camp and got hooked =)
5. dont know!!!

3 Years Ago, I...
1. was 16, wasnt that sweet after all
2. was in a difficult position
3. celebrated my 16th birthday at the buffet place in Sunnybank
4. was a prefect
5. had a childish crush

A Year Ago, I...
1. was working the first four months of my post-SPM freedom
2. started becoming an IS student
3. got all sorts of different exposure
4. think i started growing up. for real.
5. had a surgery

So Far This Year, I...
1. just got back from AUSTRALIA!!!
2. skipped 2 weeks of school
3. am starting to feel at home (finally) at IS
4. have a better relationship with my parents
5. have the desire to want to apply for an AUS PR.

Yesterday, I....
1. just touched ground at KK
2. sweated the first time in 2 weeks
3. had dinner with extended father's side family
4. felt hungry for the first time in 2 weeks
5. realised that i miss australia

Today, I ....
1. still miss australia
2. sent janice off at the airport and cried. (love and miss that honey =)
3. went to a meeting at kyrugma house
4. met the ppl that i missed all this time =)
5. am feeling monday blues

Tomorrow I will...
1. need to wake up early cuz my road tax expired.
2. be giving out chocs at school as souvenirs
3. be returning to school and busyness craze
4. prolly be lost in all the lessons i missed
5. try to not lose my head.

Real Name: Eilvane Chieng
Nickname: vern, veerrrrrrnnnnnnnn, aivern, momma....
Married: soon..ahahaha
Male/Female: Female.
High school: SM LokYuk.
College: IS?
Are You A Healthy Freak?: somewhat. dont look like one though. :S.
Do You Have A Crush On Someone?: nop. still as water.
Do You Like Yourself?: course!

First..
Surgery: last year.
Person You See In The Morning: momndad
Award: dont really remember...
Sport You Join: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHa
Vacation: dont remeber... so long ago.
Drink: water or milk. hahah.

I’m About To: go shower and pack my bags and go to sleep

Your future..
Want Kids: yeah.

Want To Get Married: hell yeah!

Careers In Mind: something that brings the cash in .

Which is better?
Lips Or Eyes?: Eyes
Hugs Or Kisses?: both.
Shorter Or Taller?: Taller!
Romantic Or Spontaneous?: Romantic AND spontaneous.
Sensitive Or Loud?: they arent even direct opposites of each other.
Troublemaker Or Hesitant?: troublemaker. hahahaha

Have you ever..
Kissed A Stranger?: No.
Drank Bubbles: hahah yeah
Lost Glasses / Contacts: dont have any to lose hahaha
Ran Away From Home: not officially.
Liked Someone Younger: yeah.
Broke someone’s heart: yeah. bad thing to do though.
Been arrested: no..
Cried when someone died: yeah.

Do you believe in..
Yourself: yeah.
Miracles: yeah.
Magic: nop
Angels: yeah! im surrounded by a few now

Answer truthfully..
Is There Someone You Want To Be With Right Now?: i dare not wish.

Tag 5 people:
apple
derek
steffi!
joel tan
tammi