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Name: Erin
Country: United States
State: North Carolina
Metro: Cary
Birthday: 12/10/1982
Gender: Female


Interests: Music: Death Cab for Cutie, Snow Patrol, Ataris, Green Day, Simple Plan, Good Charlotte, Dashboard Confessional, Jimmy Eat World, Anna Nalick and many others; TV: Gilmore Girls; Movies: Casablanca, Life is Beautiful, Sabrina, Pearl Harbor, Just Married; Reading: Anne Lamot, Alice Sebold, Ernest Hemmingway, Annie Dillard; Sports: Swimming and Volleyball; Teaching; Hanging out with friends; etc.
Expertise: Making mistakes and trying to learn from them.
Occupation: Education/training
Industry: Education/Research


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Member Since: 1/5/2005

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Sunday, December 31, 2006

End on a good note...

So, since it's been so long, I thought I'd end the year off on a good xanga note. For those of you who still check in on me via this site...I'll skip the worrying about you and just thank you for your faithfulness!!

All is well in my life at the moment! I love my job...stress and all. I love my boyfriend...differences and all. And I have high hopes for the new year ahead.

I am really growing as a teacher this year. I'm SO glad I switched to Wake County this year as my co-workers are the main reason for my growth! Unfortunately, not each of them help me grow in a positive way. I have had some conflicts with another 5th grade teacher at my school but I feel as though each disagreement is a chance to grow professionally. I have had many compliments on my teaching and my professionalism from co-workers, my mentor, and even from both my principal and assistant principal. All of which have been great encouragements.

Moment of complete honesty...church life hasn't been that great recently. Work has been taking up so much time that I have been missing Wednesday church and Thursday Bible Study lately. And...with the way I am...when I start missing, it's easy to keep missing. However, tomorrow is not just another day, but another year. I'm planning on getting back on track with my attendance and devotion. (Prayer is welcomed!)

Speaking of prayer...please keep my family in your prayers. My grandma has been diagnosed with alzheimers. However, as you can imagine, she denies it and thinks my mom is just telling her this in order to steal all of her money. It has caused many conflicts with family members and most likely will until the inevitable end.

Other than that stuff...I'm still living just outside Raleigh, NC in the same apartment I was in when I moved down here. I REALLY like my place. John Paul and I are still going strong...9 months!! He spoiled me both on my birthday and Christmas. We'll see what Valentine's Day holds.

Alright...well...I feel as though I've done my duty in updating. Now I'll just wait to see if anyone responds. Have a great and safe night and an amazing start to the new year!!!


Friday, July 07, 2006

Currently Listening
Let Love In
By The Goo Goo Dolls
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The Trip...

     JP and I returned from Rochester, NY late Tuesday night. All in all, it was a great trip. Some aspects were very hard, but it was still great. I LOVE his mom and she seemed kind of found on me...at least that was the impression I received when she started making honeymoon suggestions for the two of us. His youngest brother (22) was also pretty cool. He was able to calm me down (and bought me a shot of Jamieson Irish Whiskey) when his brother was frustrating me and felt comfortable enough with me to open up about some things he's going through. The middle brother (24) and his dad on the other hand were a little harder to get to know. Oh...I also met one set of grandparents. His grandfather is completely on fire for God. Such an encouragement. I was very glad to meet him because he's the main reason JP made the decision to turn his life around for the Lord.
     Highlights of the trip...meeting everyone, good food, nearly decking a girl from his past, going to Canada for the first time, getting to see Niagra Falls, and the main highlight...getting to spend 113 hours straight with the guy I love!!! What could be better than that?
     Yes, it's a brief synopsis, but at least it's something!


Thursday, June 29, 2006

Currently Listening
Live from Mars
By Ben Harper and the Innocent Criminals
Fire and Ice
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Excited yet nervous...

     First thing tomorrow morning I will be heading up to JP's apartment so we can pick up the rental car for our trip. For those of you who don't know, he and I are driving up to Rochester, NY to spend the weekend with his family. I'm excited that he is wanted me to meet his family but at the same time, I am terrified that I am going to be put under a microscope. His two brothers still live in Rochester (actually as of last weekend they both now live with their parents again). So, their girlfriends are around a lot and their parents know the girlfriends pretty well. However, due to the fact that JP lives 12 hours away and met me down here in North Carolina, most of the attention will be on us.
     Even though most parents like me, I'm still nervous. What if they don't like me? Will that be the end of our relationship? And why do we have to visit his parents first? Why can't he be the first one put in the awkward position of meeting the parents? Oh well. If you think about it, pray for our safety as we spend a full 24 hours traveling there and back between tomorrow and Tuesday. Also, pray that I can relax and just be myself.


Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Update...

So, as you could tell I was still pissed when I wrote the previous post. I think the main reason for writing it was to get it off my chest before talking to him about it. To give a slight bit of added info on the situation, my guy and said girl only dated for a couple of months and that was in 1999. The main problem I had was that she is still hung up on him and he doesn't see that. Also, because they have stayed such good friends, I feel as though she is more of a threat than just an ex...you know what I mean, maybe he'll go to her about things going on in his life rather than me.

Anyway...he called for our nightly phone call and Bible reading after my post. We talked for a little while, he read our Bible reading, and then he said "ok, why are you mad at me? I want to hear you say it." After going back and forth about how I shouldn't have to admit it if he knew why, I finally said it. "I'm pissed that you not only went to go see your ex but that you took MY car to do so." We talk...for a long time...about it. I voiced my concerns, we talked through all of it, he apologized for hurting me. And...for those of you who know me well, it wasn't a conversation where he weasles his way out of taking responsibility for what he did and turns it into my fault or problem but he really listened and talked with me. It was a nice change from previous relationships.

So, in summary: Yes, she was a bitch for not sending the sunglasses to him. No, he wasn't the brightest crayon in the box for going out to get them. But, yes, the situation has been resolved. JP and I are still together (there was never a risk of us ending over this) and will be for a long time if I have any say in it!!!

Thanks ladies for the comments!


Monday, June 26, 2006

Hypothetical question...

Ok...I need some help. Once again, for those of you who do not post comments, you know my e-mail address and/or my phone number.

Say you go on vacation for a week. You leave your boyfriend (or girlfriend for you guys) a key to your car because he takes you to the airport in it and is letting you keep it at his place for the week. You assume he's going to drive it to church since he drives a cargo van due to his job. Not a problem. However, when you return, you notice that while you left your car with somewhere around 150-200 miles on the mile-counter-thingy, you return to see that the mile-counter-thingy shows almost 700 miles on the car. It eventually crosses you mind that he has a friend in Wilmington, not too far away. However, you know this friend is an ex and you know he wouldn't drive YOUR car 4 hours (altogether) to see an ex who still likes him. Especially when he just saw this friend 2 weekends ago.

Moving on...you come to find out that he did in fact go see this friend. He tells you it was just to get his prescription sunglasses back that she wouldn't mail to him but after a little prodding he admits that they did spend time together.

So, my question...if your boyfriend/girlfriend knew seeing this "friend" bothered you due to her ongoing feelings for him yet went anyway...using your car to get there, would you be upset? Would you have a right to be upset?

If you can't tell, this is bothering me. I don't want it to, but it is. I'm wondering if I'm just being pathetic about it or if the fact that it bothers me is reasonable. Please be honest with your responses.



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