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this is what happens when a 13 year old girl has no life......

Sat, 05 May 2007 15:55:01 GMT

Yeah......took this quiz. Yes, I know I have no life but it was interesting! Here's the link: http://www.memegen.net/view/show/6776

new layout!!! and update on the moving front....

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 03:19:46 GMT

YAY new layout!!!! Ritsuka x Soubi ftw! I love the anime. Loveless, I mean. Gawd, they're so ghei. But i <3 it. So not complaining. (I blame Court for the yaoi mind. Thanks a lot, Court =P) But the layout's so pretty and floatyyyy.......

Anyways, going to CA is 99% going to happen. My mom's like, "Hey, there's still a 1% chance we're staying here if a miracle happens!" I'm like, "O.O I'm relying on a MIRACLE????!!!!" So.....yeah. But I decided it's not totally going to suck. If I go to CA, I'll be staying with my dad in Fremont, not with my mom. And now she's like, trying to get me to stay with her instead of with my dad. Like the bad things that will happen if I stay with him. I'm like, "Whatever Mom. I can make my own decisions. Mind over matter. (Stolen from Edward in Twilight. Because Edward rocks like that.) If I believe I can stay there and be okay, then I will be. So ha." But I still love my mommy. Because she's my mom. Anyway, it's not totally going to suck because I'll be with my friend Vicky. Who is totally awesome and rocks. But not as much as my pimpettes. Who I will miss so much if I move. Seriously, that's like, the only reason I want to stay in NJ. The weather sucks here. But I can live with it. There are a LOT of a-holes here. But I can live with it. Sigh. Anyway, again, not going to suck so much because Court told me that I'll be closer to anime cons and yaoi cons and stuff. And more Asian people. And more Asian CD stores. And a better Barnes and Noble. Thanks Court. I needed that cheering up =) And I'll be closer to my big sister <333 And I guess my bro too. Except he's mean to me. But he's been nicer recently. Which makes me suspicious. What if he did something bad?

Well, because of the whole moving thing, my mom's all, "You have to clean out your room! Donate clothes you don't want! Clean out the garbage!" So now I have two big bags full of clothes to donate and three big garbage bags of, well, garbage. But now my room is so clean. And I can actually open my closet door all the way! (It opens into the closet, not out of it.) It's so.....clean. It's kind of scary. Oh, but I save the most ridiculous things. Read below:

@Ashley: Remember last year in 7th grade how you explained divs to me during lunch? On a cafeteria paper towel? I still have it. With your code and diagrams and everything. I saved it ^^ By the way, your handwriting sucks =P I can barely read the code. But I still love you.

I basically save everything you losers give to me. Because I love you so much. I even saved the elephant bookmark Court gave me because she wrote her phone number on the back of it so I could call her and remind her to bring manga to school the next day for me to borrow. And all your cards. And presents. Oh, and I saved the Barnes and Noble gift card box that George gave me for Christmas. Kind of already used the gift card, but the paper thing it was attached to had a note from George. So I saved it. Man, I'm a dork. Still <3 you all though.

P.S. Fahrenheit is the <33333~ 'Specially Arron -^^- Oh and I <3 Arron x Jiro. Because you know they're gay for each other ;D Even Neko-chan knows and she's not even a yaoi fan.

let's listen to me being emo.......

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 23:27:27 GMT

I am in a very.......empty mood right now. You know how you feel kind of empty and depressed after a good cry? Yeah, that's how I feel considering how much I've cried in the past half hour. And now my eyes feel dry and weird. I hate crying. My mom is making me move back to CA. There is a whole big story to it but I don't feel like telling anyone right now. I can't even blame my mom that much for making me move. Just the fact that she should've listened to me when I told her not to move to NJ when I was seven. But noooo nobody ever listens to me even when I'm right. Feh. I'm probably going to break down sometime tomorrow during school. This is probably the worst I've ever felt. Even worse than when my mom hits me. Yeah. And my mom didn't even hit me this time. It just feels kind of pointless right now. I have like, three months here. And that's it. Staying here is literally not even an option anymore. At all. It's either Mission San Jose High School in Fremont, CA or a high school in Irvine, CA. Life sucks......... (And yes Mom, I can say that my life sucks because of what you're doing to it. I'm not even kidding. My life is literally in ruins right now. You have to have a good childhood school life to have smooth sailing the rest of your future. Not letting me go to High Tech is a mistake. I know it. If you tell someone you go to a vocational high school, it's impressive. But no, apparently she thinks it's not a good enough school or some other bullshit like that. And yes, I will curse because I am pissed off.)

updating xanga more!!! woot!

Fri, 09 Mar 2007 03:26:26 GMT

I'm actually updating xanga more now......Let's see how long that'll last!!! Anyways, GEPAs are on the 12th. Not too worried; I've seen the sample questions and they're kind of retarded. Besides, who ever actually studies for standardized tests anyway? Never have, never will. 13th is Science Olympiad competition!!! YES!!! Skipping GEPA for a day =D I like breaks. Or respites. Ooooh vocab word! Heh heh heh.......I'm high on something......

In present news, ATHENS VS. SPARTA!!!! Hells yeah, all the way. Athens owns Sparta any day. Athens is smart, Sparta's stupid =P To all my friends in Burns and Bell, try to get Athens. Because Athena owns Artemis =D (>> so incredibly biased) I actually like going to SS now. Not that I didn't before, Schultheis is the best SS teacher, but it's like, super fun now. Even though I'm separated from Court. -cries- It's okay though. Athens makes up for it ^^ YAY!!! I'll stop now.......

so bored......

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 19:21:30 GMT

Yup, I have no life and decided to post this.

1. Pick your birth month.
2. Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
3. Bold the five-ten that best apply to you. (I picked more than ten though...... >> doesn't know how to follow directions)
4. Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. ~~Attractive.~~ Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. ~~Knows how to console others.~~ Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. ~~Observant.~~ ~~Careful and cautious.~~ ~~Thinks quickly.~~ Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. ~~Talented in the arts, music and defense.~~ Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. ~~Learns to relax.~~ Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

You can do this if you have no life too! =)

high tech....emo-ness.......basically every other xanga entry out there.......

Wed, 28 Feb 2007 22:22:05 GMT

Okay. Made it in. And now. I'm uberly confused. And depressed. And more confused. When I got the letter, my mom was crying her eyes out and I don't even know about what. I'm pretty sure it's not out of happiness that I got in. She doesn't even want to stay in NJ. So I didn't know if I should go or not. But later, she comes into my room to give me 20 bucks that I made it in and took the acceptance form and checked that I was going. And then I felt so happy that I got in. I called my dad (who doesn't even KNOW what a vocational school IS because he lives in a box) and was all happy and floaty. But then I read Court's xanga post (not blaming her in any way) but the full reality hit me about what I was deciding. I mean, now that I made it in to HTHS, my mom practically won't even CONSIDER HHS now. And if I don't go to High Tech, we're going back to CA. So basically, it's either High Tech or Mission High in CA. So the answer seems simple. If I want to stay in NJ, go to High Tech right? But I'm not even sure if I want to go to High Tech now. I mean sure, I get to stay here, but I'll barely get to see you guys. I won't lose touch, but we barely even get to see Kevin. I got so much closer to you all. I love you guys like sisters. Um, yeah this is directed at Ash, Nekocchi, Court, and Mii-chan. Last year, I would've gone to High Tech in a heartbeat. I didn't think I had so much to leave behind. But this year went by so fast. It's already midpoint of the third marking period. Soon we'll only have June left to have fun like Beach Day, adjudications, Graduation, Washington, etc.

What if I just want to go to HHS? I could go to chorus, hang out with you guys all I want, inside jokes, just like now but in high school. But like any other Asian out there, I still think about my future and college and stuff. But I mean really. I'm 13. WTF. My situation is more complicated than most. I'm an indecisive person, everyone knows that. I can barely decide what to eat for LUNCH. I can't just go eenie meenie miny moe or flip a coin. Gawd, if only it were that easy. Seishun dreams! (Sorry, had to throw that in.) Sigh. I thought I was going to go to High Tech. Possibility that I'm going is extremely high. But I'm still not completely 100% sure. Frick. I have a dad who's living under a rock, a brother who's jealous that I got into a better high school than him and just plain hates me, a mom that is practically emo and is not helping me make a decision, and a sister who has no clue what the heck is going on. Damn. Life sucks ass right now.

P.S. My dad thought a vocational school was a school where people went to and then they don't go to college. I'm like, "Dad WTF are you thinking about?" o.0;; So I had to explain it to him that you had to apply and stuff for it. And he's like, "So is that good?" I was just -palm/face- the whole conversation.

high school chorus~

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 02:20:08 GMT

YAY I made it into the high school chorus!!! PHWEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! I posted the list here: http://www.harmonia.x-tenshi.com/chorus.html. Anyways, so happy I made it in!!! Hmmm.....what else is happening.......Oh this Saturday, the chinese school is hosting this New Year's celebration dealio. And my chinese school teacher guilted me into going T.T And now I have to carry this weird frisbee/plate thing with a picture of a tiger on it, for the chinese zodiac. And I have to talk in the beginning. But on the plus side, I don't actually have to be on stage when I talk!!! I get to talk behind the curtain. =D Oh and the chinese school gave OMG ONE DOLLAR for chinese new year money XP It used to be five bucks when I was in fourth grade. Still, I rake in the money from my mom, dad, stepdad, and grandparents' money. So IMA GONNA BE RICH!!! I <3333 Chinese New Year

science olympiad is the ownage~

Thu, 11 Jan 2007 01:31:31 GMT

Science Olympiad was so awesome!~ Let's see....My events were Heredity and Meteorlogy. Heh heh...I BSed my way through both XD I am a bad person. But that's okay. I got fourth place medals in both! YAY! I like my medals...Satz overall finished 6th out of 20 teams. That's pretty good. So we get to go to States! Which is in March...during GEPAs...Which is good and bad. Good because we get to miss GEPAs and bad because we have to make it up the following week. Oh by the way, we're going to KILL COMMUNITY AND MONTGOMERY MIDDLE SCHOOLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY ARE SO GOING DOWN!!!! I DON'T CARE IF SCI OLY IS PART OF THEIR EVERY DAY CURRICULUM!!! It doesn't mean they get to be obnoxious about it. Seriously, every school at Science Olympiad hates Community. Montgomery is starting to get haters too. Every time they get a medal or first in something, they cheer so flippin' loud that my eardrums hurt even though I'm like, 10 feet away from them. But the good thing is, Community got 7th place in one event and 6th in another. So I'm happy -^^-

Oh yeah, the alternates are going with us to States this time. Which means Derk, Jessica Sher, Noelle Cornelio, etc. get to go. Which is good. The more events we can win stuff in, the better. And Mr. Dowd is making us wear matching T-shirts. Seriously, matching T-shirts mean your school is obnoxious. That might be true for us, but it doesn't mean we have to SHOW it. I'd rather have us be underestimated and then kick their asses later. Like Hillsborough Middle School. When Emily Chen, Sara Waxman, and Sara Erkal were carrying their Mission Possible machine thing down the aisle to our spot in the auditorium, they were like, "THAT'S IT??!!! What school do THEY go to?" and were laughing hysterically. Of course we got fourth place in Mission Possible and beat them =] Emily Chen wanted to seriously go over there and personally kick their asses to shut their mouths up. I was going with her, but we couldn't because Mr. Dowd called us over for a group meeting T.T

Anyway, matching T-shirts. Mr. Dowd wants to make them PINK. Okay? PINK T-SHIRTS!!! Emily (Fu) was like, "Mr. Dowd!!! We can't wear PINK T-shirts! We'll be the gay team!" And he was just staring at her like wtf o.0; Besides, Ben and Derek can't wear pink T-shirts. All of us would be ridiculed at Science Olympiad. Em and I are totally for black T-shirts with red writing. I mean, seriously. The colors of evil: black for darkness and red for blood. You can't beat that. Mr. Dowd actually wants to hold a meeting just to decide what color our T-shirts should be XD

happy new year's all~

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 02:53:00 GMT

Happy New Year's, everyone! I went to Cali for my winter break to see my daddy and big sis~ And now, a long summary of what happened; you can choose to read it or not:

On Christmas Day, my bro and I flew to CA. CONNECTING flight. (Thanks, Dad) Which means we had to take a one-hour plane to D.C. and wait 2-3 hours for our next plane to Oakland, CA. Joy.....That was fun. I don't care how many times a year I have to get on a flippin' plane, I will never get used to how much planes suck. So Christmas was on a plane. But wait, when we actually go to Oakland, our luggage wasn't there. It got mixed up or something. So we had to go BACK the next day to see if our stuff came.

So we got to my daddy's house in Fremont to open Christmas presents. Yes, my dad and sister actually waited for us to come so they could open presents at 1 in the morning. I have no clue how they could've waited. You people know, once you give me presents, it takes me all of five seconds to open it. So anyways, I got 60 bucks; 100 bucks from my dad that he put in the forkin' BANK so it could collect INTEREST and I can't touch it 'til I'm like, 20 something; crafts, this purse-like thing, and chapstick from Vicky; and this mug with a snowman stuffed animal, two packets of hot cocoa o.0;;. two candy canes, and two lip glosses from my sister. Pretty good turnout for presents.

Because my dad is crazy, he keeps the house at like, 69 degrees as opposed to my mom, who keeps it at 76. So basically, the first night, I froze. Even in CA, at night, it can get kind of cold. So I had a sore throat for about three days or so.

Anyways, in the morning, we all got ready to go back to the stupid airport to get my bro's and my luggage. Thankfully, it was there so we could go to Las Vegas. Which means being stuck in a car for 12 hours. You wouldn't believe how much I slept on the car ride. I swear, after that day, I could've gone three days without sleeping. Now see, we would've gotten there at around 9:30 but there was this massive traffic jam when we were going like, five miles an hour. It was so sad because everyone was trying to get to LA for New Year's. So we just kind of inched along. We eventually got to Las Vegas Hilton where we stayed for two days. Hilton rocks because I know it really well. I know where the arcade, gift shop, second gift shop, and basically where everything is.

The third night, we stayed in Excalibur because its buffet is the ownage. Two slices of pie and ice cream for dessert yo~ Unfortunately, my sis got REALLY sick. Like, throw up sick. Which she did. Several times. (TMI, I know) Well at Las Vegas, the main thing for us was the "O" show, a Cirque du Soleil performance at the Bellagio. So we watched them which was pretty cool. They were always above this circular pool of water. At the Bellagio gift shop, I wanted to buy a shirt with the Bellagio logo on it, but wasn't outrageously expensive like the thirty-dollar t-shirt my sister was crazy enough to buy. And naturally, as an Asian, I went to the 40% clearance rack XD And I found the most awesome shirt that was marked down twice from 28 bucks to $10.55. So I bought it. And my dad kept saying how good I was and everything for finding such an awesome sale. My sister was actually willing to trade her 30 dollar t-shirt for mine. I'm like -stare- No, sorry sister.

The road trip back was bearable. It took less time because we were going back, not to. Or else it would've been another massive traffic jam. Back in Fremont, we basically just hung around and did nothing. My sis has a winter job at Macy's where she works and gets 63 bucks a day. Unfair....... My brother stayed with his best friend Michael Chaykin (cough chicken XD) I just marinated at home and went places with my dad. I had shabu shabu for the first time. It is so awesome. Tastes really good. Went to B&N there too. Which by the way, totally owns our Barnes and Noble. They have a section marked 'Manga' not 'Graphic Novels'. So they actually acknowledge that it's manga. And the wall is about three times the size of ours. I just sat and read for like, four hours or something. I bought Skip-Beat volume 2 with George's 10 dollar gift card. Thanks George =D

I also brought back my sister's Japanese stuff from her high school years. Sigh. She is so lucky. She got to learn three years of Japanese. And the extremely unfair thing is that her school has TWO Japanese teachers. Not one, TWO. So so so cruel. Oh and I got her prom dress too so I can wear it at graduation.

Well, if you were smart, you skipped that entire upper part. It was excruciatingly boring if you had to read it. Anyway, I guess I'll see you people all tomorrow in school! Ew.....school..........

winter break has officially started!

Fri, 22 Dec 2006 23:37:01 GMT

Hells yeah! Finally! This week was so flippin' long. Ahh......no homework. No school for a week and a half........I feel so free! Thanks for the Christmas presents everyone! I really like all of them ^^ And no, I'm not just saying that to make you all feel better XD Really though, thanks. You guys really didn't have to get me anything. I know, I know, "I DIDN'T???!!!!!"

I'm leaving for California on the 25th. I won't have any internet access from the 26th to the 30th so I won't be able to answer any emails, talk on Gtalk, etc. On the 30th, I'm seeing Jamin, and on the 31st, I'm coming back to NJ! January 2nd is back to school TT.TT January 4th is Nekocchi's birthday! YAY!!! -throws confetti- Her party is on the 6th. I think. Right?

Anyways, have a great holiday and break everyone! Please please don't do anything stupid like get drunk -cough Ash-chan-, explode from eating too much -cough Derk-, or spaz out of control -cough everyone including myself- XD