I’ve been lurking. I’ve been reading my subscriptions, trying to keep up on what’s going on in your lives, I just haven’t been able to form any words of my own. It’s hard to blog about what’s going on in my life when my mom isn’t here to share it with me. So much has happened in the last ten months; she has missed so many things, things she would not have wanted to miss. I’ve been trying to come to terms with her death over the last few months, but it’s a loosing battle. Whoever said that time heals everything is a liar. I hurt more and more everyday that my mom isn’t here. I know I have to keep moving on, it’s what my mom would want, but it’s so damn hard. I’m angry and I’m sad and I just hurt from the inside out.

I appreciate all of your kind words and your patience with me and the lapses in my blog; I really am hoping to start blogging about normal, everyday things again soon. I’m just in a fog right now and nothing is normal anymore. I’m waiting for the fog to clear and for the sun to shine again but for now I just have to take one day at a time and maybe one day soon you’ll come here and I’ll be blogging about something happy, something normal, something not so sad.