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Emo_FigNEWtOn
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Name: Ivona
Country: United States
State: Maryland
Metro: Silver Spring
Birthday: 9/13/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: Glitter, Music, Stuffed animals, Reading, Art, Making stuffs, Six 50, Friends, Concerts, Writing, Video Games, Movies ^_^.
Expertise: I am expert at being a faliure. Haha Kidding. I'm super at writing or so I have been told.
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
AIM:  EmoFignewton
Yahoo:  Duckseatme
Member Since:
3/3/2005
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| It's been a while Lydia scince your the only one who reads this I miss you . I havn't seen you in so long I want to come visit you in a few weeks in october mabye? Do you realize it's been a whole year.... that's crazy.. Right? I've got so much to tell you . I'm getting married. That's even more crazy right....So much has happened I feel hurt, lost , confused, Lifes just insaine .. but I'm still living so it's okay.. right? Give me some advice you were always so good at that. Let's chat soon yeah? | | |
| SO it's been a while. I've bottled everything up and I've let it eat me alive. I feel so completly alone but I know I'm not... I feel completly abandoned but I'm the one that walked away . I feel so isolated but I turned the lock. Now I don't know just how or where to pick up. I need some kind of help that no one seems to be able to give. I need some kind of help but everyone keeps dropping me. HE says all you need is another complication eh? I know I don't ........but part of me wants that complication . Like it will revive my style make me suddenly beautiful again. And I know it won't. It's a wish a dream a stupid dream for a stupid girl was my reply . I doubt he took it to heart. HE was some kind of hope for starting over picking it all back up he wasn't aware and I only got hurt because I let myself. They say don't let people in but share your feelings ... but really who are they point me in that direction and give me a shotty you all deserve the death thats coming.. I deserve some kind of physical pain ... something harsh .. I know it and you just don't want to say it.. but whats done is done .. whats missed is gone . Whats seen was wrong. Love isnt a word anymore. The only words I know form on the tip of my tounge but won't come out not even when I'm gasping for air under what I wish was your hands putting pressure on my neck. | | |
| I've only pushed it because I feel that I know the decision you want to
make and I feel I know the decision your scared to make.. But I dared
you to make it .. and you did.. and now it's us.. for now it's us. I
have no fears.
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