Currently Listening The Places You Have Come To Fear The Most By Dashboard Confessional see related

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Well it has been a long time since I've updated this. For starters, I'm no longer with Rickie, we broke up about four months ago. I'm ready to move on, and I am moving on in a sense. I believe I've been looking for someone that gets me, and I think he might just have been right under my nose the whole time. Yah, but I'm too scared to do anything about it right now. Giving my heart away again seems way too scary, and possibly losing the friendship of someone amazing is also scary. At this point, I'm leaving it up to fate. If something comes about then I'll allow it, but if not, then I will still have a good friend. I think that was the hardest part of losing Rickie, I lost my best friend too. But now, I know better, and will be safer with my heart. Also, I know this time I've found someone with a lot more integrity, who really cares about me as a friend and person, rather than just another girl. I can't wait to get back to school. Two weeks till I move back, and I can't wait to see Ari and all my other friends again. I went to Pittsburgh this weekend to Visit Paul, and John was there too. Just seeing them made me realize how amazing it is going to be when we all go back. I love school because I can just be myself there. And I know I'm appreciated there too. Ok, well thats enough for now. I just hope I somehow find completion through all of this. I know I will eventually.

<3 Liz

Currently Listening The Fallen Star Collection By Brandston see related

blah blah blah....today is not the greatest day. i am skipping my classes however! haha, i had to work from 8-10 today and i have to go back from 3:30-5 this afternoon. after that i have to go to salsa lessons till seven and then who knows. but from now till three thirty i'm just gonna do as little as possible. jk, i'm going to do some homework and maybe get started on a project. this past weekend was ok. friday i just hung out with ari and some friends, we went to the improv and it was hilarious! after that we hung out at zbt for a lil bit.  saturday was homecoming. we had the parade in the morning and i think we deserved some sort of award for being the loudest, but it wasn't so. we went to the game and we lost, 28-7, to wash. U. so sad. oh well, after that we kinda hung around and someone suggested going to walmart! so we went and it was fabulous, i love wal mart!  rickie and some of his friends wanted to ride street so they came up to case and the surrounding area for a while, i only got to see him for about three mins total, i was pretty dissappointed about that. i hoped he might stay a little longer and hang out but the other guys wanted to move on, so he didn't. ari and i went to homecoming after that, we were looking hot! i can tell you that for sure, haha. there was this guy who was dancing in a manner that can only be described as driving a tractor, this was while the song sexual healing by was playing so i called it the sexual tractor, we all got a kick out of that. after that we made a stop by good old zebes and we were all so tired we just left after about half an hour on someones couch.  sunday was a really fun day! ari and i slept in for the first time in soooo long, i loved it. we went to breakfast with mark and gorged ourselves on giant pancakes.  after that we all just hung around again till mark and i decided to go to target, ari came too. it was the most amazing target i've ever been in, i was in heaven it was soo cool! after that mark treated us to dinner at applebees and we will now love him forever because of it! he's the greatest guy in raymond, hands down. after we got home i put on some pj's, ari and i visited the fourth and then i went to bed. and that's the rest of the story....haha. ok, well i'm gonna go bs for a while, love you all

Lizzy!

Currently Listening Commit This to Memory By Motion City Soundtrack see related

yesterday was mine and Rickie's one year anniversary! i can't believe its already been a whole year.  we are a good team and i think we are meant for each other,  mean i dont know anyone quite as unique as the two of us. we went to applebee's last night to commemorate our first date, and sat in the same table we sat on august 25th 2004, and had the same waiter and everything, it was so cute. i am the happiest i think i've ever been, and that is honestly all i need. i love rickie. so wonderful to be happy.

<3 Lizzy

Currently Listening Good Apollo, I'm Burning Star IV, Volume One: From Fear Through The Eyes of Madness By Coheed & Cambria see related

Sunday, bloody Sunday...just thought I'd put in some lyrics to describe the day. actually it's not bloody at all. its a fine day.  this was a great weekend, I got to see Rickie a whole bunch and that made me happy Friday I dropped Ari off at the airport and I was sad because she's become one of my close friends and I missed her this weekend.  shortly after Rickie came up and we got some food because Lizzy was very hungry.  we rode around on our bikes for a little bit but there wasn't much to do so we came back to the dorm and watched the family guy movie, that was great I love that movie its so funny. Saturday we got some brunch because stupid leutner doesn't open until 10:30 on weekends...grrr...anyway we ate for like an hour, it was very filling. after that we decided to go check out the natural history museum. that was a lot of fun, we saw dinosaurs and fossils and all sorts of cool stuff! then we headed back and we hung around the dorm for a while and let all that food digest, we also watched some very informative television shows about low riders...it was very cool. then we went for a little riding session around case with our new friend Dave, it was good I took a lot of pics while they rode mainly. we saw some stray dogs sitting on the bridge that is closed by south side and I was very worried that they were hungry and didn't have anyone to love them I always get sad for animals, they can't talk to us and let us know they are hurt or hungry. but I can't let it get to me, people spay and neuter your pets! all right, after riding we got some food at Wackadoo's it was good food and a fun place to eat. We then rode back to the dorm with a stop to ride on the PBL building and I took some great shots of Rickie doing a wall ride. after that we decided to relax for a while and I proceeded to get a tummy ache and fell asleep at like ten thirty, I'm such a loser sometimes...haha. at like three thirty in the morning some kids were sitting in the hall outside my dorm room talking very loudly and they woke me up, I sorta yelled at them and I felt bad about it, but come on kids, three thirty, what are you doing out in the hall talking, go to a study room and shut the door or stay down in the lobby, its common sense and courtesy. all right I'm done ranting. this morning Rickie left at like 9am and I took a shower and went to get breakfast with some kids from the dorm. after that Mark and I decided to go to tower city so I did some shopping and bought some candy, it was yummy! now I'm tired and I might take a nap....ok, well peace out,

<3 Lizzy