i will NEVER eat again. gosh i am so frustrated sometimes!!

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todays intake so far:

B- sprinklins yogurt (100), 1 cinnamon roll (250)

L- strawberries (-), 6 cinnamon rasin bagel crisps (100)

S- 3 cookies, cookie dough (600)

subtotal= 1050

okay, so i made cookies... but i did better than i usually do. i just love to bake, and hopefully soon ill be able to make anything i want without tasting at all =]

big workout planned for tonight...

stay strong!!

hello beautiful! today was a long babysitting day... dangitt. corn flakes, trail mix, fruit, mac'n'cheese. thats it, but i had 2 servings of mac'n'cheese and 3 cups of trail mix... only one serving of trail mix though (100cals) and i did 20 pushups before i left and 50 crunches while babysitting. i plan on spending tonight on my ablounge listening to music and working off all these fat cells that have swollen inside of me.

isnt it gross to think of it that way? but thats really what it is- youre swollen.

gotta go eat dinner with the family, ill try not to eat too much! stay strong girls, ill get on after dinner. much love, *jess

hey girlies... ive noticed that not being online for such a long time really takes a toll on my body, and babysitting all day every day since school let out doesnt help much.

i mean, normally i have people all around me and i HATE eating in front of people... but when its just a 4 and 2 year old... its not as monitoring, you know? like when i make them popcorn i eat like 1/4 of the bag, and when theyre taking their naps i clean up the house and have a snack. its so hard!!

so i bought the issue of USWeekly with lindsay lohan and nicole richie on the front and i think ill cut out some of their pictures and put them in my wallet so ill be able to look at them whenever i get hungry... i really think lindsay lohan is ana though- have you seen her since she dyed her hair blonde? shes so gorgeous but she really HAS lost like a ton of weight!

so... ive been slacking on the exercise too i think. even though today the scale said i had lost 2 pounds since the last weight in... but after i went to the restroom it was 1/2 a pound HIGHER than what it said before i went... i dont know whats up with that- anybody have a clue?

tomorrow im not babysitting so im spending the day either a)doing laundry working out and not eating... or b) shopping with my best friend and not eating- i think its a win/win situation!

i need to get back on track.