where to start, thies past 2 days has been...intence...

lets start with ..Simon, I love him, as u all know, but my father...gosh.. i know hes worried about his doughter...but still....

anyways...hes comming to visit me. i guess my father will accept that. he just has to.i love him, hes my everything and im so happy to be able to be with him,that he even loves me,...

oh yeah, the thing with my brother whas just that. i made him cry .. i didnt see that he whas sitting there and i whas talking with gabe about suisice thingys.. and i just said "well do u want to see my scars then"..and i could see my bro (sitting on the other side of the room) just looking at me.. and i just went away.. and i saw he started crying..and it made me so sad....and i cant comfort ppl i feelt so helpless i wanted to hug him to make him stop crying.. but my body didint move.....oh well it ended up with that i huged him and it all went better and i told him that i didnt do that crap anymore... and its just history ..and that i feel better now..

and guys

Albert,gabe.Kat,Kelly,Simon:David... I love you guys..i love you so DAMN much... kat..told me some stuff... and i got so sad... cuz all that stuff had happend to me when i whas ..around that age....i started to cry.. and i felt so helpless..i wanted to be there..to hug and hold..and protect.....but i couldnt.. I COULDNT EVEN CALL !!.....i hate it... i wish i could be there for my friends when they need me... argh...i get so frustrated....

and yes.. i remade my sin..xD...tanking is apreciated..anytime..atleast untill i hit lv 30 xD...

Simons getting better...im getting better....im gonna go take  shower now..then im off ..to my friends.... they are gonna make a little LAN for me..so we all can play star craft brood war...i shall destroy them...AGAIN!! ahahahahaha... damn guys.. lear to play ur own games...

love you all...

Goooood Morning,its... 5 in the afternoon.yah its morning for me.Albert you should know xD, so whats new.not much

im just worried..for Simon that is. yeah he got.. shot..

he say hes fine i dont belive him cuz he hurts.i know he dose.. i can feel it..i hope he gets better i dont wanna lose him.hes allways trying to be brave. hehe silly guy. I love you i really do.i know u guys think otherewise.. cuz i flirt so much. but i flirt thats who i am.. i love my friends i really do.. but simons ..well thats a drifrent kind of love... its passionated...and.yeah.. i cant really live with out him...gosh.. im just talking nosnes.. or am i..im tierd...

ill edit.. more.. i gues.. right now.. ill watch some anime or something..

Edit:

yeah i love writing.just writing all the stuff i think about. im talking to ppl on msn. i just realized that i dont have any girls on my MSN. i dont even have girl friends,im not complaning really.it just seams wierd. (i just got killed in iRO...hunterfly on a low lv dagger sin = bad)

i feel depressed.guess im going down again...im worried.. for simon..

im gonna start to be rude..(im not braging) but can guys please stop hitting on me... im gonna snap soon i cant take it.. i want to be my self.. but its not good for me.. i guess ill start to be an ass then... dont know what to write... dont know what to do. oh well.. ill be here and there...

WOW my first post on Xanga.-proud-,

so what to write.this is like a diary thingy Oh yeah ppl dont mind my spelling cuz english is not my primary language.but i hope u understand me.So its 7 in the morning right now.what am i doing up?,im not really sure.i cant sleep insomnia? No.. hehe just.. well i dunno dont want to sleep,Yah thoughts.this is gonna be like a diary of what i do and thats mostly play iRO and mess with ppl

so today ive.. um played iRO xD my plan whas actualy to get everyone in  S pron to hate me.. that dint go so well...i mean come on im Loud im rude.. WHY DONT U HATE ME...xD....

ah screw that.i have boys problem yes.. i tend to get in trubble.. i wanna stay singel.. i really do.. its hard.. i dont want anyone... really .. ive just gotten out of a 2 years relationship.. i want to be free again.. be able to tease.. be able to flirt..... that whent to hell to well im not sure... ah... ill have to think about that..

yah  í know its not nice to tease boys but screw it thats how i am... im not nice i never said i whas.. im not long to be nice...whats wrong with those ppl that say "OMG UR SO RUDE" who the hell told u i whas nice in the first place...

good gosh...i think im gonna go to bed... or something.. or ill just go beat some guys up in StarCraft Muahahaha

Ill be back soon i guess

Edit:

Here i go again.Im listening to Tiger Lou - Like You Siad.

damn its a good song. i feel...well happy but down...sorta.. in peace...not sure what to write about,...

yes i know i have no life atm xD... im playing Ro..thats my life really.... well not really but still. i dont really care about school right now but ill pic that up soon,

Okey just to get this clear ( i know u ppl here play iRO) ;D

Rinoa = GET A FRIGGIN LIFE U PIECE OF SHIT

Misty = STOP TRYING TO BE MY FRIEND I DONT LIKE U GET IT

there can u please get it now!?!?!?....

oh yeah

i draw..manga...not really manga but like characters.i should post a site..but the site i got them on is in swedish so i bet ull get all lost there ^^

Kelly = Yes ur still a godess and i cant really get as high as u ^^ but ill kiss u anyways.

Albert = wub u hun. and i miss u i really do..sorry for everything i ever done to harm u... i wish u the greates luck and ill allways be here for u suporting u in and through anything.

thats about all the ppl that reads this think there will be more later...

wow im starting to pass out.... i should sleep xD

well then Have fun Xanga ppl ....haha..nite nite