| You know, ever since I first met
him, I always thought, 'Man, I hope
I don't mess this up.' Cause that's
what I do. I mess stuff up. But you
know what I never thought?
I never thought that I hope this
doesn't mess ME up.
I thought I saw something in you,
something good,
but I was very wrong
Sometimes I look at you and you seem
to be looking at me. But sometimes you
look away.. like you're afraid of what might
happen if you stare for just a second longer
and me? I still believe in paradise.
But now at least I know it's not the
same place you can look for..
Because it's not where you go
It's how you feel for a moment in
your life when you're part of something
& if you find that moment, it lasts forever
If she's willing enough to stay up
til 3 in the morning, waiting for you to sign on
you should at least pretend to notice her
you don't know how much that would mean to her
I will never forget the way you looked
sitting next to me, and how you smiled when
we rolled around on the ground. But as soon
as we were alone, and it was time to
learn your taste && kiss your lips
&& grab your waist && feel your hips
Late nights have never been the same
& even though i remind myself that we’ll probably
never be together, i still won’t let myself
fall for anyone else
the nice thing about love is we can
choose who ever we want to love,
but the bad thing is, so can he
& we laugh till we cry always so hard to say goodbye
& we all sit around here in our home town it's so
good like this, these are the times we'll miss
the memories, i hope they never fade
that’s the problem with us. we’re too much alike.
we’re both stubborn asses, & always want
to get our own way. we both hate to be
wrong & love to be right. but that’s
the thing about love. no matter what happens.
we always come back for each other one more time
& i believe '` that one day
the love i give will return to me
lying in the grass alone & wasted
nothing is how it used to be ;
no way
& even though i remind myself that we’ll probably
never be together, i still won’t let myself
fall for anyone else
I've had the best of you,
Now i want the rest of you.
I don't care if that's not fair.
& thank you for showing me that best friends
cannot be trusted. thank you for lieing to me.
our friendship ; the good times we had `
you can have them back. *`
A thousand miles seems pretty far,
but they’ve got planes and trains and cars,
I’d walk to you if I had no other way,
Our friends would all make fun of us,
and we'll just laugh along because,
we know that none of them have felt this way
so lets go on. blaming the shots of vodka
for our drunken minds & live tonight like its our last.
Friendship? It's not a big thing.
More like a million little things.
You’re in love & you know he loves you.
its just not the right time. You know he’s
the one for you. He loves you & wants to
be with you. it just can't happen right
now. In the end you know you’re going to
be with him; just don’t let go.
i just hope that one day you will finally realize that we had
& what was yet to come for us. what was all in the palm
of your hand, but you chose to throw it away. i hope you
realize that i was right there waiting for you
& you just turned your back.
Sometimes, in this world .. ; you see
things you don't wanNa see
I'm sorry about the phone call, & about needing you.
There's some decisions you just don't make.
I guess it's like breathing, & not wanting to.
There are some things you can't fake.
you can drive at 16, go to clubs at 18 &
drink at 21; retire at 65 .. but whoever set
the age to fall in love. < 3
There's regret that you feel about the choice
you've made you'll just have to deal before
it goes away you ask me how i feel &
here's what i'll say i'm doing fine `'*
i'm doing fine, just fine
Turn down the static, we'll make it clear, crawl
into the backseat, with the stale taste of beer*
baby, we don't need music, we'll make it all on
our own 'cause these anthems that we're
making are like buying love from a pay phone
Live for the sake of living
Love till your heart is breaking
Give your all & don't hold back.
Tell the truth and dont forget to
Laugh until you body's aching
& Cry till your hands are shaking.
Of all the years we went to school;;
&& of all the teachers we've ever had;;
Don't you think atleast one of them would
tell you how to say goodbye?
If you get a chance take it.
If it changes your life let it.
No expectations means no regrets
i want is one chance.
one night to show what
you mean to me
one chance to spend the
day with you
&& to show you how
we're sooo alike
one kiss to prove that
we are more than
J U S T F R I E N D S..
&& one night to just
H O L D Y O U T I G H T
To LET G0 isn't to forget, not think about, or ignore.
It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret.
Letting go isn't winning, nor is it losing. It's not about pride.
It's not obsessing about or dwelling on the past.
It isn't about loss and it's not defeat.
To let go is to cherish memories but overcome them.
Letting go is having the courage to accept change,
the strength to keep moving.
LETTiNG G0 iS GR0WiNG UP
Like, D0 Y0U KN0W she has five smiles?
0NE when something really makes her laugh.
& 0NE when she's making plans, 0NE when
she`s laughing out of politeness, 0NE when
she is uncomfortable, & 0NE when she's --
talking about her friends <3
REALLY GOOD STORY!..definitely worth reading <33
It all started when I was 6 years old. While I was playing outside on my farm in California,
I met a boy. He was an average kind of boy who teased you and then you
chased them and beat them up. After that first meeting in which I beat
him up we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. That
only lasted for a little while though. We would meet at the fence all
the time and we were always together.
I would tell him all my
secrets. He was very quiet he would just listen to what I had to say. I
found him easy to talk to and I could talk to him about everything. In
school we had separate friends but when we got home we would always
talk about what happened in school. One day I said to him that a guy I
liked hurt me and broke my heart. He just comforted me and said
everything would be okay. He gave me words of encouragement and helped
me get over him. I was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But I
knew that there was something else about him that I liked. I thought of
it that night and figured it was just a friend kinda thing that I was
feeling.
All through high school and even through graduation
we're always together and of course I thought of it as being friends.
But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently. On graduation
night even though we had different dates to the prom I wanted to be
with him. That night after everybody went home I went to his house and
wanted to tell him that I wanted to see him. Well, that night was my
big chance and all I did was just sit there with him watching the stars
and talking about what I was going to do and what he was going to do. I
looked into his eyes and listened to him talk about what his dream was.
How he wanted to get married and settle down. He said how he wanted to
be rich and successful. All I could do was to tell him my dream and
cuddle next to him.
I went home hurting because I didn't tell
him how I was feeling. I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved him but
I was too scared and frightened. I let my feelings go and told myself
that someday I would tell him just how I felt. All through college I
wanted to tell him but he always had someone with him. After graduation
he got a job in New York,
I was happy for him but at the same time I was sad to see him go. I was
sad also because I didn't tell him how I felt. But I couldn't let him
know now that he was leaving for his big job. So I just kept it to
myself and watched him go on the plane. I cried as I hugged him for
what I felt was going to be the last time. I went home that night and
cried my eyes out. I felt hurt that I didn't tell him what I had inside
my heart.
Well,
I got a job as a secretary and then worked my way to a computer
analyst. I was proud of what I had accomplished. One day I got a letter
with an invitation to a marriage. It was from him, I was happy and sad
at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and that we
could only be friends. I went to the wedding the next month. It was a
big occasion. The big church wedding and the reception at the hotel. I
met the bride and of course him. I fell in love one more time. But I
held back so it wouldn't spoil what should be the happiest day in his
life. I tried to have fun that night but it was killing me inside
watching him being so happy and me trying to be happy covering up my
sadness tears inside of me.
I left New York
feeling that I did the right thing. Before I left on the flight, he
came running out of nowhere and said his good-byes and how he was very
happy to see me. I came home and just tried to forget about what went
on in New York.
I had to go on with my life. As the years went on, we wrote to each
other on what was going on and how he had missed talking to me. On one
occasion he never wrote back to me at all. I was getting worried as to
why he hadn't written anything for a long time after I had already
written 6 letters to him. Well, just when everything seemed hopeless
and sad in my life, I got a note that said: "meet me at the fence where
we used to talk about things". I went and saw him there. I was happy to
see him, but he was broken-hearted and sad inside. We hugged until we
couldn't breathe anymore.
Then he told me about the divorce
and why he hadn't written for a long time. He cried until he couldn't
cry anymore. Finally, we went back to the house and talked and laughed
about what I had been going and to catch up on old times. But in all of
this, I couldn't tell him how I felt about him. In the days that
followed, he had fun and forgot about all his problem and his divorce.
I fell in love again with him. When it came time for him to leave back
to New York,
I went to see him off and cried. I hated to see him leave. He promised
to see me every time he could get a vacation. I couldn't wait for him
to come so I could be with him. We would always have fun when we were
together.
One day he didn't show up like he said he would. I
figured that he might have been busy. The days turned into months and I
just forgot about it. Then I got a call one day from a lawyer in New York.
The lawyer said that he had died in a car accident going to the
airport. And that it took this long till everything was settled. It
broke my heart. I was shocked about what took place. Now I knew why he
didn't come that day. Again, I was broken-hearted. I cried that night,
cried tears of sadness and heartache. Asking questions why did this
happen to a kind guy like him?
I gathered my things and went to New York
for the reading of his will. Of course, things were given to his family
and his ex-wife. I finally got to meet her since the last time we met
at the wedding. She explained to me how he was and how he always
provided. But he was always unhappy. She would always try everything
but she couldn't get him happy, as he was that night at their wedding.
When the will was read, the one thing that was given to me was a diary.
It was a diary that of his life. I cried as it was given to me. I
didn't know what to think. Why was this given to me? I took it and flew
back to California. As I flew on the plane I remembered the good times that we had together. I started reading the diary and what was written.
The
diary was started with the day we first met. I read on till I started
to cry. The diary told of him saying that he had fallen in love with me
that day I was broken-hearted. But he was too afraid to tell me what he
had felt. That is why he was so quiet and liked to listen to me. It
told of how he wanted to tell me so many times, but was too afraid to
say anything. It told of when he went to New York and fell in love with
another. How the happiest time he had was seeing me and dancing with me
at the wedding. He said he imagined it was our wedding. How he was
always unhappy till he had no choice but to divorce his wife. How the
best time in his life was to read the letters written to him by me.
Finally, the diary ended when it said, "today I will tell her I love
her". It was the day he was killed. The day I was going to finally find
out what was really in his heart.
If you love someone, don't wait till tomorrow to tell him/her. Maybe that next day will never come at all
Ask my friends, anyone will tell you.
When you come up in any conversation,
no matter what its nature, my eyes sparkle
& my smile shines
sometimes its easier for me to PRETEND
rather than face my feelings. sometimes
its EASIER to try to make it alone rather
than risk getting HURT again. sometimes
its easier to be NUMB towards certain people
so i don't let them get too close. sometimes
i`m scared, but when i act NUMB towards you,
it doesnt mean i don`t CARE... it means i care TOO MUCH
It's true that we don't know what
we've got until we lose it, but it's
also true that we don't know what
we've been missing until it arrives
everything is finally working out for everyone,
everyone is getting who they want & everything they want.
i`m extremely happy for them because they all deserve it,
but i can`t help but to wonder why it can`t happen to me..
it's every girls dream to have a guy call her at 3am just to say "Hey babe, I just wanted to tell you I love you
when you get tired of ..
chasing everyone; && trying to fix everything
but its not giving up ..
its realizing that you don`t need certain people
&& all of the drama that they bring.
it all began in 6th grade. the year everything had
changed. we hung out, got closer. we moved on, but
still together. growing up, make-up, boys & qossip.
that was the reqular stuff. throuqh the pain and sorrow,
we remained. movies, mall.. toqether. sprinG, summer,
winter, fall. we stay toqether no matter the distance. best
friends in an instant. thank youu for beinG there in my time
of need and care. i`ll be there whenever youu need me.
i love youu, youu are my best friend
Don't smile at me if you're not truly happy.
Don't hug me if you're going to let go.
Don't kiss me if you're going to run away.
Don't call me if you're going to hang up.
Don't say you love me if you're going to take it back
DEFiNiT0N 0F L0VES ;
much love - just friends
luv ya - that person cares for you
luv u - just a little more
love u - the person does love you
i love u - really do
i love you - really really do |
