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Friday, February 09, 2007

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 05:00:20 GMT

Ever had one of those days or nights when you feel very nearly defeated?

Tonight was one of those nights for me...I am just so thankful that I do not have to bare this world alone, God is with me all the way. I know He will guide and protect me...and no matter how oppressed I might feel..or how defeated I may feel I know that God has already won the real battle, and through Him I am victorious!!!

I don't have to say it...

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 16:36:53 GMT

..but GOD IS SO GOOD!!!! :) I am so excited for people I know. Lives are changing and in it all I see God's hands working. I should not spend so much time away from Xanga, I miss everyone and I miss out on seeing how God is blessing you in "real time". I will try to be around more often.

Oh how I love you all!

Nathan (Carpi)

Jamin & Elizabeth

Doug and his lovely fiance

Carter

Sec

Miss Chickadee

Take care all of you and may God continue to bless you in this new year!

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Wed, 13 Dec 2006 00:52:39 GMT

"Listen my dear Cor's, why don't you forgive God for allowing pain? If He didn't allow it, human courage, bravery, nobility, and self-sacrifice would all be meaningless things."

A Canticle For Leibowitz: FIAT VOLUNTAS TUA (Thy Will Be Done)

What would a Christian do?

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 18:13:29 GMT

When approached by a man who is screaming about God...he is witnessing on the street. His sign is huge and the largest words in angry red ink are HELL FIRE! He Is being bold in his faith, he Is being persecuted...but he is also twisting the word and teaching nothing of God's love...only of God's vengeance...ultimately it is a message of hate, a message that tells Christians that they should hate anyone who is not saved because they are sinners. He claims to be without sin...and I know where this is going...something along the lines of claiming perfection through Christ....but the word says that a person who claims to be without sin is a liar.

My heart aches for him...and especially for those around him who are abused and angered by his message. Where is the merciful and loving God that I know evident in this man? To teach only damnation and hell fire for sinners is to miss a side of God that must not be overlooked. It is true that the wages of sin are death...but to scream this and point an accusing finger without offering the means to salvation is a loss to all those who might have stayed to listen.

If, as an ambassador/disciple to a good an loving God, the message of salvation had been taught in a good and loving way how many people would step forward to receive rather than turn and walk away?

Prepair me oh Lord for the day when the man known as "The Hammer" again pays visit to my campus.

My Birthday

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 03:59:09 GMT

Thank you God for the life you have given me...I pray that I may always make you smile and bring you glory!

Christmas is coming!!!

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 03:05:45 GMT

I started listening to Christmas music yesterday...I can't help it...I love Christmas!!! It's all about the best gift ever given to the world and it does not matter if He was born on that day or even in that time of year...the fact is that He was born and with Him came the gift of freedom and love!

Thank you Lord for being so giving and so loving. If it was not for You I do not think I would trully know wath those things were.

I am sorry

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 00:12:01 GMT

I was thinking about how blessed I am...and how I sometimes forget...

For example...sometime ago....someone blessed me with a free gift of a premium account on xanga. I felt really special and was very grateful...and suprised since I had no idea who did it...knore do I have any idea now...but regardless of who did it...

THANKS.

I feel as though I owe you an appologe though as I feel like I have neglected my xanga account for whatever reasons...and thus my awesome free premium account has mostly been unused.

I just want you to know....whoever you are ...that though I might not have used it as much as I should have....I am still really grateful.

Chico...again

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 01:32:14 GMT

I have arrived, and boy am I tired!

More to come. Summer has been interesting!

God bless!!!!!

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Tue, 23 May 2006 23:09:41 GMT

I can't believe it....I tell the Ware's (because they are like my God parents) and I tell them not to say anything to anyone becuase it's not official... what do they do but forward the e-mail to my entire church....now it's just a matter of time. Excuse me while I go hide.

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Thu, 11 May 2006 02:39:20 GMT

These last few days have been so hard on me. My heart feels heavy and sad. Yesterday and today there was a man at my school who stood on the grass and condemn the entire crowd. He screamed and pointed his finger. He calls himself a street preacher...and though he read from the Bible his method was one that inspired hate and fear. He stood and cast judgment after judgment on all manner of person...people that claimed to love God yet apposed his method of preaching were obviously not "real" Christians in his book. He said

"If you really loved God then you would stand behind me and support me".

I understood what he was saying...I can even see that what he said had some truth...but the method in which he spoke was so offensive. He stood and slandered every person who came to listen. My heart broke. This man did not teach the love of God...he taught only the condemning parts...."repent or burn, you homos, you adulterers, you molesters, and rapists of children". He claimed to be without sin yet the bible says that any man who claims to be sinless is a liar.

I could go on and on about this man and how his method of preaching was wrong but I think what needs to be said more is that he needs prayer. I feel that his heart is hard, and I fear that the people who witnessed him will become hard hearted as well. I heard so many people say that if he was an example of what it was to be Christian than they would never be Christian. One of my residents came up to me and said that if it was not for the fact that he was talking about my religion she would hate it.

*sigh* I feel like no amount of words can express what these last two days have been like for me. I feel weary and sad....but I know that God is in control and so I trust and believe that good things will come from this. I for one made friends with an atheist named Brent and I am looking forward to the conversations we will have about faith. Ultimately I know that it says in the scripture that non-believers will know us by our fruits...the fruits of the spirit...and I just pray that the Lord will bring some of those fruits to bare in that man, and continue to grow them in me as well...because I love God with all my heart and want nothing more than to live for Him.

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God bless you all abundantly....

Sincerely

~EMH