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| Excited.I spent some time with Ms. Sharon today. She went to lunch with my parents and I, and then after my dad went back to work the three of us ladies sat in the truck and talked for a long, long time. I got some light shed on some things and I feel more content (not necessarily less hurt or angry) but I feel like I understand a lot of things better and that I can heal a bit from it and pray with more power than I ever have before.
I wasn't looking forward to Christmas in Tennessee, but I'm okay with it now. I still may get to see Ms Sharon again tomorrow (by the way, that's my sis in law's amazing step mom) and we're going to look at Christmas lights, plus I will get to see my friend Dustin from NeoTez and also my lovely Carey. So, I'm pretty excited.
God will always change things. He changes people that don't want to be changed every day. I just have to build up the faith to remember that always. Everything works for the good of those who love the Lord.
Merry Christmas, my Friends.
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| This Is My Favorite Holiday!This is Halloween!!
[SHADOW]
Boys and girls of every age
Wouldn't you like to see something strange?
[SIAMESE SHADOW]
Come with us and you will see
This, our town of Halloween
[PUMPKIN PATCH CHORUS]
This is Halloween, this is Halloween
Pumpkins scream in the dead of night
[GHOSTS]
This is Halloween, everybody make a scene
Trick or treat till the neighbors gonna die of fright
It's our town, everybody screm
In this town of Halloween
[CREATURE UNDER THE BED]
I am the one hiding under your bed
Teeth ground sharp and eyes glowing red
[MAN UNDER THE STAIRS]
I am the one hiding under yours stairs
Fingers like snakes and spiders in my hair
[CORPSE CHORUS]
This is Halloween, this is Halloween
[VAMPIRES]
Halloween! Halloween! Halloween! Halloween!
In this town we call home
Everyone hail to the pumpkin song
[MAYOR]
In this town, don't we love it now?
Everybody's waiting for the next surprise
[CORPSE CHORUS]
Round that corner, man hiding in the trash cam
Something's waiting no to pounce, and how you'll...
[HARLEQUIN DEMON, WEREWOLF & MELTING MAN]
Scream! This is Halloween
Red 'n' black, slimy green
[WEREWOLF]
Aren't you scared?
[WITCHES]
Well, that's just fine
Say it once, say it twice
Take a chance and roll the dice
Ride with the moon in the dead of night
[HANGING TREE]
Everybody scream, everbody scream
[HANGED MEN]
In our town of Halloween!
[CLOWN]
I am the clown with the tear-away face
Here in a flash and gone without a trace
[SECOND GHOUL]
I am the "who" when you call, "Who's there?"
I am the wind blowing through your hair
[OOGIE BOOGIE SHADOW]
I am the shadow on the moon at night
Filling your dreams to the brim with fright
[CORPSE CHORUS]
This is Halloween, this is Halloween
Halloween! Halloween! Halloween! Halloween!
Halloween! Halloween!
[CHILD CORPSE TRIO]
Tender lumplings everywhere
Life's no fun without a good scare
[PARENT CORPSES]
That's our job, but we're not mean
In our town of Halloween
[CORPSE CHORUS]
In this town
[MAYOR]
Don't we love it now?
[CORPSE CHORUS]
Skeleton Jack might catch you in the back
And scream like a banshee
Make you jump out of your skin
This is Halloween, everyone scream
Wont' ya please make way for a very special guy
Our man jack is King of the Pumpkin patch
Everyone hail to the Pumpkin King
[EVERYONE]
This is Halloween, this is Halloween
Halloween! Halloween! Halloween! Halloween!
[CORPSE CHILD TRIO]
In this town we call home
Everyone hail to the pumpkin song
[EVERYONE]
La la-la la, Halloween! Halloween! [Repeat]
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| Speaking of Dropping off the Face of the PlanetThat's pretty much what I've done. Life is so busy trying to get into Grad School, merciful heavens!
I'm taking art classes to try and get into Grad School here at Lindenwood. It's pretty cool, though it tries my patience a lot of the time. It's hard because I taught myself Photoshop and I know nothing about it. So, I'm learning all these things about it and I'm like...oh gosh. I'm also learning Illustrator which I know nothing about. NOTHING. I've used it probably like twice. Hate it. Okay, well, I don't really. But, I can never get it to do what I want...and it's because I don't know how to get it to do what I want! Oh well. I'll learn.
Gotta start matting some of my crap, too. Which means a lot of money I don't have.
I've come to realize, people don't want to talk to you when they know they are in the wrong and they know you know it. I finally got to talk to a friend of mine after I don't know how many months of ignoring. There are people here at my church that, when I see things, especially things that I've been there gone through and have the right heart to talk to them about it, ignore me. They'll just walk by me and not say a thing. They'll ignore phone calls and probably in all honestly, rather forget you are living.
There's a chapter in the Purpose Driven Life, a book I told myself I'd never read, but that my church hands out at baptisms and is actually a great book for the most part (that means you who said you would never read it should do it because there's some good stuff to think about in it!) about the physical family and the spiritual family. So, I've pretty much learned that the people I feel most separated from and hurt by by, my grandfather, my brother to a certain degree, some friends at/from Harding, some friends back home - my feelings on the matter need to change because it's the family I have right here in my church that should matter to me most right now, and the people I reach out to. If my parents have a fit about me living here, and I should move home because it's cheaper, blah blah blah, I need to except that they don't understand and they probably won't ever, so I go on loving them, but cling closer to the spiritual family. I can't really explain the chapter very well, but the point is, what matters most to God, should matter most to me. Not feelings of abandonment or inadequacy. The point that I'm here, I should be bold and confident, and take hold of what I have should give me the strength to pursue what matters most to God, which in turn, matters most to me.
Wow, long post from the person who dropped off the face of the planet.
I love you all. Sorry I don't write here much, but at least you know that I will update from time to time!
Love love.
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| Wow.Things have changed so much in the last five years.
I found a friend on Facebook I hadn't talked to in, gosh, ages. We had
a thing...I don't really know what to call it. But, we talked on the
phone almost all the time. Every night, I'd go out into that hall in
Stephens dorm at Harding and talk to him for hours. We laughed
together, cried together, we dreamed together. We liked each other, but
knew nothing would come of it because he lived in Ohio and I was in
Arkansas. It would never have worked. Then, I hadn't heard from him in
a long time and all the sudden, he started "taking care" of this
younger girl in the youth group. He said she was like a little sister,
and she always came to him and cried and all this stuff, and so he
would tell me about her and how he wanted to help her - he and I both
had a Saviour complex. And, then it went from helping to, I think I
like her, and into we're dating, and into, I asked her to marry me, and
then he dropped off the face of the planet. Goodness. Times have
changed.
I am so happy here, though. I found the God I've always wanted to know.
People who pushed me to find the God I've always wanted to know. And
people who love me enough, that when I spill my deepest, most
disgusting, vile things, they will sit there, listen, and even prop
their feet up on my leg as I'm talking about it. Ew? Why touch me? I'm
disgusting. I just told this person all of my nasties, and she still
had enough love for me to touch me, love me, and show me who the real
God was. Wow.
Things have changed so much in the last five years.
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| A Sudden Realization.Mom Floyd, Mama Karen, and Mom Deb (even though she doesn't read this), should get a kick out of this:
I have four mommies.
Think that'll raise any questions?
Mmm.
P.S.
Happy Birthday to my dear friend, Ronnie Lee Cobb the Third. It has
been a pleasure getting to know you, friend! And, I pray we will have
many, many years in the future to get to know each other, also. Love
you, Bro!
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