THE NEED IS THE CALL

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Nothing Else on this Sight matters, Just one thing

GRACE, GRACE, GRACE!!!

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          Grace is an absolutely amazing thing isn’t it.   Just when I’m in the middle of screwing everything up, I look around and there is God everywhere.  Wow, that’s real…  So, lots of stuff going on right now…

Starting with the big thing,  well I had an offer to serve the Lord in a new way this week… I’ve been praying for God to give me some direction in service, I wonder if this is it… It would have much opportunity involved, but could also be a very humbling experience. 

I’m taking my sister to see Aaron Bowen at cosmos in La Mesa tonight!!! This guy is awesome, check him out.  I’ve actually been hitting up the local music scene quite a bit this summer!!!  There is some awesome, NON COMMERCIALIZED stuff out here.  I want to get Amanda involved, trying to find some stuff for her to sing and take her over to open mic night at twigs and lestats…

Natalie is in france, and abroad for 17 more days.  I cant wate for her to come home, she has been endlessly supporting and I know that she will do what it takes to follow God’s will.   I miss her and love her much.

VBS starts Monday, and it’s hard to believe that we will be starting at El Cajon.  I hope all the corps are ready for us.  I cant really say much more about that.  It will be great hanging out with the 6 kids for three weeks, I hope I can push them out of their comfort zone and expose them to some new and different things.

I am so excited for school to start.  Full time music for sure, but how much more then that is still up in the air, or more so, in Gods hands.

Well all, just keep praying for me, that I hear Gods voice and obey.  Lots of doors to look at right now, pray I choose wisely…

PS DOES ANYONE HAVE THE CHORD PROGRESSION FOR WE’LL ABIDE????

me

Here I Am, if your interested….

My name is Bryan Wayne Cook,  I constantly mess things up.  I constantly sin.  Yes I am a sinner.  I hurt people, make poor decisions, lie, harbor anger and bitterness, and may other evil things.  Because of this, I often feel rather distant from God.  I understand grace, but I still have a ridiculous guilt complex.  Anyone who reads this I’m sure can name tons of mistakes I’ve made and can list my personality flaws without trouble. 

But in the midst of all that, I ask you all to believe for this one minute that I find myself incredibly desperate for God.  I need Him and He feels so distant.  I’m tired of doing things my way, they never get better that way.  So at this second I offer it all to God.   I give Him my past, all my sins.  All of them this time.  LORD deliver me…  I want to do things Your way from now on.  My way always leaves me hungry.  The hunger pains leave me helpless, leaving me completely dysfunctional, waiting to die.  The snares of my past dig deep into my spiritual flesh, causing scares as a daily reminder of my damnation.   Pray for me to understand grace so that those scars can be reminders of grace instead!!

So if your reading this, I ask that you not judge me from my past…  I ask that you not make jokes with me about it or encourage my perversions (which is a great weakness of mine.)  Please encourage me, hold me accountable, point out areas in my life that remain ungodly. But please be gentle with me that I may not get discouraged.  I’m sorry to those that have had to watch me like this, and to those that I have caused to stumble.    Pray for me, I know the devil is now going to throw everything he has at me to prevent me from doing whatever good work God has planned for me.  I know it.