Okay...
I made a very hard decision Yesterday. I am no longer going to starve myself.
The reason behind this: I was on the Fall Out Boy Website and I was readig their q&a section. Well..Some girls were asking questions like "What do you prefer...Fat Girl Pretty face or Skinny girl ugly face" Pete's Responce was somthing along the lines of " It doesnt matter to me If a girl is Fat, Thin, Or inbetween. What matters is their personality and I'm not just saying this either, the sexiest thing about a girl is her mind" Okay...That made me feel pretty good. (pete answeres almost all the questions)
Another girl asked sumthing like " What is all of your guys's favorite body part or feature on a girl?" Pete said "Mine would be The neck, necks are definitly sexy. Patrick said that he falls for girls with pretty eyes and a sweet smile Joe said that he likes Legs ....and it didnt say anything about Andy. ( I wish it did though...I think a lot of girl would like to know)
I forgot what the question was...but I remember that pete said somthing about how nobody in the band likes fake girls, Girls Who try to be somthing or sombody they are not.
So...I came to the conclusion, that I dont need to be "stick thin" or have a ":flat" stomach in order to be pretty or get sombody to like me/love me. I think I have GREAT eyes (and so do a lot of other people) And I think my smile is pretty, too. (so Do some other people)
I know, I'm not "skinny" But I'm not "fat" either. I'm chubby, and thats okay, because If I do find sombody soon, I'll know its not because of my body...I'll know its because they like me for me and I know that When I do find that sumbody who likes me fore me...they wont pressure me into sex, and they wont cheat on me...or treat me like shit. And thats what I really want.
My friend, Kyle, is helping me out with everything. And I love him so much for caring so much about me that he spents like an hour or maybe even more last night helping me with my self esteem. have to write stuff I like about myself in a notebook. Well...I think it'll also make him happy if I write it in here, too. Yeah, I may sound cocky....But I'm not. Remember, I say these things to HELP build up my confidence. And please if you have anything rude to say..DONT. This is really hard for me, so just please...keep it to yourself. Thank you
1: I, Sarah Reed, Am Very Independent
2: I, Sarah Reed, Have FUCKING awesome Eyes!!!
3: I, Sarah Reed, Love My Beautiful Smile
4: I, Sarah Reed, Have The BIGGEST heart In The world!!!
5: I, Sarah Reed, Look great because I have an AWESOME fashion Sense
Yeah, I know.It makes me sound stuck up and cocky..But I'm not. I'm just trying to get it all STUCK in my brain....And then eventually it will work its way down to my heart.
Kyle~~ I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOR HELPING ME WITH THIS!!!!!!!! *Kisses*
x's and o's
Sarah | 
