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Saturday, August 30, 2008

  • Preview for Shattering Reality Episode 11

    As Hector's friends try to deal with all that has happened and is happening, they are put into a difficult and life threatening position.  Faced with an unbeatable challenge, they must strive against all odds.  Oh, and someone's going to be fatally wounded, thought you might want to know. 

    Don't miss it, this Friday

    Read the story so far:

    http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2543965/1/Shattering_Reality

Friday, August 29, 2008

Monday, August 25, 2008

  • Up 9 minutes late.  Back had fallen off cell phone which had been meant to wake me.  Very rushed.

    Sky is ominously dark.

    Pass kid from down the hall on way to breakfast.  Nice kid.  Don't think his room mate likes me much.

    Why isn't the orange juice machine working?

    Eggs cold.

    Miss where food is made and served just for me.

    Miss home.

    Sky still dark as I head to my first class, Calc 2.  Prof seems nice enough.  Kid sitting diagonally in front of me answers a question.  Smart kid.  Doesn't seem to social.  Sort of like me.  Reminds me a bit of Christian Cone actually.  Seems like someone who could be good to make friends with.  Class seems to drag on forever.  I find myself worried that even on the first day i find myself already looking at the clock.  And no calculator on tests and quizzes worries me.

    Sky still ominously taunting with it's lack of ran as I head over to physics.  120.  Took me a while to realize the floor i would call the first floor has everything numbered in the tens ergo my class was one floor up.  I see the kid from Calc sitting there near the back.  I take the desk behind him, introduce myself.  His name is Ben.  Prof seems nice enough.  Class seems like it will focus on mostly the things i did well in high school Physics and none of the things i did poorly in and also add a few more concepts. 

    I walk towards my dorm, but think i see someone I knew from home.  I greet Janessa and say a few words before setting back in the direction I needed to go.  Also I pass Ashley Brown who gave a slight wave. 

    And now I am home.  Or rather not home because home is where the heart is and mine certainly isn't here. 

    Looking forward to my programing class starting tomorrow.  Programing is why I'm going into computer engineering.  The only reason i choose that over a computer programing or computer science degree is because 1. computer engineers make more money and 2. I'm smart enough to know that i wouldn't get jobs doing the sorts of programing I actually like 3. with a computer engineering degree i can become a computer programmer 4. job security 5. more types of jobs that i can do.  Still...

    And today is Hayley and I's five months.  I love her so dearly and already miss her so much.  I love the time each day that I spend talking to her and find that I love her all the more now that I realize just how big of a role she plays in my life.  I always look forward to her calling to hear her voice, and I very much look forward to going home to see her in a couple weeks.  We have come so far in these past five months and I feel closer to her than I have ever been to anyone.  The thought of ever losing her terrifies me and I hope that we can stay together for a very long time. 

Saturday, August 23, 2008

  • Shattering Reality Episode 9

    http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2543965/10/Shattering_Reality

    Sorry it's late guys!  Also sorry it's a bit short(for those who like longer chapters, but for those who are behind it'll prob. help catch up.)

    Read from the beginning:

    http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2543965/1/Shattering_Reality


Friday, August 22, 2008

  • Summer dreams ripped at the seams, but uh-oh those summer nights

    I have moved into college. Did so yesterday. It was lots of work, but i like how the room is set up. Kevin and I each get half, which is good. It's a nice room on a corner with good size and two windows which helps for airflow(though it's still hot as hell everywhere). But it's not home.

    I miss home a lot. I really do. Miss my mom. Miss my dog. Worry about my gecko's safety in Brad's hands.

    Meanwhile, here I have no idea what's going on. I'm lost and confused and just want it all to stop. Everyone seems to already have cliqued off...and i don't know anyone. Kevin has his gf, and whereas i'm sure they wouldn't mind me being around some of the time, I don't want to always be a third wheel. Perhaps Alex and I can hang out some...idk...i'm sure it will all get easier and i'll make new friends as time goes by. But i hate these big group 'meet people' things. I'm not good at meeting people in giant groups. I can't just talk to people. I can't. If i have a purpose or something or if it's one on one, i can, but you can't just put me in front of a group and say 'mingle'. it kills me. so hopefully after this weekend and when clubs start up i'll do better.

    Another thing I realized this morning was that in 4 years(longer if i go for a masters) I'm going to be thrown out into the real world. I won't be a 'kid' anymore. Like, A lot of the fun things I like diong will seem strange for a grown adult to do. I've never really thought much of myself as a grown adult. It's hard for me to picture. That's why ideas like family sometimes frighten me. Not that it's now what I want someday.

    Realizing all of this made me sad. I was like 'I want to see Hayley so she can give me a hug and make me feel better'. but I can't. And then the tears started to roll. Which is kinda annoying to cover up in a giant auditorium filled with people. But I miss her a lot. She was the one person I could always tell everything to. It's like she said, we're not just boyfriend/girlfriend, we're also best friends. And what am I supposed to do when I need a hug? Who can I talk to for hours about everything? What about those nights just sitting on the couch till 2 in the morning? How do I make it stop hurting soo much?

    I'm sure we'll make it, but it's getting there that's difficult. Because I want her, I need her, always.

Monday, August 18, 2008

  • Not ready. Not in the least

    What happened to summer?  What happened to all that time I thought I had?  I mean, I had so many things I wanted to get done this summer that I didn't.  Of course, it can be argued that I spent all my time with Hayley, but I certainly wouldn't have wanted to spend any less.  But still...what happened to all the time?

    I don't have any left. I still have to pack most everything into a car sometime, I leave Thursday.  Though I doubt everything will fit well.  Putting it into a dorm is going to be interesting.

    I realize that until this year I have never taken advantage of this stage of my life.  I mean, no real consequences, no big choices, so many good things that come at the age before college that I don't want to lose.

    And I like having my space.  I've got my room and the bonus room pretty much all to myself here.  When I get into a conflict here at home with anyone in my family, I can just retreat there and be by myself.  But what about if I get into a fight with Kevin(my room mate)?  Where can I go to be alone?

    I also don't like that there are so many friends, so many people I'll never see again.  The GOAL party went well, and I liked being able to see most everyone one last time.  Yesterday I ran about half of The Final Heresy disks to people.  Most of my encounters ended with 'see you later'.  It hit me every time they said it and every time I responded that no, I probably wouldn't.  Though some I'll see next summer, and some more unexpectedly after that, and I'll try to keep in touch with people via messenger/e-mail/facebook...there are good friends I may not see again...

    And there's Hayley.  The best thing that's ever happened in my life and I have to leave her here.  Of course I'll call her and instant messenger her and send her e-mails and be home on some weekends.  And of course I think we'll make it, I have no doubt that if we make it through this school year... Still, I'm going to miss her.  After spending almost all my time with her, it's going to be hard going to so much less than that.  But I feel we can endure and I have great hopes for us.

    Basically, I'm not ready.  And I don't have enough time to get ready.  Zoo today.  Kings Island tomorrow.  Packing up Wednesday.  And then I'm gone.  I don't want to go.  I'm not ready to go.  I need more time!

Friday, August 15, 2008

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

  • Heralding in the New Era

    GOAL Entertainment's time marks the end of a stage of my life. 

    And at any end, there is always a beginning.

    The beginning of this next stage of my life, marks the beginning of a new era of the whole world. 

    I have a plan and hope to follow through with it.

    I hope you enjoy the show.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Sunday, August 03, 2008