well hello ladies. i don't know my current weight. i decided i am not going to weigh myself until friday.. and that's the only time i will. because sometimes the number will go up, or it won't move at all, and i'll get discouraged. and that's no good :o(.
i did so good yesterday. i didn't eat ANYTHING.. except my friends and i went to a diner. everybody ordered something. i told them i didn't have any money so i couldn't get anything.. so my friend OFFERED to buy the food for me. it was sweet, but seriously, nobody likes giving money away except for the people i hang out with, i swear to god. haha <3
i'm having boyfriend problems. i've been with my boyfriend for a year and a half.. and he notices how i keep losing weight. he made me feel like shit about it the other night. he told me how pathetic it is if i would have an eating disorder.. and that people only do it to get attention and try to make people feel bad for them. grr. yeh, that's the only reason someone would starve themself.. so people feel bad for them? considering nobody even knows, except all the people on here, of course :oD. haha, but still. that was so stupid of him. and then he calls me and says "i saw one of my ex girlfriends today. she got really hot and lost so much weight".. um, alright? and then he has an ex gf named jess who i am extremely jealous of, and he knows it. he was with her for 2 years and she's GORGEOUS. she's like 5'7 and 100 pounds. well, he just got a new cell phone. we were in his car at a red light and he was playing around with the new one.. and he looks over at me and goes "wow, i miss my tall skinny phone.. i named it jess." why would you say something like that? and then to make things worse.. he looks over at me and goes "my NEW phone is short and wide though. nothing like the old one." GRR.
i'll edit this entry later tonight with my total intake. it's only 11am, so of course i didn't eat anything yet.
johnny wishes he was famous
spends his time alone in the basement
with lennon and cobain and
a guitar and a stereo
well he wishes he could escape this
but it all seems so contagious
not to be yourself and faceless
in a song that has no soul
i remember feeling low
and i remember losing hope
and i remember all the feelings and the day they stopped
we are, we are all innocent, we are all innocent
we are, we are..
tina's losing faith in what she knows
hates her music, hates all of her clothes
thinks of surgery and a new nose
every calorie is a war
well she wishes she was a dancer
and that she never heard of cancer
she wishes god would give her some answers
and make her feel beautiful
*** EDIT ***
b - nothing - 0cals
s - nothing - 0cals
l - those fake chicken nugget things (i'm vegan, its a good excuse too) = 190 cals!
s - fruit (apple and watermelon) - not sure?
d - fake chicken :o) 150cals.. made into a sandwhich :o\ 60 more cals = 210 cals
s - watermelon. not sure about that either?
drinks - LOTS of water, two diet cokes, LOTS of diet snapple (none had cals except the plum flavored :o\) = 10 cals
total = 410 cals.. plus whatever apples and watermelon are?
there's my intake like i promised you<3 now i have to go cry some more, because my boyfriend and i just broke up. :o( after a year and a half. i hate broken hearts </3
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