Wow haven't writen on this Xanga in so long so I desided I would...
a entry from my other Xanga
Is there love, tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Of a better life
In this world
Divided by fear
We've got to believe that
There's a reason we're here
Yeah, there's a reason we're here...
Oh, yeah...
Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives...
See the truth, all around
Our faith can be broken
Our hands can be bound
But open our hearts
And fill up the emptiness
With nothing to stop us
Is it not worth the risk?
Yeah, is it not worth the risk?...
No, yeah...
Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives...
And even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives...
We can't go on
Thinking it's wrong to speak our minds
I've got to let out what's inside...
Is there love, tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Can we get it right?
Yeah, can we get it right?...
Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives...
And even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives...
Oh, yeah, let's make the best out of our lives...
Oh, yeah, let's make the best out of our lives...
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Ok theres really know point in anything. I miss everyone and nothing is very going to be anywhere close to the same. I'm just getting my real self back and I'm happy. But I'm sad cause theres not going to be anymore laying in front of my house, sneeking out, getting just a little something at the pool. No more days with the fun.
I know all of you think I'm complaining but I don't care. I've lived at that house of mine for so long its crazy 14 years. And well since I've only been alive for about 15 years thats a damn long time. For all of you thats moved before your kinda lucky cause you know whats its like to move from place to place. I love everyone so much and I need them to live. No one knows this but when I moved here I had to beg my mom not to make me go to CHS cause I didn't know ANYONE and I didn't think anyone would like me. Not that many people like me hear, half the people hear think I'm like the weirdest person. Well screw you! I stayed home begging my mom and kept making excuses up not to go like I don't have any clean clothes. I would cry myself to sleep and wish that I hadn't moved or that I stayed at OMHS also that my sister was a Senior this year. I still cry myself to sleep things about all the times I'll be missing at OM and all the times we had that I'll miss. The thing I just love the most is no one cared it was my last day at OM and all my "friends" just went on like it was just any other day. When I felt I bet they didn't know I was gone.
I took a stress test thing in Health (oh yeah my teacher thinks I'm on drugs and hes probly anoyyed by me) and well I got a 816 and thats really bad. It means I have lots of stress well w/e I don't care anymore. I'm not gonna care what people think. If I piss you off so what is I anoyy you to no end or anything like that I DON'T CARE. And I don't care about what people think of me anymore. No more, no more any of it.
I'd have the best day if people just cared!
If people would wish me a happy b-day without reminding them its my b-day that would be GREAT.
Well last night was GREAT. I saw Jake S again and I like him so much more then I did before now. I don't think he knows it but whatever. Well I'm gonna be going on a retreat with him so thats good. Hehe  .
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