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As I Lay Dying♥
Forever your eyes will hold the memory. I saw your heart as it overtook me. We tried so hard to understand and reason. But in the one moment I gave my heart away. The perfect breath where my mind lay beside me. And all I knew is what had overtaken me. With no explanation. I am comforted by my inability to understand. When I wake from this dream will you still be here? Will your smile still open my heart And leave me trasparent?

As I Lay Dying♥

Forever your eyes will hold the memory. I saw your heart as it overtook me. We tried so hard to understand and reason. But in the one moment I gave my heart away. The perfect breath where my mind lay beside me. And all I knew is what had overtaken me. With no explanation. I am comforted by my inability to understand. When I wake from this dream will you still be here? Will your smile still open my heart And leave me trasparent?

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Sunday, March 06, 2005

blah. fuck it. i'm done with this xanga for a while. yeah, for a while. not forever. just until i'm happy.

for the first time in a long time, nothing's okay.

i shouldn't be in a relationship. i really shouldn't.
i only want to be with one person, and that one person can't happen.
and i'm leading my own boyfriend on because i don't want to be with him.
i like him. i just don't want to be with him. i don't want to be with anyone except the boy i can't be with.
it happens.
&all i want anymore is honesty.
and to be honest.
so i am.
i hate life at this point. which is why i'm taking a break from everything.
levi, i'm sorry.

maybe i'll come back happier. and new. and not confused.

i can't believe i'm fucking smoking.

find me on here if you want. doesn't matter.

Posted 3/6/2005 3:26 PM - 52 comments

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well cathy hope your felling better sorry i havent been going to school i have to go too court tuesday so yah bleah

well i love you peace NERMAL

Posted 3/6/2005 4:40 PM by fallendevilwithoutswollenhorns - reply

hey.

i dunno what to say.i am sorry.

i hope you find a better way.all i have wanted was to see you happy.getting pissed off over shit didnt help...at all.

i don't know.

i have been having dreams about you too...

...................hug dino,and bob potato for me too.

thanks.

love,

matt

Posted 3/6/2005 8:07 PM by ShinobiStyle76 - reply

god damnit why fuckin beams.

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aaaahhhhhhhhahahahazyua thzxfjdkxghcgj
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fuck

shit

flippin

this is so gay........

i fucking love you and you think you like flippin beams?

what the fuck.

levi i tried tellin you dude.....

this is what happens.

FUCKING DAMNED SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

;livhvhvhkv;hkv

-sir flippin matt

i think you should just come back and we should have them all jelous as we did

Posted 3/6/2005 10:44 PM by ShinobiStyle76 - reply

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i know how you feel..

Posted 3/7/2005 12:27 AM by disturbed_gurl_interupted - reply

I'm freaked out. You guys seemed every so happy.

Ish sad

Who can't you be with?

I'm thinking about doing it again. I don't know why, it's been a hells bad week

I love you, and for the love of god gimme your effin number so I can call you when we should do something. JABODER!

When is your beauty & the beast concert thingy?

Posted 3/7/2005 7:25 PM by peicemetogether - reply

Dude.i love you so much....i hope everything works out....give me a call sometime ok I FUCKING love you Cathy...and no matter what i'll be here for you F O R E V E R :love:

XXX,
Taylor

Posted 3/7/2005 8:59 PM by KissAndMakeUpx3 - reply

Eh...I guess it was kinda my fault for this...I dont know how but it was kinda...I just walked into it....I guess...Hmm...i dont know....I knew this would happen...I even pointed it out to you in a question form not that long ago...But hey...I wish you couldve told me in person/phone something...oh well....Whelp i better let you go. Love you

Levi

Posted 3/8/2005 9:08 AM by deathgaze2002 - reply

WOW,A DID YOU REALLY JUST BREAK UP WITH HIM ON HERE? AND LIKE THAT? OUCH. THAT SUCKS. BALLS.

Posted 3/9/2005 10:55 PM by ripmy_HEART_out - reply

Guess what sweetcheeks.... dont be sorry for levi.. hes fucking happy... so shut your ass up and get on with it cuz we dont care.... hate all you want... cuz i dont give no fuck... bye bitches..... -Forever and always - Wednesday

Posted 3/13/2005 4:37 PM by destined_dolly - reply

riiiight and thats why he has told me that he loves me for like... uhhh EVER! so.. get over yourself... youre the one tellin people that you and him are still together... get over yourself.....You are nothing to me... nothing....I hope you rot in a destined dirty hole of a life that you wish was better.. and you can stare at me from down be low seeing how much i am succeeding and you will evidently fail. I know its not fourth grade...its 10th for me duh....Ben Davis! woot!

Posted 3/14/2005 3:47 PM by destined_dolly - reply

wahoah, destined dolly, you're a bit of a BITCH. i dont even know this person and i like her more than you.

Posted 3/19/2005 9:58 AM by gothicjenn666 - reply

I walked in, and all I saw was tragedy.

If you need to talk, you can IM me if you want, even if we don't know eachother all that well. Godspeed.

Posted 3/20/2005 1:20 AM by Jerboa - reply

Agreed.

I love you

Much fucking love

Taylor

Posted 3/22/2005 9:10 PM by KissAndMakeUpx3 - reply

I missssss you Cathy..... ' '( ... you make me cry.... Even though we still see each other

Lets hang out again...

yesss.. there we go.

' ')

ttyl

hil

Posted 3/24/2005 6:33 AM by cunfuzd101 - reply

why the fuck do you continue to tell me to grow up?

me and you both know you are the one who needs to here.

what the fuck you cant even drop shit even when i tell you to leave me alone you have to get that one last word in.so you know what,leave me another comment so you can do just that and i will leave you the fuck alone.

come on now you think every word that comes out of my mouth is poetry.

haa!!!!

what to much thinking for you.

have fun getting bigger youngin'.

-sir matt

Posted 3/24/2005 3:42 PM by ShinobiStyle76 - reply

woah, it's like a soap opera here.

Posted 3/24/2005 4:34 PM by gothicjenn666 - reply

you no what cathy i never denied trying to be like you. So if you dont want to be freinds anymore then atleast have the balls to im me or call instead of blocking me and having taylor tell me . And if this is all about fucking me coming to school one day wearing pink and blue with pink tails to turn my books in. Then thats kind of pathetic but i want you to no i was always there for you when you needed and i have never (ever never!!!!!!!!!) backstab a freind

and remember i will always love you i doesnt matter if where not freinds anymore or your mad at me or any other shit like that

love

oompa

Posted 3/29/2005 6:06 PM by fallendevilwithoutswollenhorns - reply

and remember i will always love you i doesnt matter if where not freinds anymore or your mad at me or any other shit like that

love

oompa

Posted 3/29/2005 6:06 PM by fallendevilwithoutswollenhorns - reply

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Posted 3/30/2005 5:25 PM by Our_Diabolikal_Rapturex3 - reply

cathy for one i never said i was being like dustin so you need to stop taking my words and turning them the fuck around. And I never denied trying to be like you. And i never talked about you to matt i just said your being fucking childish and your turning a way your freinds so get your fucking story straight. So

Fuck You!!

Posted 3/31/2005 2:19 PM by fallendevilwithoutswollenhorns - reply

BLEH BLEH BLEH

i just felt like commenting.

loves <3

//x// hilary//x//

Posted 4/7/2005 7:58 AM by cunfuzd101 - reply

It was so funny, he was like I'm sorry Tera.

She's a bitch anyway and I didn't mind.

Posted 4/16/2005 9:28 AM by xYoUrxSwEeTx666x - reply

you dont fucking know me

Posted 4/16/2005 11:53 PM by moseswithstyle - reply

uhgg for one matt has your sweater and im not getting it from him untill you tell me what you did to my fucking pants

Posted 4/23/2005 2:46 PM by fallendevilwithoutswollenhorns - reply

you no what i dont care if you fucking got your damn hoodie back from matt but i can have anybody call your damn house because you will pay that fucking 55 dollars to me i dont care what you say

Posted 4/23/2005 4:38 PM by fallendevilwithoutswollenhorns - reply

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