something is really wrong with me.

and i seriously cannot take this anymore.

i need to delete this site soon.

and i will.

not many people talk to me on here anyways.

but i wish the best for everyone of you.

PATHETIC!

i am starting to feel so pathetic.

i am letting all of my emotions getting to my head.

i have been so emotional and miserable this past week and i hate it.

wow, things have been very strange lately.

things with my boyfriend and i have been very weird this whole week.
but he just got ungrounded and we plan on talking about it tomorrow.

I love him with all my heart, but i am just starting to think that i don't
know how much longer i can do this with him. I feel like i always have something to
worry about him doing, because of things that have happened in the past, and i know i
shouldn't feel that way. I feel sad over him when i shouldn't. But we have been on and off for
a year and a half now, and when we aren't together, it is SO hard. I hate it. But i guess i just have to
see where this goes.

So tonight at work this tiny but older man i work with said "How much do you weigh, like 50 lbs.?"
haha i thought it was funny and sort of took it as a compliment.

i hate that job it is the worst ever!
it is pointless because i only work one day, and two if i am lucky.

have a great weekend everyone!

i did better today.

:]

but when i came home from school i was shaking so bad.
it was crazy.

life is crazy.

i don't know what i am doing with myself anymore.

i don't know where i am going.

or why i dealt with some of the shit i dealt with.

it doesn't even matter anymore after i made such a big deal out of basically nothing.

i worry way too much.

will this ever come to an end?

my boyfriend that i have been dating on and off for a year and half have been doing better than ever lately.

it has been amazing i am so happy about it.

but i am not happy about work.

it sucks.

bad management, not enough hours, and rednecks.

i hate it.

i weighed myself and i haven't lost or gained any weight. but i feel so grosss!

i am still at 100 even.

i can do better. and i will.