Wow. It's been so long since I've updated this old thing. Good times have been had on this here xanga. And now, probably more than ever, it can serve it's primary purpose. It's an online JOURNAL. And now that everyone isn't constantly on here reading all of these things, I may actually be able to honestly write in it. So much has gone on since September. My last season of drumline was an amazing one. We went to nationals and placed 37th in the country. I was so proud and so sad at the same time. We've come leaps and bounds from where we were my freshman year. I remember when Ankey, Iowa had our biggest competition and now it's Super Regionals and Nationals. We've all been through so much as a group and had really hard times and really good times. I wouldn't trade my experience for anything in the world. But now that portion of my life is over. I even stopped taking piano lessons. I feel like music is slowly draining from my life. But this is probably a good time for it to end. Now that I'll be leaving soon. It has served me well. It introduced me to so many people and so many places and so many lessons. It's time now that I take all that I have recieved from it and run. My dad is doing fine. He gets his next scan in about a month to check to see if the cancer has spread. I'm keeping my chin up and thinking positively, but I'm really scared. Sometimes I just try to imagine the rest of my life without him. With no one there at my graduation or to help me move my stuff out for college. Who would be there to scare the crap out of every boyfriend I brought home? Who'd be there to tell me what's wrong with my car? Who would take me on suprise "Daddy Dates" to dinner? Who'd walk me down the aisle at my wedding? It's just so scary to think about. But he's the strongest man I know. He's going to make a candyass out of cancer. I just know it. School has been going really great. I ended last semester with a 4.178somethingorother. I've already been accepted to UMKC and now I'm starting on scholarship applications, picking a major, and finding my condo. All the surrealness is finally coming into light. It's like I'm growing up and I can actually feel it happening. The future hasn't come up to bite me in the rear, but it is coming and I love it. Don't get me wrong, I love Blue Springs. I love the community and the schools and the people and the city. It's a great place to live and I wouldn't be shocked if I raised my family here someday. But I need to get out. I need freedom and a place to call MY home. That I'M paying for. That I take care of and that I can be proud of. I'm really looking forward to my new-found excitement. Notice how I steered clear of my love life thus far? That was on purpose. There's really nothing to say. I've finally decided that there are more important things to focus on. Especially right now. If the right guy comes along, I can't deny it. But I'm not going to try to make something out of nothing anymore simply because it's something to do. Who needs a date for Saturday nights? That's why we have friends. Well, hopefully I'll hear from you kids who are still around. I'd love to see how you're doing. Maybe more people will start to use this thing again. Who knows? But, of course, I'll leave you with a picture. This is a picture of me in Indianapolis with 5 of the greatest people in the world who mean more to mean--and know more about me--than any of them will ever know. 
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