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Sunday, June 29, 2008

  • trying to improve my weak ass

    basically, im working out now, i dont feel fat, well sort of. Mostly i need to turn everything i have into muscle, because of all these performances and playing sports on my spare time,

    i feel like im inproving in most of my aspecs of llfe, except for relationship, but its something i dont need to worry about because college has a lot more optioins 

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Monday, April 28, 2008

  • i've started to ask myself.....

    Am i being less social now, i don't find myself speaking to many people anymore.
    Before i use to talk too much, but now i feel like i don't talk at all.... Maybe I'm just thinking to much, i don't know.

    I've decided to go to Wright, but i still need to apply for it of course ill get in i just need to take the test... it doesn't concern me yet but i have to get on it soon. I have no clue what to be anymore, journalist, lawyer? i don't know what career do i really want. I'm stuck, lost and sooner or later i'm going to turn EMO!!!! hahaha no way joke lang =D

    School is going alright the only concern i have is filipino club's Sayaw Sa Banko, i just need to get the benches from ate sisa's house, i need to ask my brother to do it some time this week God willing he will say yes.

    the first 2 weeks of April have been hell! my gosh my eczema had came back full blast, i 'm relying on cream to take it away and so far its going good, although when i wake up in the morning its a whole bunch of flakes on my bed, and its a routine now that i have that once i wake up i clean my floor right after because of all that dead skin cells, sorry if it seems graphic

    I need to take my life more seriously, i need to start doing some routine when i get home. i really need to, not as much as get out more but do more physical stuff

    I had a youth group meeting on sunday, which helped me, it made me think where is God each and every day, i never really thought about it, i attend church and help the church out, but do i really know what i'm doing? from now on i have to ask myself "Where was God today?" just because i want a deeper understanding within myself. It could help me think deeper then i usually do.



Sunday, April 06, 2008

  • its been awhile since.........

    Its been awhile since ive liked someone new, because there is the occasional oh wow shes pretty cute or something, but this is a bit more complicated then that.

    i guess my over all feeling would be that, at night when im in bed, i cant sleep because i keep thinking about her. Its cheesy but its actually true, luckly last night i was online, around 1 and poof she came online xD i dont want to talk to her once shes online, it would seem like im desperate or something. But in the end she talked to me first since she noticed i was on facebook, hehe she was looking at my facebook =]

    we talked for a good 2 hours and i guess i made progress, i told myself i would go 30 pct to her and she can go the other 70, that way i know she likes me. she brought up a good point that made me want to tell her how i feel, "rejection is a part of life" once she wrote that, i wanted to tell her then and there, but saying it in person would be a lot better.

    i'm more drawn to her then ever now, i would love to stop liking her because its been awhile since ive been in a relationship, its funny

    i can help other peoples relationship, but i cant help my own.........

  • man so uh yeah -_-

    haha i love you xanga =]

    i can write anything i want on you, most people dont know about you and i and our long relationship. its been over 4 years, ever since 8th grade. i love to read old posts and think "damn i was stupid""

    i need to update more