It's a little bit funny...... This feeling inside... So. It's the end of the year, and I find myself freaking out a little bit. Several reasons have made me feel this way... 1) I'm officially a senior in college. I have to be a grown-up soon.. and I'm coming to the realization that there aren't going to be any people here that were here before me. (except for the few 5 year seniors) I'm going to be one of the people that everyone looks to because all of the other options are gone... and that's terrifying to me. 2) The people who were older than me when I came in aren't going to be here anymore. I have had to come to the realization that some of my best friends here, I may never see again... I know that everyone says "If you want it to work, you'll see them", but sometimes it's just not that easy. I'm terrified because I'm not a person that keeps in touch well.. and I've lost a lot of people because of that, and that's really scary to me. 3) Two of my roommates are graduating and moving across the country. Kristina is going to D.C and Amy is going to Baltimore... yes, it's a car trip away... a long one.. but feasible. But still, I'm going to miss them more than I can say. 4) I have to go back to Lowe's this summer because I didn't get my ass around to finding internships and my Florida opportunity didn't work out. I know that it's my own fault.. but I just didn't want to go back there. 5) Summer break is always just depressing.. I don't know. I know that I should be grateful for the times I've had with the graduating seniors, and I am.. but I just hate the fact that I have to spend another year here without them... But I guess it's times like this that I get to find things to be happy about and to look forward to and try and off-set the sad, weird feeling... so you get that list too! Ready!? 1) Nebraska with Adee, Kristina, and Beckwith 2) Late night talks and visits from friends. 3) Turning 21 4) "Christmas". Whenever that may come  5) Thanksgiving in Florida 6) The 7th Harry Potter Book 7) Summer Theatre 8) Possible career possibilities after college I guess that the good outweigh the bad.. but right now I'm just in a funk and not ready to admit that I'm leaving for the summer and that people are leaving me.. that's all, really.. | 
