This might be my last entry.. because i hate hate haaaate xanga. sooo i wanted to make it special!

I LoVe mY FriEnDs.

 < Miss Liever

 < kaysee

 < Maura

 < Mizz Morgan

 < Alex

 < Pete

 < Kate

 < Scotty

 < Sarahh

 < Meg

 < Robertttt

 < Erin

 < Emilie

 < Gary

 < Nikki

 < Kory

 < Troy

 < Rey

 < Steph

 < Jesse

 < Whit

 < Kyle

 < James

 < Jack

 < BREEE

 < Ian

 < Forest

 < Sari

 < Gurns

 < Derek

 < Kris

 < Kylie

 < Johnny

 < Ginny Alexis

the end.

Sunday i went over to Meg's house to help her clean her room... lol uhh it was fun cause I LOVE MEGAN GOFF & then we went & picked up Whitney & went over to Ian's to get their playstation game? lol whatever. Then sunday night was JenVa's VMA party!!! I went with Christine & Lindsay. Oomg there were so many people there. It was soo much funn. AHH.  Too bad Jen got in trouble for the large sum of people that showed up. lol. Hmm i totally met Josh Cron there. (even though i kinda met him last november?!) lol that was pretty exciting <3

Monday morning i went back over to Meg's house to try & finish cleaning her closet out... uhh i think we did pretty frickin well considering the mess that we started with. lol. Then Monday night i was supposed to hang out with Josh but when he got back from soccer it was too late to like.. figure out what we were going to do. lol. sooo instead i went over to Sari's house with Sarah Holko, Sarah Musolino, Whitney Unis, Meg Goff, Maura Kelley, Casey Fennell, Alexis Adams, Jen Strohl, & Sam Kurlander for LaGuNa NiGhT! wahooo! it's like my new favorite show. haha amen. Josh apparently lives right over there.. so he ended up walking over & i walked to the park with him for a few minutes. Then i went back to Sari's until about 11*15. It was so much fun. lol i loooove those girls more than anything.

Today i worked.. & then came home & on the way home i ran into Winston, Demetri & MJ !!! yay. Hmm then i got home & i showered & then talked to BrittanyZ for a loong time... i think we sort of worked out our differences for the most part. Or atleast now i think we understand eachother a little better.. or atleast well enough to know that we're both getting hurt in this situation with Alex. & one of us is going to get hurt in the end. It sucks, but i guess that's how it's gunna be.  

Uhh tonight i'm not sure what i'm doing. .but it is DEFINITELY not going to require me changing out of my sweatpants... i've been out the last two nights, & so now i'm beat. I'll prob hang with Christine or something cause she's my bestfriend & i love her.

» Here are some pictures from Jen's ;;

^ Green Hills mob <333 meg, whit, maura, ian, nicole & me <333

^ Katie, Erin, & EmNew

^ Meg, Nikk, me & Ian <3

^ Em, Erin, Jen, Katie

^ Erin, Kori, Emilie

^ Winston & Demetri <3

^ Gurns, Scotty, Tony, Jack, & Sebby! Sorry its blury =(

^ me & Ian's leg. hahah YAY.

^ aw i love this picture. Whit, Maura, Meg, Nikk

^ Me, Jen, & Keithy <3

^ Britt & Marissa <333

^ Meg, Avery (!?!), Liz

^ Jackie, me & Sarah <3

^ Nicoleee                                                           ^ Jen & Bryan <3

^ Jess, Casey D

^ Priyanka, Sari, & Quinn <3

^ Kaysee, Alexis, Kori

^ Em, Jen, Erin, Kate, Erin <3

^ Jen & Christine!!!

^ Meg, Nikki, & me

Pictures from Sari's !!! ;;

^ Whit <3

^ Jen & Sarahhh

^ Casey, Alexis, Maura <333

^ Sari, Whitney, & Sam

^ Jennn

^ Damn me & my foot fetish. lmao that was hilarious <3

^ Sariiiii <3

^^^^ yeeeah don't ask. lol

^ awww i loove this picture. *meg, maura, whitney*

my friends amaze me <33

i'm getting a hair cut tomorrow.. so i'll prob post pictures of that tomorrow if i don't see you all <3

Ummm so as you know i was in Boston area for a little while hanging out with my family & shit....

                 the pictures from the last entry are me & my cousin Evan & theres like two with my other cousin Eryl. i love them so much. ¢¾  I had sooo much effing funnnn Evan & i had soo much fun.. seriously if he lived around here we'd be best best best friends.. ugh it sucks he lives so far

Yeah i was really homesick for whatever reason while i was there.. so i came home instead of staying the rest of the summer. It would have been a lot of fun to stay.. but i had some things waiting for me back at home that i didnt want to pass up.

I missed Korbin's party & i missed Kylies goodbye party.. i heard both were great, sorry i wasn't around guys <3

Ummm let's see the last few days have been absolutely INCREDIBLE  i got back from MA on Wednesday & then omg i can't even explain how awesome the rest of that day was. lol you'd have to be there, but it was sooo much fun <3 Then on Thursday i worked & then i believe i stayed home the rest of the night until pretty late & then i went out for like an hour or two which again was absolutely incredible.  &&&& Then yesterday i chilled with some friends & then i went to Christine's house around like 730ish? idk i was having a bad day & Mrs. Liever made me feel a little bit better about that. Ohwelll so Christine & i decided to get out of the house & go to the movies... where we saw soo many people... it was AWESOMEEEE beyond belief  We sawww Conrad, Seb, Tim, Clint, Abbey, Ginny, Euniece, MJ, Mark, Jaleel, Rob, Jeff, Macri, Jess, Hillary, DOUG MILLS & a bunch of other people. Umm i wasn't in the best mood but if i were it'd be 100 times better. lol Thanks sooo much for hanging out with me Conrad it means a looot a lot a lot  Hmmm yeah Conrad, Christine & i went to the Chinese food place where he made me eat a spoonfull of that GREEN STUFF & i screamed in the middle of the restaurant.  lmao i didnt know what it was though.. hmm then i got all wet & it looked like i wet my pants so i had to wear Conrads big wihte t-shirt. lol YAYYAYAY i looked HOT.

So now i'm listening to Tom Petty  & sitting here just waiting for my brother to take me to the high school wtih Catherine for another tour lol<333

um okay so my outlook on life has changed a lot over the past few like.. hours.......

lol I guess i just want to live life... i haven't really been taking advantage of my opportunities lately.. & i'd really like to. I'm young & single & getting ready to start something new and big & i dunno i kind of just want to live life to the fullest while i still can. It hurts real bad right now for me to let go of something i want sooo fucking bad, but i guess sometimes the best things in life are worth waiting for & you'll never find them if you're looking for them. ... They'll find you. So i've kind of decided to live by that for the remaining 10 days or so of summer.
              If other people want the same thing that i do, they'd tell me & it wouldnt be necessary for me to be chasing. Haha that was off subject, although i mean what i say. True, im not very happy with myself at the moment for letting the most important things in my life to change like the fucking scenery. Pretty soon, though, i'll get my feet back on the ground, i'll figure out my life, & i'll be okay.
             I've got a lot of support through my friends & i know as long as i don't let anything come between us we'll be friends forever & they'd help me through absolutely anything. Yeah so i love Christine Liever & i love Derek Hamm & i love frickin WUK & i love Alex Weinberg everyone else that's always there for me through thick & through thin.
           I think my main problem right now, is just to wipe that fucking fake smile off my face & replace it with a real one. If i let myself enjoy life, then i will. Yeah so for the rest of summer... feel free to call me, i want to stay as busy as possible. As for all you Green Hill-ers such as Meg, Maura, Nicole, Scott, Keith, Drew, Ginny, Ashleigh, Ethan, Macri, Jaleel, Jen, Whitney & Ian - - come VISIT ME DAMNIT.  ilove you all.

Yeah so i guess that's my new outlook on life- - a little more optimistic than i'm used to... but i think it'll be good for me. lol.