Behind Ana
 Anorexia Nervosa
she tricks you into beliving you nothing
make you starve your body to nothing to make you feel like somehing
instaed of channeling all your anger to cutting burning or drug addiction
(i belive) you do the hardest thing a person can do.....
directly starve yourself.
but behind Ana is her little sis
Behind Mia
Bulimia
now mia shes even MORE harmful
because her effects last a life time
she makes you kneel over a toilet as you cry and regret it all
or she can make you sit taking lotts of laxies trying to mkae all of it go away
then theres the guy ED
Behing ED
Eating Disorder Nervosa
hes a mixture of the two....
making you exersise.....over eat...starve and purge...
making you do  the ultamite damage to your body to reach an unreachable goal
and all the while you hide these things....
this cant be hurting you if your willing to do this?
or can it?
why dont your friends understand?
and ttry to stop you?
why cant you parents laeve you alone?
do you really wanna know why?
im answering it......

----goodbye---
my new xanga will be known as
failingfly
cristalsofanaslove
grievingalone
damnation
sadnessisaponm
thinnerisawinner
lifeisdeath

FMMS

love:
  measured in wieght

so many things have happend since i then updated
i ve made out with a boy
which hurt my friends feelings since he liked him
and almost end up going out with him but the guy dumped him at the last moment
ive stopped trying to strive for perfection by i havent forgot about her.
any moment.
ive gotten drunk
and kissed the guy somemore
fights
arguments
and hospital visits
what more can i name?
ohh my grades went
b
b
F
b
b
a

 
 
 
 
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rape me, rip me,suffocate my youth
stael away my innocence dilute, degrade my turth
manipulate my organs
 
tear them into shredds
kiss me with your blameful lips
 manipulate my head
tie me into knots that you know i cant undo
whisper sweet fake promises till i fall in love with you
dress me up in shame and guilt turn food into sin
convince me that i need to hereto keep the feelings in
and even with my homecourt advantage you always seem to win
so as i lay you  have you way
we both know who your killing
and when i speak my mind to you and all the hate is spilling
you look at me and say
"it itsnt rape if your willing"
-anorexia herself
from:http://www.anorexicweb.com
FMMS

           sadness is apon me

we gett 10 days off for sprongs break i have a plan
that i WILL follow through on...
i wiegh about 191
all i wanna do is losea pound a day
since i know i wont be going anywhere
and theres nothing i have to look forward to
im going to strenghten my body which inclueds my mind...
im sad because both my firned are going off and having all this fun
while i will be here doing absolutely NOTHING
but maybe obbessing over food and exersising my way to a size 10
i KNOW  i can do it....and im kinda fasting for god....
and showing strenghth to myself that i can do t.......
its called:
Project
see no evil
haer no evil
spaek no evil
food is evil

me :
pic from http://www.myvirtualmodel.com

the one to the left is me old at 191
the one to the right (obvoisly the skinny one) i the one at 120
my goal is right now 181 wich is 10 pounds to lose...
can i do it?
i can sitting at the computer all day but i can if i visit it everyday to haer from you fabolous gals!
wish me luck

FMMS

losing:
my mind and wieght
ive lost weight not much but wiehgt
i lost 8.2lbs
200
into
191
so yeah im that much closer to my goal of 120 ultamite goal of 110
yeah i know 110 is crazy low for some one about 5 9 but its possible
i LOVE that show 8th and ocean it remined me theres beautiful people out there
beside you beautiful galls and gouls....
im not so into the blonde hair blue eyed girls but there ok lookin...
i like spicy dark and exotic chikx from places like honduras
where i someday wanna be...
ahhh you haer those beaches?
and the ocean running on the sand?..i can!
so yeah my pants R looser
im eating like crazy now though cuz ive lost my sence of full  and empty
i havent been hungary in days!
i gotta stop those pop tarts
on another note
NO BOYS! UGH!!
not a an one!
im not thirstin for dick or nothin just companionship you only find
in boyfriends...
laying with them and holding them and kissing them
you CANT do that with friends
and if you are
IM J-E-A-L-O-U-S!!

am i ?
yeas i am...

i envy you...
you feel special now?!?

youve made me want everything you have
UGH I HATE YOU!

no i really hate you!!

REALLY!!!
stop laughing @ me i hate you!!

im bummed you stole my man!!..

thats cool...threesome?

NAAAAAHH!

INSPO THINSPO
 
observe her small body...
tiny helpless like a fetus...like ana/mia/ed wants you...
 

concave wishes and ribbed dreams
 
hip bones are sex

 
bare breasted?
 
thin or not thin? that is the question...
 
skinnie minnie...
 
Thin Is A Skill

Force My Mouth Shut

everything ana is...
failer
reaching goals
devouring food whole
fasting for a week..
ana is the struggle
Ana/Mia/ED
FOREVER
 

 
"you look fine!" : Diary of a confused fat girl
models are perfect Im glad you noticed
      im very very confused right now
i donno whether to come to skool regular
cuz it makes  me feel real
or come to school pretty
but that takes all my energy
what do you gals think? 
i donno what to think honestly
   dont you guys think i should be myself?
or attrect the guys?
but why woudnt myself attract the guys?
im MUCH happier just dressing comfortably
thats what ill do for a while
my intake has been PERFECT because my stoamch has benn just not hungary
i have no drive for food left so yeah i feel very...
very...i donno content no drive for food no drive for ana so yaeh
new guy at school GAY i made out with a girl
ALWAYS FUN!
|i donno|i need time|
 
asain thin pretty
 
models are perfect im glad you noticed
 
Note to self:
your imperfect
you will never let yourself think other wise
if you want REAL help...you aint gettin it from yourself
remember fat is gross you have fat
YOUR GROSS
thin isnt exactly perfect...
cuz theres no need to look starving..
or is that the look you want to achieve
good luck at trying to find a boy firend!
another not to self
Ana like mother knows best
but sometimes tells us worse...
Ana herself isnt perfect
last note to self
lose 5 lbs

Force My Mouth Shut
 

so i cant eat