so um, there's this place that i'm going to and i'm pretty excited.

I leave for dallas this weekend and i will be visiting family there, then to New Orleans for a week with youth group, then home for four days to pack and to get shots, and then.... my plane leaves.

Graduating college was a bit of an awakening for me. I'm twenty two, single, and i have my whole life ahead of me. Yes, i'm a girl and wish for someone to share it with, but most importantly i'm a daughter of the King, and I want to live for HIM! it's so crazy to imagine that in just a few days i will be half way around the world, and doing what I love to do, TEACHING! i'm so so excited. I can tell that the Father has been preparing me for this for a really long time, because my heart isn't at home anymore, i'm so anxious to leave. it's amazing how all the little things have fallen into place. I know it's my time to leave. Partly because i need something new. My heart will always have a place for certain people, places and memories that i've had in my life, but it's time for me to begin again. I would appreciate your prayers as i continue to prepare to leave.

Blessings and Peace,
B

by Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, "Wait."

"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

"My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.

"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.

"You'd never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

"The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait."


i love you...
Blessings and Peace,
B.

Dear world,

I'm almost there. Almost free.

P.S. Graduation is in less than three weeks....

Love,
Me

just thought you should know why my life is crazy now.