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Name: Emily -:-aim-:- Country: United States Birthday: 4/4/1990 Gender: Female
Interests: lets see....soccer,singing,church youth group,um talkin on the fone and the internet,goin to the movies on friday nite, SHOPPIN, um running(track), and thats bout it!
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Member Since:
9/14/2003
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| yea i made a new xanga...when i was makin the other one i screwed this one up so yea thats why it looks like this lol well go here
http://www.xanga.com/Sparkles_in_the_sky
yea thats the new xanga!!! lol well leave comments on it
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We enjoy each others company but for the most part, we avoid it. We pretend there is nothing there. We're just friends. Every time we meet, it's awkward at first. We check our guard and put up the walls. We're just friends that's all. We call each other on the phone, and always have a good excuse for doing so. Do friends need an excuse? You remind me that "We must be careful", "We can't go there", you say. The rules have been set, and we live by them.
We sit and talk for hours, two sets of blue eyes interlocked and neither turns away. I hang on your every word. Your simple presence in a room, gives my life a purpose. Add your voice and a smile, and I melt away. The thought of you touching me makes my body scream out with yearning. But we're just friends, right? Why do I feel it's more? Are we in self-inflicted denial? Our past hurts have made us so afraid, We'd rather be lonely than to take that chance again.
I wish I could tell you how I really feel inside. That I'd be willing to take that chance To be more than just your friend. I know you sense this, as I do, but it's easier to pretend. Saying it would make it real and you'd run away and hide from me.
So I'll try and keep the flood gates closed and be content that you let me be,
Just your friend.<3<3
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LAST NITE WAS THE DANCE AND IT WAS AWESOME!!!! It was sooooo much fun!!!!! Okay katie came over cuz her parents had to go somewhere so she had to get ready over here lol and brittany(my sisters friend) did our hair and it was so good!!! Then when we got our makeup and hair done and our dress on we looked rele good!!! Okay but we didn’t leave till like 7:30 cuz our hair took so long!! Lol so we got there at like 8:00 oops lol!! Well we went in and cecily, kayla, becca, lauren, and nicole were there waiting for us lol cuz we told them we would meet them in the commons lol which didn’t happen cuz we were rele late! Oops lol well then of course we went and danced and all that fun stuff…got pics and everything!! Lol everyone looked so pretty!!!! Well there was this guy that looked rele hott last nite but I’m not sayin who!! Lol well kayla said somethin about cecily dancing with "someone" so katie went up to him which made cecily mad cuz she didn’t wanna dance with him! So yea then me and cecily went to the commons and got a drink…but we went back in and danced after katie came in and told cecily she didn’t ask him to dance… yea but after a while like 45 min we went back into the commons and ran into 2 ppl one I like and one I absolutly hate! But yea me and katie were talkin to them but I rele didn’t wanna be in there and thank god cecily came and got me!!! THANK YOU CECILY!! But yea the dance was so much fun!!!!!!!! It was prolly the best dance ever!! Lol but anyways after the dance we went to applebees(the one by the movies) and OMG that place was SOOOOOOOOOOO crowded ahhhh!! Okay I was goin with katie, cecily, kayla, andrea, becca, nicole, heather,and lauren okay? So we walked in and becca, lauren, and nicole came like rite after us and she had already told tiffanie and whitney to put us under there name so they did okay but they weren’t takin names they just said "if there’s a table open then go sit and it" so they went and sat at a 4 person table and we had like a lot of ppl so we fit 9 ppl in that table but andrea cecily and kayla got there rele late so we didn’t have room for them but I didn’t feel like waiting till midnite to get a table so yea we went and sat with tiffanie and whitney and we had already ordered by the time cecily got there…so she got mad cuz we didn’t have a seat for her but I think everythings better now she just went to custards…! So yea every time someone else came and sat down w/us and the waiter came back he was like nope u weren’t there when I got there drinks so u can’t be there now we were like WTF!?! They are with us…they planed on sitting with us and hes like nope! 9 is way to many cuz 8 is! We were like OMG but yea it was soooooooo busy there!!!! When we got our food it was on these big plates so 9 plates didn’t fit on that table so it was like the only ppl that got there food infront of them was nicole and becca cuz they were on the end…my plate was in between me and lauren and laurens plate was infront of her and heather so yea I was like ah lol it was funni!! Well when we got our check it was like 82 sumthin all together lol it was great! But we gave him all this money and we were like okay all of this…KEEP IT cuz it has ur tip in it so just keep the change cuz that’s ur tip lol! We gave him tons of money just piled up on the table!! Lol we said it was beccas b-day cuz it is next week but he couldn’t give us a cake or anything cuz she had to have some sort of id cuz u kno ppl prolly just say that on nites like this so I can see y they had to see id lol!! Well then after applebees katie thought she was spendin the nite with me but I didn’t kno about it lol so she couldn’t…but now I’m home and it’s Saturday lol! Soooo….tomorrow I have a soccer game rite in the middle of the football game!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We r playing kaite’s team…shall be a good game!! But I guess I’ll letcha kids go!!! xoxo <3 ya lots!!!! leave lots of comments!!!!!!!!
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-:-Hey Kids...-:-
I look at him, And a smile grows in my face. Just to remember the times, When he could've been mine. As he gives me a hug, While he puts his arms around me. I remember what I would've gave To only have a chance with him. But now I see him, In a different light. Yes, he still means the world to me, But now its a different way. His friendship means a lot to me, Although we never had much anything else. Now I see why God doesn't answer all prayers, Because some things are left better untouched.<3<3<3
-:-hey kids wuts up? well not much here...went back to school today um yea it was boring! well who's goin to the dance friday?? hmm i don't rele have anything to say...last nite i had 2 soccer games back to back 4 and 5...the first one we played the pink panthers...and we tied that game 4-4 omg i am so mad cuz in like the last 30 sec. of the game i was shooting for the goal and the effin ball was like 1 inch away from goin in so i was like rele mad! cuz we woulda won that game...so yea now my coach is like we woulda won that game if carleton(thats wut my teams calls me lol) woulda scored that last goal!*but he's just jokin around* and i'm always like UG OMG I KNO! lol it's funni! but the 2nd game was some easy stuff...we played this stupid team called the stingers and we beat them 18-0 so yea we killed them! lol well me and cecily are friends again!!! yay! lol if we weren't, math and spanish would rele suck cuz we like talk ALL the time in those classes lol!! well i guess i'll let you kids go cuz i don't have anything else to say! xoxo <3 ya lotz!!! LEAVE COMMENTS!!!-:-
..:-:-:..Emily..:-:-:..
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-:-WOW!! ITS 2004! -:-
hey!! Omg new years eve was SOOO fun!!! Me and my family went over to the Barr’s house for new years eve!!! Ahh it was so fun! Katie came over at like 10:45 after she got done eating dinner with her family at habachi or w/e! lol but before katie came over we ate and played this game I forgot wut its called tho! It was rele fun!! And we made a fort in brittany’s room with a bunch of sheets and blankets and hair clips and tape lol! But when katie got there we re-did her xanga and put a background and everything so yea it looks rele rele cute! And then we were talkin on the internet and cody was being RELE mean to us and lauren! He called lauren a fag! I was like omg! But yea we were like omg cody ur so mean and just stuff like that! It was fun tho lol! Then comes 12:00 yea we took chips outside and shaped them in the numbers 2003 on the sidewalk and stomped on them and blew lil party thingies lol it was so much fun!!!!!! Then we went back inside and talked on the internet somemore…Okay when we got done talkin on the internet we went up stairs into brittany’s room cuz they were all gunna go to bed so my sister, noel, and katie went up there before all of us were off the computer and they came back down SCREAMING so effin loud! And they were like omg u guys someone is in brittany’s room they are back in the corner cuz we heard them whispering! And it wasn’t anyone that we knew cuz everyone was already in bed except for the 7 of us and we were all together so yea but they said they heard someone back there whispering so we all walked up there together in the pitch black and we had a flash light and just stuff like that…and we walked into the room AND…..the sheet was moving from the fort back in that lil corner so yea we all screamed RELE loud and everyone else in the house was sleeping except we woke like all of them up and brittany’s dad came in and freaked us out cuz he was like okay u guys need to quite down…and we were all like AHHHHHHHHHHH lol it was so funni!! But they took all the sheets down and stuff so me and katie went down stairs and made our bed on the floor…first we took all the cushions off of the couches and put them on the floor but there wasn’t very much room for us so yea we put the cushions all around us like a lil wall around our bed and then we used all the blankets that were down stairs which was like 15 lol and they were all rele soft and comfy so we layed all of those out on the floor then we went up and got like 6 more sheets lol cuz we obviously rele wanted to be comfy lol so we layed the sheets down on the floor and then tried to turn the tv on but it’s a 20 year old tv so it’s rele old and we have NO clue how to work it okay so yea we tried to turn it on with the remote but it wouldn’t so we tried turning it on by the cable thingy and it worked but of course knowing us IT WAS TURNED UP RELE LOUD and it was all fuzzy so yea it scared us to death! But we got brittany to come fix it for us lol! But me and katie didn’t go to bed till 8:30am and then woke up at 10:00 lol so yea we didn’t get very much sleep!
~Cecily I can’t believe you did that site! Im mad at you now!
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