[Current Mood: Thoughtful]
[Music: Sunrise by Angel City]
[Doing: Spilling my guts out]

Well, long time no update. Its been awhile...like what? 2 years since I updated this thingg..

What is a dream?

A nightly visit of our unconcious thoughts?
The truth behind our denial?
Or merely a figment of the mind's creation?
A forgotten memory that arises?
Opens up a deep wound?
Or pulls forth a cherished memory?

A call of the mind's longing.

Gives me the reason to despise them the more.

I love dreams, yet I dislike them.

[Current Mood: Content! =) ]
[Music: Sexy Love by Ne-Yo]
[Doing: Chatting and...what not =P]

Hey long time no update!! hehehe...

Well I have been occupied with my junior year of high school and so far....its been hectic!! Due dates are haunting my head! and there are lots of work and study to worry about! Hehehe..I suppose this is why junior year is the most important year of high school...its a pain. =P

So basically I'm occupied with that and some thoughts I have been thinking about...

So..this little asian has a crush this year...and its different...its not a crush in school....

And its sooo freakin weird! eh..oh well, hopefully it will pass...unless he notices..and decides to do something about it....>.>...gahh!! school first Alex!!!! >.<

About my life soo far this school year..well...

My relatives, well older cousins, came to visit from california. Yeah, it was hectic and crazy, loud..hehe. But over all it was fun. Went to disney and rode that new everest ride..it..rocked! xD hahaha..it scared the bageezes out of me!!..but now I'm starting to miss my cousins again, but they will be coming back..>.>..thanks giving I hope..

Well thats all for today! I'm heading to a festival tonight. "A Knight's Festival" as they call it. Its going to be held at UCF, mainly for college students, but it can also be to the public, they just can't win prixes in games. =( that sucks...eh oh well I'll be heading out with my brother..and maybe with my cousin. A friend invited me..

Well thats Alex's news flash! Signing off this is yours truly! ^_~

[Current Mood: Content and somewhat irritated..]
[Music: Lies by Evanescence]
[Doing: getting ready to swim...]

Got myself to update sooner this time =^.^= heheh I feel soo proud of myself. But anyways these past few days I've been busy with myself. Community Service at my high school, earning hours for a scholarship requirement o.o...its a 100% scholarship so its important! >.< heheh. Community Service at my high school's library had been fun to ^^ I had a great time working there lol. Met a new friend..and possibly a new..crush?..or just attraction I guess ^^;;; I just think hes cute =^.^= hehehe. Though I know its not possible for us to be more than friends or maybe not even considered a friend >.< I'm afraid to talk to him and I might embarass myself.

Anyways ^^ I'm feeling better now just coughing a few times here and there but no more blood. Everything has been doing well ^^ and I was happy to meet a new friend. Shes Vietnamese and shes been here only for 10 months ^^;; she was brought up in Vietnam and came here in the U.S to study ^^. She speaks pretty good english but sometimes she asks me here and there what this and that word means ^^ and I help her with english now. We took the service learning class together for community service ^^ and worked in the library.

alright guys I'll update later going swimming ttyl ^^

[Current Mood: apathetic...]
[Music: My All by Mariah Carey]
[ Doing: done cleaning around the house]

Well well well...what I week...thats all I have to say...

   First of all I've been sickly ill the past week and so was my band teacher..he was in a more worse condition. Cancer. Yup...that killer disease of people. He didnt deserve it I know that, but what can you do? thats life for you. Its full of surprises unfavored ones and good ones. Just unpredictable. Though its sad...really sad..I miss him... and somehow I wish I could have done something to see him before he was diagnoised with it. Like go to see his last concert before he retired and passed away... I just wish...I can reverse time sometimes...and change what I do. Sadly I cant and thats how it goes... I just miss him right now...and I didnt get to see him since last year.....I feel...ill about that.

   Well I'm doing fine now, on Tuesday I went to the doctors, on that same day in the morning I coughed up blood -.-;;; my mother started freakin out if I had something wrong with my lungs or bronchitis ^^;; cant spell. Well I cant blame her for freakin out I would too ^^:;; but I dont know...when I did cough up blood...it didnt matter to me..whatever what was wrong with me....When I went to the doctors they found out I was okay and doing well and my lungs were fine. It was just my coughing, so they gave me anti-botics for that. I guess I was a little relieved ^^;;;...*Sighs* really right now...I'm really just apathetic...

  Last night I went to the memorial of my band teacher at my highschool PAC and they had a band to play for the night. I choose not to play in it for I was still coughing ^^;;; soorrry guys...but I would have been squeeking too much to play. Its not like I didnt care or anything I would have loved to play that night. I just wasnt able to. It was sad...I almost cried last night at the memorial when they were talking about moments about him..and I laughed yes..happy times with him they talked about. It made me miss him more....He will always be in my heart and I'll take what I learned from him with me in my life.

  I would like to visit his grave if he was burried but I dont know whether he was or not or which grave yard and where it is...I would really appreciate it if any of you band members can inform me. Thank you.