damn i read my last entry and i kinda want to punch myself in the face.
its sad.

people kinda suck nowadays.

go suck a bag of dicks.

havent updated in so long : (
but anyway...
its august already!

next month is school :////
im dreading it like any other kid
cobra starship is overseas right now :*(

so many sad things are goin on haha
but there is a new boy!
yay :DDD
but i dont think we will be anythin other than "friends"
which sucks but oh wellz

there is a charity event on the 17th!
yay
i cant wait for that yo
you all best be goin

wow, i think its time to grow the fuck up.

i thought he was differnt.
he proved me wrong.
i thought we would at least maintain a good friendship, but i guess not.
he has no right to disrespect me like this.
he is literally acting like hes a fucking 5 year old boy.
GROW THE FUCK UP.

-_-

this pisses me off more than anything.
fuck being sad.
fuck being miserable.
im pissed off.

wow, i joined xanga 877 days ago, thats like more than two years ago. super duper crazy, and im still writing it in today haha

fuck. so anyway. im so sick of this shit bros. you have no idea. im just through with it. im through feeling like this. im done crying. im done with everything. seriously. its not worth it. its not worth the pain nor the tears. i cant do this anymore.

ok so i should elaborate on this topic more. i really hate bringing up old memories but oh well. i need to grow some balls and suck it up bro, and yes i just said i need to grow some balls haha

well basically, he broke up with me three days before our one month, eh its not that shitty but i mean at least he did it before it got "serious" hahaha well anyways, it just totally ruined my whole weekend for me, actually it just destroyed my entire few weeks for me. i cant and shouldnt dwell on something so small. there is so much other crap going on at the moment, i dont have time to think about all this shit bro. i dont think anyone on this whole fucking planet deserves this whatsoever. it makes me think im not good enough for anyone, and i know i know, i shouldnt think like that but it hurt so bad. someone just ripping your heart out and smashing it into so many little pieces. i cant help but cry. i will admit to that. its hard for me not to. i mean come on. call me emo call me a pussy, call me any name you want, cause quite frankly i could care less, everyone cries. it just so happens that i cry over smaller things haha i guess. well anyways. yeah, i have amazing friends, i love the fact that they will ALWAYS be there for me no matter what. they are what make me happy. truely. i will do absolutely anything for them. they are my rock. i love them with all my heart. :*( anyways, yeah. he gave me all the cliche lines. i didnt really want to hear any of his shit. i mean come on, if youre gonna break up with me, do it differently. and the reasons he gave me were total bullshit. ive heard everything he has said before, so i wasnt surprised. he's the one who needs to grow some balls bro. not me. haha right after he did it, he rubbed my back and i said "dont touch me" haha total new york moment right there, "dont touch me, you'll never get to touch me again!" haha damn i love her haha anyways, yeah, but seriously, i was so mad at the moment and so sad and crying like a baby and yeah, i hope no one ever goes through that, cause no one deserves that. at all. i wouldnt even want my enemies to go through that. haha woahwoahwoah. but seriously. i only heard of that happening in movies, and i never expected it to actually happen to me so i was pretty shocked. the whole entire time i was just thinking "Why??" haha cause im fucking amazing.

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