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Decisions, Decisions, Decisions

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions

Decisions, decisions, decisions.  Have you ever had that feeling where you're not quite sure where to go next?  Everything seems like a blur.  Nothing makes sense.  You feel empty inside.  Everything spins around you.  That's how I feel.

I can be quite an emotional person sometimes.  There have been times when I have randomly cried for no reason at all.  Either that or something arouses bitter feelings inside of me and I can't help but question my faith.  I don't know why feel the way I do.  Actually, most of the time I am just plain quiet and not emotional at all.  But there comes a time when everything catches up with me and I can't help but cry.

For example, last Sunday I visited Brooklyn Tabernacle Church.  They're Pentecostal.  It was an interesting experience.  I enjoyed it.  However, the worship was very emotional.  I haven't found my own way to worship God yet, so I felt left out, and pressured to pretend to worship.  A lot of times worship seems so fake to me.  The service went on.  My heart continued to become bitter.  As awesome as the sermon was, I still couldn't help but want to cry.  I don't know why.  I think it's the fact that I just can't reach that level of worship.  I don't feel like God is there.  I'm not sure of my salvation.  I should be.  I know what I believe.  But everything seems so messed up.

And now it is time for me to decide on a college.  I don't know how I will decide.  I'm at a point in my life where I really need God's comfort, but I just can't seem to get it.  I've prayed so many times, but nothing has happened.  I don't know what to think.

For now, I continue on.  I'm not sure what to say.  Decisions, Decisions, Decisions.  Here I go again.  I'm not quite sure where to go next.  Everything seems like a blur.  Nothing makes sense.  I feel empty inside.  Everything is spinning around in my head.  Decisions, decisions, decisions.

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Dr. Phil's Test - I'm 40 ^_^

Below is Dr Phil's test. (Dr. Phil scored 55; he did this test on
Oprah-she got a 38.) Some folks pay a lot of money to find this
stuff out. Read on, this is very interesting!

Don't be overly sensitive! The following is pretty accurate and
it
only takes 2 minutes. Take this test for yourself and send it to
your friends.

The person who sent it placed their score in the subject box.
Please
do the same before forwarding to your friends. (send it back to
the
person who sent it to you) Don't peek but begin the test as you
scroll down and answer.

Answers are for who you are now...... not who you were in the
past.
Have pen or pencil and paper ready. This is a real test given by
the
Human Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today. It
helps them get better insight concerning their employees and
prospective employees.

It's only 10 Simple questions, so..... grab a pencil and paper,
keeping
track of your letter answers to each question. Make sure to
change the
subject of the e-mail to read YOUR total. When you are finished,
forward
this to friends/family, and also send It to the person who sent
this to
you.

Make sure to put YOUR score in the subject box.

Ready??

Begin...

1. When do you feel your best?

a) in the morning

b) during the afternoon and early evening

c) late at night


2. You usually walk...

a) fairly fast, with long steps

b) fairly fast, with little steps

c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face

d) less fast, head down

e) very slowly


3. When talking to people you...

a) stand with your arms folded

b) have your hands clasped

c) have one or both your hands on your hips

d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking

e) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smooth your hair


4. When relaxing, you sit with...

a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side

b) your legs crossed

c) your legs stretched out or straight

d) one leg curled under you


5. When something really amuses you, you react with...

a) big appreciated laugh

b) a laugh, but not a loud one

c) a quiet chuckle

d) a sheepish smile


6. When you go to a party or social gathering you...

a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you

b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know

c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed


7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're
Interrupted, do you ...

a) welcome the break

b) feel extremely irritated

c) vary between these two extremes


8. Which of the following colors do you like most?

a) Red or orange

b) black

c) yellow or light blue

d) green

e) dark blue or purple

f) white

g) brown or gray


9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before
going to sleep you are ...

a) stretched out on your back

b) stretched out face down on your stomach

c) on your side, slightly curled

d) with your head on one arm

e) with your head under the covers


10. You often dream that you are...

a) falling

b) fighting or struggling

c) searching for something or somebody

d) flying or floating

e) you usually have dreamless sleep

f) your dreams are always pleasant



POINTS:

1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6

2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1

3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6

4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1

5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2

6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2

7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4

8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1

9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1

10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1


Now add up the total number of points.

OVER 60 POINTS: Others see you as someone they should "handle
with
care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and extremely
dominant.
Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but
don't
always
trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you.

51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile,
rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to
make
decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold
and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone
who
take chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your
company because of the excitement you radiate.

41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming,
amusing,
practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in
the
centre of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it
go
to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and
understanding, someone who'll always cheer them up and help them
out.

31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful &
practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but
modest.
Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone
who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the
same
loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it
takes a
lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it
takes you a
long
time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.

21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.
They
see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady
plodder. It would really surprise them if you ever did something
impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to
examine
everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide
against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your
careful
nature.

UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and
indecisive,
someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to
make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone
or
anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that
don't exist. Some people think you're boring. Only those who know
you well know that you aren't.

Now forward this to others, and put your score in the subject box
as:

"Dr. Phil's Test - I'm a __"

“Decision” magazine Weekly E-mail Devotional
Tuesday, February 28, 2006


Welcome to “Decision” magazine's weekly e-mail devotional.


“An expert in the law, tested [Jesus] with this question: ‘Teacher,
which is the greatest commandment in the Law?’ Jesus replied: ‘“Love the
Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all
your mind.” This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is
like it: “Love your neighbor as yourself.” All the Law and the Prophets
hang on these two commandments’” (Matthew 22:35-40, NIV).


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A Word From Billy Graham
“I received a letter from a man in Charlotte, N.C. He said that, until
our Crusade in Charlotte, he was filled with hatred, bitterness and
prejudice toward people of another race. He had joined an extremist
organization and was on the verge of engaging in violence. Out of curiosity
he came to the meetings, and one night he was gloriously converted. He
said, ‘All bitterness, hatred, malice and prejudice immediately left me.
I found myself in the counseling room sitting beside a person of
another race. Through my tears I gripped the hand of this man whom a few
hours before I would have detested. My racial problem has been solved. I
now find that I love all men, regardless of the color of their skin.’
Only Christ can solve the complicated racial problem that is facing the
world today. Christ can give supernatural love, which enables you to love
even those whom you otherwise could not love.”


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Working Together
“It is so easy to get caught up in ‘my world,’ ‘my culture,’ ‘my
church,’ that we quickly forget others. No culture is independent of another
culture's gains that benefit all of us. As we enter into friendships
with people of other cultures, it becomes clear that we all enjoy similar
things. The more we talk formally and informally, the more we
understand about one another's histories, cultures and habits. We all are
different, yet we all are the same. There are often many parallels in our
histories, our cultures and our habits that we learn about only when we
have honest and open dialogue. We need to establish and maintain open
lines of communication despite highly controversial issues that may divide
us. While we may not always agree, we need to recognize the need to
hear clearly the position of each community. Reaching out to those who
appear different brings about wonderful surprises that include lasting
relationships, and understanding and appreciation of other cultures. Myths
and prejudices are eliminated and inter-group harmony is fostered. My
cross-cultural relationships have greatly enhanced my life--and grounded
my faith that God desires peace for all His children. ‘If anyone says,
‘I love God,’ yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does
not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has
not seen’ (1 John 4:20, NIV)” (Ralph E. Blanks).


Prayer
Lord, thank You for making people different so that we can learn from
one another. If we hold hatred or prejudice in hearts, please replace it
with Your love. As Your love changes us, help us to build relationships
with others and tell the world about the peace that comes from knowing
Your Son Jesus. We pray in Jesus’ name. Amen.


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This month in “Decision”:
“A Life Fully Surrendered” by Scott Smith
A pastor recounts the faith journey that brought him to New Orleans.
http://www.billygraham.org/DMag_article.asp?ArticleID=653&BA=501&QR=120

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Bible verses marked NIV are taken by permission from The Holy Bible,
New International Version, copyright ©1973, 1978, 1984 International
Bible Society, Colorado Springs, Colorado. From Billy Graham: Taken by
permission from “Day by Day With Billy Graham,” compiled and edited by Joan
Winmill Brown, ©1976 Billy Graham Evangelistic Association, Charlotte,
North Carolina. From Ralph E. Blanks: “Decision” magazine, August 1998,
©1998 Billy Graham Evangelistic Association, Charlotte, North Carolina.

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