| Every time I come to xanga it seems like I am always complaining. Oh well, fuck it.. Well anyway, maybe it's a bad day or maybe I'm just easily irritated. I hate it when people complain constantly about something and crave attention and sympathy, and when you give it to them; try to cheer them up or whatever, they just keep complaining saying this and that, how they can't get over it or how they can't be happy. What the fuck. Here's the person on the opposite end of the pole trying his or her hardest to cheer you up and the person ends up being so pessimistic. Honestly guys, when you're at the point were you are hurting so much you can't bare it, you need to learn to let go. I, from personal experience have felt it. Yeah, that one pain deep down in your heart in which can never be erased. Where whenever you see that person you feel like the happiest person in the world and yet so sad at the same time. Where, you lie to yourself saying its okay when you know deep down it's not, and when letting go means putting your heart in chains. I know it's the hardest part of life, love. But when it all comes down, when you know there's something wrong in the picture, you have to find the biggest person in you and just one day get up and say, "i'm going to be okay." because, honestly you will be okay. I know, yeah... this is the hardest part of it all, letting go and moving on, seeing them in the hallways, bumping into them in class, stopping at the same red light, but either way... the tension will eventually go away. Give your heart a little break, it can't deal with all the things being held in, all the hope you have, and all these expectations. When your heart hurts too much, let go. Do whatever you have to do, but the best thing to do is to surround yourself with the people you care about and the people that care about you. These handful of people will be your stepping stones into recovery, you then will realize how good life is. The first week is the hardest, and once you pass that week, everything will be easier as it comes. It's not that you are leaving them in your past, it's just that you are making room in your heart to accept other people, rather than just that one person that held your heart so hard that you couldn't even let yourself be the true person that you are. The better person. So, in my conclusion... when something is hurting you so bad, you need to tell yourself "I'm going to be okay." becuase honestly... you will be okay. No matter how hard it is or how painful, it's going to be okay. You teach yourself to be a stronger person, and you learn from your mistakes, so either way, the outcome will be okay... it just takes a few tears and a a couple of big steps and sooner than you think life will be back to normal without it's misery. <3cheerupemokid(s). |
