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Name: Garrett
Country: United States
Gender: Male
Interests: The Bible, Talking with Others, Playing Random Games, Playing Sports: (Tennis, Basketball, Soccer, Football, Ping-Pong, Running), Playing Computer Games, Working Out.
Occupation: Student
Industry: College
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Member Since:
12/23/2005
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| To hear Your still small voice againWaiting patiently, listening to where God is leading me, is something that I have not been able to do within the past couple of weeks. College life is quite difficult; I commonly find myself browsing through numerous websites on the internet such as the notorious facebook (refreshing hundreds of times a day). With the additional beginning of classes, I have found myself caught up within the business of college life. Once I get back to the apartment, the first thing that comes to mind is what do "I" need to do. I know I am starting to worry too much.
I want to spend more time out of my day and listen. Listen to God, read His Word, Reflect and Pray. Something so special.
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| I am distraught...
The circumstances surrounding me have coerced me to my knees.
I am weary...
Weakness in my will to fight the fight that I know I must fight
I am in need...
To be solidly restored. To rely upon the truth of God's Sovereign Plan.
The problem must be repaired. The heart must be replenished. The life must be lived for one purpose and one purpose only. Not for worldly gain or efforts of that cause, not for the cause of pleasing people, but for the cross and its truth.. God's Sovereign Plan in each and every one of our lives.
I am praying to be restored... I am praying for restoration.
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| Summer...An Oxymoron1st summer after my 1st year in college...
It's quite repetitive of the previous summer, now that all my prior commitments of this summer have come to a close.
Summer is exhausting, yet at the same time relaxing...
Where have I lost myself? Don't get me wrong, it's been great hanging out with friends from high school once again. But sometimes, I feel like there is just too many things to worry about... Maintaining my needs... Meeting up with other people... I do want a periodical break from all the clatter, but at the same time I enjoy this. My mind is twisted in an oxymoron-induced state. My two upcoming options that I both do not really feel like doing:
1) Going back to school
2) Relaxing at Home
These feelings have risen up in the past two weeks or so. Everything doesn't feel the same --- Everything is changing --- I'm not used to the change --- It's something I do not want to see --- But it is something that I have to get used to --- And at the same time --- It is something I have to live with.
One of the main things that I am having mixed feelings is my uncertainty and my misunderstanding about changes that are induced into people during college.
Seeing changes is expected. Having a misconception about how influential the changes that occurred around me actually are.
I am weak and weary and need the grace of God to heal me, to mend and prepare me.
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| A Quiet, Dismal Ring to the End of SummerGoodbye to all the people who are leaving once again for college... A second year... A second chance... Away from home...To learn new things...To do great things...
Thinking back to what feels like yesterday, I remember the times we've spent, only realizing the it has been over a year since those days occurred. A feeling of temporary loss... Not seeing the friendships that continued from high school in my life for months at a time---
I will continue adding to this.
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| Time and LifeWhen I was told that time flew, I really did not understand the meaning of that, until recently. I am now entering my second year in college at UC Riverside, and have realized that it felt as if only a moment ago, it was last summer, where I was hanging out with all my friends, partaking in some of the most random, but adventurous activities. The clock is ticking down, and the question still remains, where are we headed and what paths are we venturing on?
I've seen multitudes of people fade away. I've seen many people change. But the one thing that has not changed, is the past. There were friendships in the past that seemed to have diminished due to the burden of bearing the demands of college. There were moments where I felt like I was on top of the world....everything was turning out great, people were happy all the time. There were times where I was imprisoned in a valley without the basic necessities, and crying for help in my heart. The past encompasses all the things that I have been through...and these things cannot be changed.
Three more years, and I will be standing at the end of my college career... Either working full-time or looking for a job or something else. While in the car today, I was listening to the FISH 95.9 and a familiar song came up, "Give Me Your Eyes" by Brandon Heath. I have heard this song, quite a few times in the past, but this time, I thought about the lyrics more, when the words, "All those people going somewhere, Why have I never cared" came up. Immediately, I tried to retrieve my thoughts from the past. "Give me your eyes for just one second, Give me your eyes so I can see, Everything that I keep missing, Give me your love for humanity" followed. The ideas, "What if we could see from God's perspective, the broken hearts, the people in need, the things that need change, a true description of love for people" arose within my mind. In three years, I will be standing at the end of my college career... Three years. I want to know a greater love for humanity, so that I can apply it within my own life. I don't want to give up on people... I don't want to give up on things. Because in a mere three years, I'll be looking back on the things I did in college.
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