Currently Listening Move Along By The All-American Rejects see related

Hmmmm.....

Not too much new stuff has happened...so I'll touch on some highlights.....

Yesterday I picked up the new All-American Rejects cd, and it is one fuckin' awesome ass cd!!! :)...so glad I bought it...then before that got a few more clothes at Rugged Wearhouse.....

Other then that I've jus been deliverin' papers, and watchin' TV, and chattin'....same ol' shiznit.....so I guess that's it for now...lol.

-Jason

I See

By:

J.Grooms

I'm no longer blinded

Now I see what they see

I see what my friends see

You don't like me

You just use me

As your last resort

Because you know I'll always be there

For you

That's why somedays you treat me like I'm special

Other days, it's like I don't even exist

It's like you're two different people

You're so hard to read

One day, hot like a blazing fire

The next, cold as a blizzard

I don't get why you would wanna do this to me

You know if you wanted me

You could have me

So you use that

You use that to your advantage

You leave me hanging by a string

Always making sure never to cut it completely

But now I see

I see what my friends see

I'm just a toy to you

You treat me as if I'm a yo-yo

Am I your source of amusement?

Does it get you off playing with my mind?

My heart?

I don't get it....

You know I'd give you anything

But it's like I'm not good enough for you

I'm only good enough when you're drunk

And no one else answers their phone

That's it...

I got it....

I am your toy

You wind me up

With the crank in my back

Then enter your commands

And have me do your bidding

But I just want you to know

I see what's going on

I now see

What they see.....

Let's start with last night....

Okay errythin' started as I was jus chattin' on here like normal, then my cell rang, and it was sumone I really liked callin', and they were drunk as fuck....and wanted me to come over and stuff, so after they hung up.....their roommate got on the comp, and told me they left the house drivin' drunk, so I call and I call back to try and get ahold of them....but I never got an answer...so I didn't get to sleep until late as fuck cuz my dumbass was sittin there worried thinkin' they were out drivin' drunk as fuck......

Here's why I say I'm a dumbass, cuz today comes....and I get an IM from them, and they let me know that they never even left the house last night, so I was up for nothin' worryin'.....but that's not all....it was pretty much back to the same ol' pattern cuz last night it was tons of flirtin'/promises of hangin' out....today comes....and they were fuckin' distant as fuck with me...and when I talked bout hangin' out, pretty much signed off....I don't get this shit, but I'm startin' to....and Danie, Julee....I'm startin' to see things more clearly, so jus hang in there yall!!!!!

But as for the rest of today.....

I jus watched some TV, and started to mow the rest of my backyard, then it started to rain, and I kept goin' til it started comin' down like crazy....then I came inside, took a shower, and chilled out, jus got done watchin' Big Bro 6 and that shit pissed me off....and now I'm thinkin' bout goin' to the movies by myself, cuz I'm tired of waitin' on people who treat me like a yo yo!

LATERZ!

-Jason

Currently Listening Victoria Beckham By Victoria Beckham see related

Let's see herrrrrrrrrrre.....

So today I woke up, big shock huh?....lol...then jus chilled around for awhile, checked the mail....and I know it's an older cd of mine but I'm currently hardcore addicted to Victoria Beckham's cd...so while listenin' I looked up music video codes for my myspace which turned out good...:).

Then went and did the papers...and came home and saw this tv show on E! called "Kill Reality" its where these reality stars live in a house together while shootin' a movie, it's pretty good.....so after watchin' 2 episodes of that I got ready to go over to Juanita's cuz it was time to mow her yard, so I went over there and mowed the front first......so I get to the backyard, but HAHA! To all the damn bees cuz I saw them before they got me, already got stung by a nest of them while mowin' my backyard, a few weeks ago....but so I still managed to mow where they was, and I don't think they were that happy bout it cuz a shit load of them was flyin' errywhere...lol...

After I finished, she wanted to talk and talk, so I was like I gotta get this lawn mower back home....lol...so now I'm back home, chillin', and listenin' to some music....:)...

-Jason

So yesterday my Cherokee started dyin' on me, then I get home and it doesn't wanna turn over....so we go buy a battery cable and we jus now put it in this mornin'...that didn't make a diff...I'm guessin' the battery is dead, cuz it'll run when I jump it....so that fuckin' sucks ass....and if that wasn't enough, the front driver tire is so bald that the wirin' is comin' out of it...and I've been drivin' round on that 4ever...glad I never had to deal with a blow out.....

Then last night I had an interestin' chat with a friends ex...that was a lil weird towards the end of it....

And all the time that are usually there for me when sumthin goes wrong...are gone now....Hillz is outta town livin' it up, and Danie is gone til the weekend, and I think Julee's pissed at me cuz I got mad at her for floodin' me with IM's...lol.

I'm jus jumpin' from one topic to the next it seems......

Next topic is people confuses me.....so I got this one friend, it's kind of a crush, but a crush that's fadin'....but they are makin' no sense to me, basically the jist of it is...."No one wants to hang out with sad and moody ppl" but that doesn't make one bit of since b/c whenever I'm happy do I get invited to hang out or anythin'? FUCK NO!! So  think they are jus lookin for excuses, but hey what can you do? NOTHIN'!

I guess that's all til tonight prolly, so LATERZ!

-Jason