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Downfall
By Bruno Ganz, Alexandra Maria Lara, Corinna Harfouch, Ulrich Matthes, Juliane Köhler
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So Mammoth cross country camp was something else...seriously. It consisted of:
* 'tangerade' (an odd yet surprisingly good combination of orange tang and lemon-lime gatorade)
* a really big sasquatch costume which was used in place of a wake up call
* me saving a scared and struggling dog from drowning
* 13 mile runs/treks up and down mountains
* hot springs, and watching some moron do a belly flop from 5 feet up onto a jet of scalding water
* watching denise austin do her aerobics workouts on lifetime
* watching my 65 year old coach play an N64 about high-speed driving...something he took to heart when driving us home, running two red lights and swerving into the on-coming traffic lane
...yeah it was a time
this leads me to the more important part of the entry:
so today was a morning practice 8.5 mile run...pretty difficult stuff coming back from a race the previous day. i, for once, did really well...keeping up and actually leading the top group for a while. however, one member of the group (and a good friend of mine) was trailing behind because he wasn't feeling very well. i found my coach on the run and requested staying back and help pace him along, to which he consented.
the minute we get back from the run...i get nothing but crap about it, not just from the two other seniors, but from every one in the group (meaning about 8 people) about how i'm 'pushing it with my varsity spot' and i 'give up too easily' and how this other kid 'has been here two days and is already kicking your ass' and how 'three other people can just as easily take your spot'...you know the drill.
i'm in a predicament right now...i really want to be on varsity, and my willingness to help everyone on the team (not just the varsity runners) is maybe jeapordizing that...but at the same time i take my leadership position seriously, so seriously that i think i would rather be a good leader than a varsity runner.
i guess what im mainly concentrating on right now is trying to find a healthy balance of the two: my own performance, and the performances of those slower than me (who are the future of our team i may add)...but lately all i've been getting is crap, so obviously its not working.
i had a talk with the person that was giving me the most crap, and he i think feigned interest and understanding to what i was saying, but i got it out of my system nonetheless.
does anybody have any advice for my situation? for right now i'm just going to keep doing what im doing...concentrating on bettering everyone, while trying to better myself at the same time...not caring with the other varsity runners think. i have no doubt i'll be on varsity, and they're just using reverse psychology.
...too bad that doesn't on me.
as a side note: the movie 'Downfall', a partially non-fictional movie depicting the last days of the German Third Reich through the eyes of one of Hitler's personal secretaries, is pretty decent. It's a foreign film, meaning the entirity is in German with English subtitles. The plot moves fairly slow at most points, making the movie seem a lot longer than it is, but still a very accurate representation of the era. 7/10.
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