Wow.

2007 march!?

It's been half a year!

But I'm back! better than ever

Unfortunately no one reads xanga, but what the hell, I figured this is an awesome way to document my youth! Just looking at "my favourites" section on the left cracks me up partly, but I'm not planning to change it.

Soooooo anyways!

2007 was the craziest year in my life. It lasted for 30 years. But with all its good and bad, its in the past now. Welcome to you 2008!!

I did it.! I've seen them alive!! the Dresden Dolls!! Without a doubt this was one of my biggest dreams, and I finally did listen to them alive. and let me tell you, it was a life changing experience!- the best musical event of my life without a doubt- and not just the Dolls, but everything about the whole night!

First were The Cangelosi Cards- they even had a tap dancer, it was simply beautiful!

Joonas- this guy was amazing! I wanna do exactly what he does for living!

Meow Meow

Then The Luminescent Orchestrii

They reminded me of Gogol Bordello- and their performance was AMAZING!

and oh my...their drummer kept flirting with me on stage! and after the show he came and told me that he kept seeing  me in the audience  and wanted to know what I was up to after the show! damn....

haha. of course I did the "right" thing and left. I suck at being a groupie, for good!!

and after the Luminescent orchestrii.....

THE DRESDEN DOLLS!!!!

I cant even make a comment about them! Don't you die before seeing them alive!!! and I was in the front center- (was worth waiting 5 hours!)

 woot woot that bottle is now mine!

Brian is quite possibly the sexiest man on earth.. And I hugged him in all that sweat! haha.

 and oh my..the lovely miss amanda palmer.. and a HAPPY me!

and another thing to note, as I was trying to get myself a dresden dolls hoodie, this guy came to me and we had a quick conversation

now im really curious..but oh well.. I love it how he doesn't know who I am aswell!

So yea..that was pretty much it my dears..

and oh all the pictures (besides the last crappy one with my phone) are from this girl who was standing right next to me, I gave her my spot, she gave me her pictures :) (fairytalevegas.com)

I love 2008 already

muah!

Currently Listening The Dresden Dolls By The Dresden Dolls see related

I do believe it is a good time to share the news..

School is almost over besides the 3 finals I have this week..but I'm already in the "holiday" mood (which I really shouldn't!) so its all good..

So during spring break me and Sanem decided to go to the Philosophy in the Aegean trip of our school. Too bad the student capacity was 16 and there was no room for us!

But that little issue wasn't going to stop us now was it?! So we told our parents we are going with the trip but planned our own ways of traveling and accomodation. and even though it was risky on many terms...everything went just perfect!

So in the day we walked around at the beautiful sea coast...

listened to philosophy talks in ancient sites...

drink at some local cafes.... (although what you see here is the "for parents" version :D)

And in the night....

well..i don't really have any pictures but some crazy memories to remember..

let's just say life doesn't get much more fun than this!

YaY!

And more recently...there was Mayfest at our college..and it' been eventful  3 days to say the least..

I think I pretty much felt all sorts of emotions this month..

I also realized something that I've known for so long but never seemed to understand..

 what you want isn't always what you need..

everybody lies
everybody all the time
i lie to go to sleep when all is wrong or right
most of it's not there
everything and everywhere
i lie about you and me too
but it's allright everybody lies

make the wrong right

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So I asked him..why do we even bother??

Nope. he didn't answer.

But now..it's over.. and I have to go and study effin macroeconomics...... @&#$%*!

Currently Listening The Weight Is a Gift By Nada Surf Always Love see related

At times like these I just feel tired of being me. I wish I could be anyone else but me...

But if that really happened..I would miss myself.

I guess the best thing to do is to stop thinking and just let go with the flow.. But I find it hard to live that way.

I've been listening to a lot of Johnny Cash and Buddy Holly these days. It's one of those times when you notice your musical genre is changing, along with many other things..

Many weird things happened in my life this month. Mainly;

• had a lot of trouble with my parents.. I hate kids, I really do..but just cause to prove my parents wrong I want to be the coolest mom ever one day.. uhm..or maybe not.!
• My room looks like anything but a room now..
• BaD girl! bad bad bad =( I'm falling behind in most of my classes. The spring has hit me hard..
• But I'm having a lot of fun being a social butterfly.!
• Plus I gotta new boyfriend.

But I'm really getting suspicious that things are wrong with me. So for the first time in a long time I felt that I can still like this boy even after we start going out. He pretty much has everything I would want in a guy..but..but..I don't know..(or maybe I do but don't want to share )

I just hope that in time we'll get to know each other better and who knows maybe I'll fall in love..hehe..the problem is, till that time..i probably shouldn't be acting the way I do around others.

I always thought I was one of the kindest, sweetest, innocent people out there. but everything is proving me wrong. It's amazing how easily people fall for their own lies..

A friend told me that after trying to get to understand boys I've made myself become one. (in the mind that is )

which can be a blessing or a curse.

Or maybe I'm so addicted to drama that when things are going great I get this urge to fuck it all up.!

Still, life is oh so precious.

..

I don't have any new pictures so in lieu of a proper journal entry I'll post this one from january, which is also my bf s favourite

also.. I was having fun with my nail-polishes..First I painted my toes and finger nails.

(you can never go wrong with black and red!)

and then....

Who says nail polish should strictly be used on nails!?!

My dragon was happy to have a make-over.

The same couldn't be said about my white carpet which has a long black line of nail polish on now nor my poor lungs..so i couldn't finish it.

But I feel strangely relieved now.

Or maybe im high from the fumes!

Currently Listening The Legend By Johnny Cash There you go see related

 so february has been a really eventful month!

most importantly I've turned 19! yipeeee!

I had a really fun night with my friends..partying and clubbing afterwards ;) drinkin, dancing crazzzzzy and meeting strangers hehehe how ace are birthdays!?

So as I was waiting something horrible to happen to ruin my "happy life" valentines day hit me in the face just in time. Well it wouldn't be so bad if I stayed home and did nothing..since I cant care less about it...but...stupid me..me and a good friend decided to go to a "Yeni Turku" concert, (theyre an amaaaaazing turkish band) which I don't really regret for it was a great concert...but damn...lovers everywhere! I swear we were like the only single girls in that bar. with a bunch of single 30 something men..and pretty much all of them hit on us. well its understandable for the atmosphere was so romantic and it just felt so awkward to be alone. you know..its one of those moments you realize how lonely you are...sad eh..

but you know I've been realizing new things about myself. so eversince highshool I realized looks are not the main thing I should be looking for in a guy but...characteristically what Im looking for is almost impossible to find...I actually do believe I find it once..or maybe twice..but then again they were..uhm..let's say there was no physical attraction between us  ok...well I couldn't get over being a superficial moron back than. and well its too late now...

but its not all bad! so I came up with another solution!: As long as I'm with a hot guy who doesnt talk everything is fine! haha

ouch that was an embarresing confession. well I might be 19 but apparently I need many more years to grow up :D

on other news...

I pretty much made up my mind on my first  tattoo!!!

It wouldnt make much sense if you dont know this logo..but if you actually do..youre a really kool person!!!!! =)

of course the white part is going to be black..and where am i getting this tattooed..not sure yet...but possibly my back or cleavage...

man...I assure you Im not a lesbian but I cant stop drooling over this lady...

I think I'ld probably have a heartattack if I kissed her or something.. phew..

Sometimes when Im bored I just get on tv...

because Im cool like that..

everyone, have a good day! mwah

Currently Listening Welcome To The Monkey House By The Dandy Warhols, Dandy Warhols You were the last high see related

 Hope 2007 is being a good year for you all...

So far for my feelings....

im exited to be 19 in about a month! its somewhat scary though...I mean 18 ok..it sounds like 16 to me...but 19..!man im getting old...

and i dont want to be single this year

yet i dont want a bf...but some some niiiiice male company would be good

okay so i discovered this great site learningtoloveyoumore.com which has lots of fun assignments yet they are challenging.so i randomly picked number 30 which is something like:

take a picture of strangers holding hands..yet they should be strangers to each other and to you aswell..

at first it didnt sound that diffucult...but damn..its funny how people are afraid of strangers

and so me and Sanem started or *quest*

(this place was huuuuge and so creppy..no people, no streets nothing...and so of course  we had to go there and take a picture)

but anyways along our way i noticed this guy and and his friend were following us..so stranger number one was found! ;)

so we went to this somewhat deserted park..and they followed

this is the exact conversation that took place (that is translated to english ;):

the guy: hey is this the swan park?

me: yea..

(after about 5 minutes)

+are there any swans in here?

(apparently its freezing and there is no water in the park to have any fish yet to have swans)

-hmm..i..dont ...think...so...but hey wanna help us *wink wink*

and so he said yes... 

so as we kept them waiting there we asked whoever we saw to be the 2nd stranger . and almost everybody said no. I mean..ITS JUST A PICTURE...

you know..DO talk to strangers! theyre not always Bad! In fact they can be me!

but just when we were about to give up i saw this girl and luckily she said yes and it turned out to be perfect! I totally love their expressions

although the guys were somewhat disappointed when we didnt give our numbers "just in case" (!)

oh the new Killers album rocks!

Dont you wanna feel my bones on your bones?

 LOOOTS OF LOVE

Cisil

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 and RIP James Brown legend

Currently Listening Sam's Town By The Killers Read my mind see related