| well its been awhile so i best update
me and josh are no longer dating.... a year and about a month. it hurt pretty bad. i was calling my friends asking for alcohol... i just wanted to drink my pains away i was crying so hard that i almost threw up...gross. but we are suppose to stay friends..best friends. we care a lot about each other. he was almost in tears telling me this
but i guess its for the best right now. i need to work and get threw school with decent grades. besides we will be going to college together for atleast two years so you never know.
but now i guess i can wear my single baseball cap that josh gave me :( maybe i should stop wearing his cloths to bed and sleeping with the monkey get gave me for valentimes and one year.i'm such a sad person
I'll be your cryin shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when i'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life |
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| dude i was really freaking hyper at work..it was crazy!!
I got about 13 more hours at work too....more money for me YAYE!!
of course that's going to go towards getting my hair done next wendsday, getting my prom dress, my jeep, and who knows what other bills
i got offered my ROTC scholarship go me
slowly i am becoming very tired........ |
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| I like how only one person ever comments on my xanga! does that mean he is the only one to read it.
and people wonder why i have mood swings about how i think nobody likes me
I'm tired of trying, I really am
but i guess after i graduate i can start a new life, new people, i dunno just new
wishfull thinking huh?
it breaks my heart knowing that wishes DON'T come true
on to a more up beat notice(kinda) I was moved to ice cream at sonic downside to that? yes it means i won't be car hopping for awhile..sigh
in the end she screams
" BREAK MY HEART AGAIN DREAMS!" |
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| well Amanda donated blood today, well yesterday now
Now she has a bruise on her arm
Amanda doesn't get to go camping this weekend so she is going to try and go look at prom dresses and go to a retirement party for one of her mom's coworkers...fun!
Because of the blood drained from Amanda she is very tired and is going to bed |
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