so it's been a while since my last post....can't say i'm surprised considering how bloggers annoy me as of now....but considering that this is the only journal i have ever really created and that i'm far too lazy to go buy one or get up from the computer, it looks like my thoughts will be shared on the internet....i just turned 20 and it feels so different because more things are expected of me now that i'm no longer a teenager...but i'm still a kid...i'm completely irresponsible...the very thought of work alone is enough to make me want to hide from it...i dont know why i've always felt like i could skate along with no responsibilities or repurcussions but whatever it was is gone now....i really messed up my life...i hurt a lot of people...and the worst part is that i'm trying to calm myself down instead of change things...i have a job now but it's still the same feeling....like i want to call in sick or quit everyday...once i get there it's never that bad...i'm worried that i may never grow up...but at least this time i'm doing what i can to try....i'm also thinking about patching up old holes in my life...even if i can't fix things i would like to move on
Lies and disparagements are funny things. They don't take shape because someone tells them but rather because someone listens to and voices agreement with them. A truly isolated individual can never speak ill of anyone. The same can be said regarding lies. -Lost Odyssey-
LIFE'S A BITCH...... fuck me and all the guys that think it's okay to cheat.........not just to cheat but also to think it's okay to hide it............and why do you take us back girls because we're only going to hurt you again.........i make myself furious when i think about what i did about a year ago now.....and to see it happen again through my good friends here..........goddamnit...........why are guys such assholes.........and why am i the biggest one of all........what happened to the nice kid i used to be..........why did i change.........i really trusted john with lauren.........i want to kill him....if he wasn't my hall mate i would
