so i thought id pay a visit.
sit down and write a lil bit, haven't done it in a long while.
lately i just haven't had the time, the energy or desire really.
kinda goin through a dull spot in life, nothin really happening.
school is...barable barley though. getting senioritis waaay too early in the game.
or is it just plan boredom with the whole school system thing.
11 and a half years is definantly enough for me.
i just been unconsciously rushing things i guess.
maybe i should slow down and try not ta take things for granted round here.
i say that sarcastically.
ok i guess ill start this with some updates of the last couple of months:
schools ok, tryin ta make the most of it.
but i still miss amber, rodney, crystal, nattwain, kentrell and the whole '06 crew,
even though they got on my nerves sometimes...Tennent jus aint the same wit out them.
but what can you do?? people come and go and id be the first ta admit that.
i experienced it more then once in the past two years.
anyway...imma leave this one alone.
college applications kicked my butt. neva felt stress like that before,
but its over and done wit....so far.
Got accepted into ODU, don't kno whats goin on wit VCU
and I'll more then likely end up in a community college for a year
if we move to virginia.
so yea my time is gunna be up in warminster
just a little over 5 months and we are out. where too? I don't kno.
Hopefully VA, imma cross my fingers on that one
James came and visited a couple of weeks ago. Yes james.
i was pretty shocked, surprised.
Not that he was there but that he didn't put an affect on me like he used too.
for the longest time i was kinda scared what would happen...
that maybe id fall head ova heels and ole feelings would come back.
and the fact that all i wanted ta do was move on.....i didn't want that ta happen.
but it didn't. ive moved on, grown a little and now we are just distant...friends.
the same person that i thought i could possibly marry. its funny now
...but damn, did he have me sweeped away and left in some fog,
cuz i def. couldn't see logic OR reality. but thats what love does ta ya right??
Imma keep this one short and sweet:
it took a matter of minutes to hear what i wanted to hear
and hoped ta hear for the last....well it felt like forever.
i'm content, at ease, happy and it feels good.
and now....well, imma just say i smile a little more.
lets see how it ends.
moving along
My love life...sucks.
Thanksgiving was alright.
Christmas was great.
and now I know why people are so infactuated with New York.
I absolutely loved it, leaving it and coming back ta this was depressing.
Warminster and the NYC are too different worlds on so many levels.
and
The new year is coming:
i've said this too many times but, time goes by so fast
and when you look back on it your surprised with everything that happened.
I don't think i ever learned so much like i did in the past two years...its crazy.
and imma be bold,stay optimistic
and say that this next year can only bring better things...experiences,
a new life.
we'll see.
