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:'(    today sucks i have a migrane and i'm tired and now i can't stop crying...

confused, don't know what else to do but cry

i don't want to fight with you

tell me whatever you need to say and whatever your feeling and i'm just gonna keep my mouth shut cause i'm so fucking self centered

hmm well i had a good weekend

i worked friday saturday and sunday

jeremy spent the night saturday

and i got my nails done for prom saturday night since jeremy didn't get off till 11 well he wasn't supposed to get off till 11 but Sue let him off early

jeremy and i went to my moms sunday morning so she could give me addresses to send out my graduation announcments to family jeremy called off work because he didn't get any sleep saturday night.... so he hung out at my house while i went to work

i got up to get dressed and 15 minutes later i walk out in the living room to say bye and he's sleeping

jeremy is so cute when he sleeps he just looks so innocent haha

.....i had fun at work it was really hot in there though and it was really cold outside when i went on my break i usually smoke 3 cigarettes on my break i smoked 2 while talking to jeremy and then my ass went back inside it was too cold for me, then i went up stairs washed my hands (like the good little employee that i am) and sat on the steps till it was time for me to clock back in

i was soooo hungry by the time i got home last night, my dad made cheeseburgers...i had 2 cheeseburgers and cheesy califlower that was all mushy cause my dad cooked it too long but i was too hungry to care.......

.....i've been thinking alot lately and i know that i shouldn't do that too much cause my brain might explode but...

      i've been thinking about wedding plans and when jeremy and i should get married and if i want a big wedding or a little wedding how long should we wait to get married all that good stuff and i just don't know it was all fine when i had to plan a wedding for pretend in sociology but this is for real and i just want it to be perfect..........HELP....give me some ideas

.....jessica did u call my house yesterday while i was at work????.....

i believe thats all for now

I LOVE YOU JEREMY!!!!!!!

i'm in blah mood today, i don't know what's wrong but oh well, i dont' wanna go to work tonight and i don't wanna have to deal with anyone i wish i would have had ISS today so i can sit in a little room by myself....

I love you jeremy and i'm sorry for everything, all the fights and shit i'm sorry

<3 manda

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one day things will be different

one day everything will be alright

one day i'll be fine

one day we'll be okay

one day everything will change

one day you and i

one day i'll be happy

trully happy

no strings

no memories of the past haunting me

i wanna forget

EVERYTHING

why's it so hard

i want to move on with my life

forget those things

the things that haunt my dreams

disappear forever

<3 Amanda

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you think i need you

everytime i'm sad you think i'm weak

i've been without for years

i need you

but not the way you think

i don't need you to protect me

all the time

i'm stronger than you think

just because i'm a girl doesn't mean i'm weak

i want to need you

but i need to need me too

i trust you

i know you'll be there

my shoulder to cry on

when i'm ill

i can count on you

to be there all the time

you gotta let me breathe

let me be me

i love you

all the things about you

your strengths and weaknesses

even all your faults

<3 Manda

Jeremy I Love You, I'll never let you go

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Yesterday was a good day, school was boring but o well

jeremy and i went to justins which was fun i played with justin's puppy he was soooo cute and talked to justins dad cause his dad and my dad know each other and used to be friends

then i watch the boys have fun and do bad bad bad things that i can't do lol

i wanted to go up to uni mart to buy a scratch off ticket and justin wanted me to get him cigarettes while i was there so i got them and the other dude ordered pizza which was yummy....(I WANT PIZZA FOR DINNER TONIGHT JEREMY)......so yeah i forgot my ticket lol which was the whole point in going there but o well

today isn't a good day for both jeremy and i

i have a temper today and he's in a mood today which sucks cause he doesn't know whats wrong, hehe i'll get him to smile and laugh before the day is over                   

Manda