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| I'm off!!I'll be leaving this saturday for a 32 days trip to East Asia, including Hong Kong, China, and Korea. Korea will entail about five days (flying there was easier on Airline budgets & I'll be on the hunt for Red Mango), China will be two weeks, and HK will be another two. Please pray for safety, health, as I'm in China doing missionwork. I'm so excited to see what God will show me and my team. Please pray for my China team from FECC consisting of me & my cousin, Adam, Torrence Lee, Joe Chao, Jonathan Lee, and Alice Lee. We're all so excited but need your prayers. We're going there to teach English to kids, & of course doing our "mission thing". Can't wait to see what God will reveal to us there~ Afterwards, we're all splitting off in Hong Kong and some, like me, Torrence, Adam, will be visiting relatives. ______________________________________________ After all of this, I have summer school in about 4 days. But until then, I"ll miss everyone! I seriously wish I could duplicate some of you, shrink, and then take you in my suitcase so I can just pull you out whenever and chat. The rest of you that are on missions and don't see this until you get back, I'm so excited to see how many people are doing Short term mission work!! Yay for you guys, but u must share with me once u get back! (aka--Vision, my Africa Mission bestie, and friend in the Philipines ahem Tiff! Chi Baby) Those of you staying around, I'm thinking & missing you already (Hello Kitty Superstar, PunkRocker, FECC Summer teacher w/Red Roxy Car, BigHead Lollipop Boy, ChinaTrust banker, Downey's Late night patroller, and miss CSULB "valec. scholarship recipient") Until then! 
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| =]God has been so good to me...I thought it was going to be the craziest stressful week ever, but God has really been good, and has given me little surprise blessings the past three days so far. Sunday: After studying and waking up late for church, I thought I was going to be way too tired. My level of energy and ability to even study after church w/out taking a nap was all too good to be true. I even had spaghetti night with my family! Monday: I told my boss how I had a dream that he yelled at me for being late to my 6am shift and somehow later brought me cookies. Four hours later at work (I was actually awake), he walked in with a batch of cookies that he baked himself for me. The sweetest thing ever! And...I rode my bike at 5:45ish and didn't crash =P ( I didn't bike for a VERY long time) Also, I got a new job: yay Brandywine & free food! Unfortunately, the boss told me I'm too short to grill >< Today: Nehemiah randomly called me and told me he was in irvine. I then got a nice ten minute visit from him and laughed while my roomate chatted with him..hahaha YAY! Annoyances: -teachers that give a midterm on nothing they lectured -can't go to Mexico -I accidentally squished a snail while riding my new pink bike and had its remains stuck on my tire..eww. -me being a complicated girl but okay..two more finals and then im done. and then one 7am morning shift at work ewwww -__-; and tomorrow is my ten w/Pooh ;) | | |
| I have three weeks to go, and am high on caffeine. I'm surprised my teeth aren't yellow yet. In that span of time, I have: -four finals -two papers -one children's choir performance I think if it weren't God's blessings of nice hugs from Adam, random chats with Tiff & Chi, beautiful nature to surround me, and the surprise bump-ins to random friends at some college graduations, I'd probably say I'm running on empty. I miss the unity and support from my sisters of last year that we gave to one another. Pressure from parents and some dissapointing grades is robbing me of playful youth and spirit, and I'm at times, extremely discouraged. But I wouldn't say depressed, God is too good to me to EVER say that. I feel the need to serve so much that I forget about myself and I'm fatigued. I need time to re-energize and rest up. I'm frustrated that I find myself launched into a mission trip in China when I'm down. I won't say that I'm spiritually dry because I"m not, but I'm tired and dissapointed. I can't figure out what I want to do: teaching is an option, but is it a passion? In terms of my mission goals, why is it that I have such a heart for the Chinese in poverty but I'm extremely apathetic to those in a rich environment enveloped in self-pity? Is it really that difficult for me to do "mission-work" at home? I refuse to call those people "charity cases", becasuse they're not. God loves them as well, so why can't I? >< If I could just have a little bit of time to rest, quiet time, and solitude.... Lead me please, God p.s.--Jack, I'm not going to buy into your logo of "There is no rest for the wicked." I'm not in business, I'm not wicked and so therefore I deserve rest. That statement does not apply to me. =P Summer Cravings: Food:Joe's Sushi Golden Dragon Roll, Souplantation Foccacia Bread, Dumplings, Tomato Curry Ramen, Spaghetti & Meatballs with my Family, Mrs. Knott's Fried Chicken, Japa Vege....i'm such a glutton :/ Activities: Theme Parks, Horseback Riding, Swimming at the beach, National Park w/a Dog, Hugging Adam, Coffee Date/Sleepover with Girls, Cooking with brother, baking, READING, re-learning Piano/Flute, Rolling in Blankets, Dancing Ugly by myself in front of a mirror in undies, Working out, petting an ostritch Sleep: 8+ hours dailiy :) | | |
| current thanks of the day1.)Hearing Chi's safety in spite of the horrible news of China's 7.5 earthquake...followed by a long late night chat w/Chi. 2.) All those moms that helped me out w/the Children's performance. Having enough energy, and that the kids were cooperative. Thank you God!!! 3.) Mom 4.) Timmy running around doing all my errands for me on Sunday 5.) Those girls on Sunday to make sure I"m doing okay and giving me a hug after I was exhausted. (Chow, Jewel, Joy, Janelle) 6.) Adam bringing me din today after I was FREAKING tired. 7.) Making one of the kids in choir that is ALWAYS very serious be able to smile =) 8.) Jack re-locating himself at home so that his commute isn't as stressful. 9.) Yu-sheng cooking me lunch on Saturday. 10.) Flexibility of those around me---what God-sent angels! 11.) jewel's xanga post about the paradox of life<---wonderful read. | | |
| Random thoughts Just in this past year, I've attended more funerals than weddings, and heard about more critical illnesses among loved ones than the revival of spirit among "dead Christians". It seems that there's a lack of passion, and wonder at God's masterplan. However, he's still soverign. Joyson's testimony proves just this, his leaving us left us with evermore awe in the Father's hands. Multitudes of his classmate/peers are curiously moved by Joyson's God--to the extent that maybe his journey was worth it? One gone, but dozens of believers? I guess God has a plan. John 12:12-36 "I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds". I don't think Joyson is seperated from us. In fact, although he is not physically around, the bridge between us and God seems ever stronger than before. Communication with God is reaffirmed and it seems his life's testimony is a bridge between unbelievers and God. Thank you God for your will. I only wish the chemo didn't hurt as bad. Auntie Ming-zhu, you are the most hardcore prayer warrior of all time--my upmost admiration goes to you. So while I calculated my statistics of the amount of sad versus happiness in this past year, I realized that perhaps it isn't so sad after all. People's trials are turning into testimonies of God's soverignty and mighty hand at work. One testimony multiplied by people is equating into some stunning answer of God moving. At times, it does't seem like it. But God definetly is at move. This clip of American Idol singing "shout to the Lord" caught my full attention. Praise be to God through all trials. So God, do your thing and work your masterplan!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=chXEraRnE4o Time is short. Life is beautiful :) | | |
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