Well me and Miah are back together. I hope it works out thanks for everyone who prayed  for us.

 [ ] I'm afraid of silence.

[x] I am really ticklish.

[x] I'm afraid of the dark.

[X ] I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors at night.

[ ] I am homosexual.

[x] I believe in true love.

[x] I've run away from home.

[ ] I listen to political music.

[ ] I collect comic books.

[x] I shut others out when I'm sad.

[x] I've stayed out all night.

[ ] I open up to others easily.

[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.

[ ] I watch the news.

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.

[x] I love Disney movies.

[ ] I am a sucker for green eyes

[ ] I don't kill bugs.

[ ] I curse once in awhile.

[ ] I have (had) "x"s in my screen name.

[x] I've slipped and fallen in public.

[X ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation. 

[ ] I love Spam...

[x] I bake well.

[ ] I have worn pajamas to class.

[ ] I have owned something from Abercrombie.

[x] I have a job.

[x] Talked on a phone for 5+ hours.

[ ] I love Dr. Phil

[x] I like someone.

[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.

[x] I am self-conscious.

[x] I love to laugh.

[ ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis

[x] I have tried a cigarette.

[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.

[ ] I loved Lord of the Flies.

[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.

[ ] I can't swallow pills.

[x] I have a few scars.

[ ] I've been out of this country.

[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.

[x] I love chocolate.

[ x] I bite my nails.

[ ] I am not comfortable with being me.

[ x] I play computer games when I'm bored.

[ ] Gotten lost in the city.

[ ] Thought of suicide before.

[ ] Seen a shooting star

[ ] Had a serious surgery.

[ ] Gone out in public in your pajamas.

[ ] Have kissed a stranger.

[x] Hugged a stranger.

[ ] Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of the same sex.

[ ] Been in a fist fight.

[ ] Been arrested.

[ ] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose.

[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.

[ ] Made out in an elevator...

[ ] Swore at your parents.

[x ] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose

[ ] Been skydiving.

[x] Been bungee jumping. (if the skycoaster counts...and it should...)

[ ] Gotten stitches.

[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.

[x] Bitten someone.

[x] Liked it.

[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.

[x] Gotten the chicken pox.

[x] Crashed into a car. 

[ ] been to China.

[ ] Ridden in a taxi.

[x] Shoplifted. 

[ ] Been fired.

[x] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.

[x ] Stole something from your job.(Carmel for apple dippers)

[ ] Gone on a blind date.

[ ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.

[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.

[ ] Been to Europe.

[ ] Slept with a co-worker.

[ ] Been married.

[ ] Gotten divorced.

[x]Saw someone/something dying.

[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day.

[ ] Been to Canada.

[ ] Been on a plane.

[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.

[ ] Thrown up in a bar.

[ ] Eaten sushi.

[ ] Been snowboarding.

[ ] Been skiing.

[x] Been ice skating

[x] Cried in public

[ ] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.

[x] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.

[x] Thought of someone almost 24/7

[x ] Hated the world.

 [x] Cried during a movie.

[x] Kissed someone in a movie theater.

[ ] Eaten a whole bag of chips in one sitting (not a small bag).

[ ] Walked around with something stuck in your teeth without realizing until later.

[x] Tried to hook up two of your friends. 

[ x] Been cheated on.

[x ] Cheated on someone else.

[x] Been to a haunted house for Halloween.

[ ] Played strip poker.

[x] Listened to the same CD over and over numerous times in one day.

[ ] Sustained a sports-related injury.

[ ] Graduated from high school.

[x] Taken prescription medicine that wasn't yours.

[x] Thrown silverware at someone.

[x] Used a George Foreman grill.

[x] Sang along to a Veggie Tales song.

[  ] Befriended someone just to get close to their bf or gf.

[x] Wished on a star.

[x] Had recurring nightmares.

[x ] Watched the X-files.

[ ] Believed what you saw on the X-files

[ ] Kissed more than one person of the opposite sex in the same day.

[ ] Kissed more than one person of the same sex in the same day.

[x] Been online for more than 5 hours at once.

[x] Won 1st place in a contest.

[x ] Had detention

Heart Broken Once Again

Well it’s been awhile since I wrote. I’m sorry to inform you all that me and Jeremiah are taking a break. It’s a really long stupid story but I needed a break. I'm sure most of you if not all of you know exactly what I'm talking about. Today at lunch I started crying after I got off the phone with him. I'm not real sure why but yeah. It was the first time any of my friends have ever seen me cry. I never cry in front of people I put on a happy face and pretend everything is ok when most of the time things aren’t. I’m hoping that he will get his act straight because I love him more than I’ve ever loved anyone. But he used to make me happy and he used to cherish me but now he treats me like a procession and makes me cry. I’ve given  him way to many chances and ive been playing a fool. Well ill talk to ya’ll later,

                                               Jess

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Hey,

        It’s been awhile since I last wrote. Sorry! This year has went by so fast its truly been one of the toughest years of my life. It’s been like a huge roller coaster I’m up one minute and down the next. My emotions have been flung every which way. Wednesday, my youth leader Jennifer told us she was going to be a missionary. As soon as she told us I got this lump in my throat and then my eyes started to water. I started thinking what I will do, how will my life be when she’s gone, how much I needed her….. then it hit me I am a truly selfish person and I wiped away my tears and I started looking around and saw other people crying and I thought how could I be so selfish. Everyone in that room needed Jenn they love her just as much as I do. But more importantly God needed her, he needed her to do his work. I’m really going to miss Jenn but I’m so proud of her and her courage. This past year has been really tough because so many wonderful people have been brought into my life and then they just left and I really miss them( Michele, Nikki…). I’m starting to wonder if it would be better to not let myself to get to know people for fear that they to will leave. My whole life has been like that my dad died, my grandma died after we had just started to get a relationship, a couple of my friends have left, and Melissa. Melissa was probably the worst not because I loved her more than my dad or grandma but because in my time of need she was there and I opened up to her trusted her and then she left and it broke me to pieces. And So many people have lied to me. I’m just scared of getting hurt please pray for me and ill keep ya’ll updated.

Even the best fall sometimes,

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme,

Out of the doubts that fill my mind,

I somehow find, you and I ,

          COLLIDE

Hey yall,

                 School is back in session tomorrow. It stinks.....lol! Today was awesome me and Miah got in this small fight but then we talked it out and i feel like were stronger than ever! Today i took some time to reflect on things.And it helped alot.Then I talked to Ed about fam. And i realize how truely blessed i am.I have so much to be thankful 4. I know i dont have the best relationship with my grandma....i guess i would like to change that but not yet.It sounds stupid but it still hurts.I hate when people lie to me.I have been thinking a lot about my dad lately. I miss him so much....Sometimes I just have to cry.I remember how I would sit on his lap and we would watch tv.And i remember how i used to make him pb&j...lol Im glad i can remember some memories.Well im gonna go to sleep. ttyl byezzzzzzz!!!!!!!!

                                                 yAlLs FaVorItE lIl ShOrTy,

                                                                                                 Jess

Hey ya'll,

                  Whats up?So much has happened this month.So many emotions and events have happened all at once.It hardly seems fair.I mean not all of it was bad.... But most of it was.Ive learned so much in this last month it has changed me.My friends arent who i thought they were...People have changed so much this year.It's scary.I just pray to God that he will be able to give me strength and courage to deal with this all.And I pray i will be able to help my friends in some way.Even if its by just letting them know that i am there for them no matter what....and that they can always come to me.But Ihave to admitt i dread the words can i talk to you about something.Those 7 words have so much behind them....& its always bad.But I love my friends and it doesnt matter to me what mistakes they have made. The past is the past.I talked to my friend Heather today and her bro is being released from jail in 2 and a half weeks. Im scared. I have never needed God so much....I need him to help me be strong. I need to remember who i was....I need to remember what he put me through....I need to remember how I overcame the past and how hard it was....and most of all I need to remember who and what i have become.He had such a hold over me. I would have done anything for him....But thats what scares me the most. I dont want to ruin things w/ Miah.He's so great and makes me happy.And he is a christian.I know that Michael could easily manipulate me into turning away from Jeremiah and God....again.And I dont want to do that.Im going to keep my distance but i just hope he doesnt keep sending me letters...and when he gets home i hope he doesnt call or come to my house...as he has done time and time again.My mom is clueless about this whole matter....He used to make me so angry but then he would kiss me or hold me in his arms and i would instantly forgive him.Possibly cause I was 13 and he was 17 and i believed he was my world....I dont know why im telling you all this but maybe because its to much for me to handle on my own so pleasepray for me and encourage me....I really need it.

                                       YaLl'S fAvOrItE lIl ShOrTy,

                                                                                       Jess