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WOAH....talk about a long hiatus.

To be honest, I don't know if I'll ever write in xanga again. But, I was just thinking about it and decided to give it a whirl. I don't have anything particularly mind-bending to report.

So, how about the generic, fill-all how's your summer going? Here's my answer:

Virtual reality madness, pizza at Creekview Park, laser tag bitching, getting ready for college, philosophizing (as always), reevaluating, driving too fast with the windows down and the music blasting, getting a second hole in both ears, avoiding getting drunk and high, pondering the ethics of Judaism and tattoos, having long talks with close friends, trying to reconnect with formerly-close friends, the inevitable sneaking around....

Tirelessly trying to create adventures in mundanity.

If you read this, I love you. Hell, I love you even if you don't read this. Toodles.

First of all, I am absolutely touched to see how many people have mentioned this website in their blogs/myspaces/xangas:

www.invisiblechildren.com

While there are many worthy causes that desperately need time and money donations, this is a big one. The African country of Uganda is in a very tumultuous state right now. Terrorist rebels called the LRA (Lord's Resistance Army) are killing innocent people and recruiting children to be their soliders. Many children in Uganda commute to cities where they can sleep safely in hiding in huge numbers (to avoid being kidnapped in their homes for the LRA). Learn more at the website, and know that TOMORROW NIGHT there is a demonstration to raise awareness downtown Hbg.

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Mmmkay...well speaking smaller scale, things with me have been all right. I'm starting up my summer job at the VR theatre tomorrow and quitting Weis. Thank goodness. I am supposed to be at the premiere of Ghoulapolooza right now downtown...but I'm rather emotionally exhausted at the moment, and I had to work later than I thought I would.

Jewish film festival is underway at Midtown as of tonight. I'm really excited about this. Hopefully I'll be able to get there a few times before it ends May 11. The website is www.hbgjff.com if you want to check it out. They've got dramas, comedies, documentaries, and short films.

Wow, suddenly I'm really tired. I think I'm going to have some juice and go to bed. Good night everyone.

I'll leave you with a little ditty I wrote:....And, if I could hug you on a sidewalk without anyone turning and gaping....Without anyone saying "no"...Without anyone saying that it's gross or wrong: I would. I guess I'll just keep hugging you where no one will see. I am too grateful that you exist to complain, anyway. I know it'll all be wonderful in the end. I'd explain it to you, but that would defeat the point, wouldn't it?

By the way, Le Petit Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupery changed my life...AGAIN!

Shalom and remember you are blessed.

Well, after 4 or 5 months of looking forward to moving out, I can't. Move out, I mean. My parents basically told me that I was a "back stabber" and "out to screw them over." They also mentioned that I would be something like "disowned" if I chose to leave the house. Doesn't really leave me much of a choice, does it? I love my parents so much. I don't think my mom and I will ever repair our relationship at this point....but I can hope she comes to my wedding or something, right?

I don't know how I'm going to continue to live in my house for the until the end of August. I feel so miserable and trapped here....I don't want my parents to be "responsible for me," as they say. I want to be responsbile for myself. But, if it happened this way, it was meant to happen this way. I trust that much. Hopefully something good will come of this.

Okay, so now I have some money to burn (since I'm not leasing the apartment). Maybe I will donate to a Jewish charity. I really want to buy myself a hoop for my nose because I've always wanted one. So, maybe I'll do that.

This spring break has been insane. I think I'd have to write a book to include it all.

I have been cruelly tricked into going to prom by a certain *cough cough* Alyson. I'm just kidding Alyson, I love you. And, I'm glad you reserved a seat for me at your table.  Ah...so Ali is thrawted once again. And yet, suddenly, staying out all night and not going home until noon the next day sounds fantastic. 

Okay, so at my temple, we are "rabbi shopping" because our rabbi is retiring. So, a different rabbi does our service every Saturday. This week it was a very spiritual guy who led us in meditation and dance with Hebrew chanting. The week before, it was a Russian rabbi who spoke with a heavy accent and emphasized keeping tradition alive. I liked both of them in different ways.

MATISYAHU ROCKS. http://www.matismusic.com/

Mmmmmkay, that's it for today, I think. Have a good one, y'all.

Happy Passover or Easter: take your pick.

I am so upset that I cannot go on a roadtrip to New Hope this weekend. I'm told that it's this fantastic liberal hippie town. And, I really want the Q.T. with the people that are going. But, unfortunately, I have to work.

I was also asked to work on Sunday: at first I said yes, but then I said no. I need the money really really badly, but I wanted to respect my mom's beliefs. She will spend the whole day avoiding me, anyway. But, hey...at least I made the effort, right?

I had a great talk today about pretty much everything from a to z. It was so freeing. When you're the kind of person that really doesn't trust anyone (or only like 3 people in the whole entire world), it feels good to say how you feel. Because you never say it.

Okay, well....I'm hungry so I need to find some kosher for Passover stuff in my house....okay then...guess I'm going to fucking starve. No, I'm kidding. I've got a box of matzo right here in front of the computer. Sorry, that wasn't a very funny thing to say.

Anywho. I'm trying to make it so I'm out of the house as much as humanly possible this weekend. I think I'll be set. If you want to chill, call me and I'll sprint over.

Shalom.

Thank you so much to you guys who commented on the last entry. It really made me feel better.

Just a heads up to everyone in the CD school district: apparently a letter has been sent out to our parents about how sites like these are "bad, evil, and a breeding ground for predators." I don't know if your parents will search these sites to see if you've got one. But, I just thought I'd let everyone know. I am "un-joining" some of my blogrings, and I also took off my name and birthdate. Because I am paranoid.

The Capital Area Pregnancy Center people came to my health class on Friday. I've got nothing against abstinence. But, the way they presented their information was just plain silly. It was so patronizing and preachy. I could write a whole essay on this, so maybe I'll save it for another entry.

I hate how people judge teenagers. They think that we're all just out to rebel and get stoned and have lots of one night stands. It really bothers me. I know so many intelligent, trustworthy, and wonderful teenagers. Somehow, we still all get a bad wrap. I will be turning 20 next year, so I guess I shouldn't be complaining. But, I do feel bad for all of the teenagers who are level-headed human beings.

I didn't plan on going to prom originally. I have never been to a high school dance before. Dances really aren't my thing: I generally do not have fun at them. I heard that last year's prom was pretty boring, and the only reason you go is to get drunk at the after-parties. I'm not really into getting drunk either. Or spending hundreds of dollars of my hard-earned money on a dress that I will only wear for a few hours.

But, of course, I will probably end up going anyway.

I apologize if this entry sounded cynical. I'm actually well, as far as things go. My parents found out about my plans to get an apartment. So, at this point I can only pray for the best.

Shalom.