Currently Listening Sam's Town By The Killers see related

I've come to the conclusion lately that, although people may scare me, being around them is ultimately the most healthy thing. Why? Well, if left to my own devices (like the last few days), I basically dissolve... missing classes to read and write in my journal and disconnecting myself from the rest of the world. Conversely, if I actually go to class or am forced to talk to people at work without worrying, things become infinately more positive. Obviously, I'm in the throws of the former right now... and it's dangerous. I need to be around people to keep me motivated, either through competition or pure motivation. I feel like a prisoner when things are like this... a selfish one of my own volition, but notheless completely sedentary purely out of habit. If other people are there, I can get moving~ it's just a matter of lighting that initial fire, maybe outright asking people what I may be good at. Bleh... things are dark. And it's weird: at work, at the gym, talking to my friends, I'm unfailingly optimistic, but here, alone? Black...