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Name: Caleb
Country: United States
State: Indiana
Birthday: 2/24/1991
Gender: Male
Interests: God, soccer, singing,swimming, theater, throwing partys, i guess i take interest in the female gender..i am male species ya know:P. um ya i cant think of any more
Expertise: soccer(cause im the man at it)umm talking..im a pro, singing i suppose.
Occupation: Being a stud
Industry: The stud group:P
Message: message me
MSN: Vossfamily1@netnitco.net
Member Since:
5/17/2004
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| The New Wave Well the reason why i haven't been on here recently and why i haven't contacted some of you(sorry to bekah and kelsey, i will try to get a hold of you as soon as possible) is because July is always busy for me. I went to Morningstar school in South Carolina just last week. It is there that i found my"new wave".
I went with mason to a worship conference called "The Furnace". The first night we got there we caught the tale end of worship and then the preacher and holy spirit time. It was their "breakout" meetings. Basically a meeting to let the holy spirit move in any way it chooses too. I found myself very skeptical of everything as i listened to the preacher preach. I was analysing his preaching style and relating it to my own and judging it. Not a very good start. Then they moved all the seats and just let the holy spirit work. They asked if anybody wanted healing to go to the front, and mason said i should go up there. I asked him why, but he basically just shoved me forward, so i went up. Promptly remembering that"oh ya i have a hurnea..dur durr durrrr". As soon as i came up somebody touched me exactly were my hurnea used to be.
As a new wave of a presence of the holy spirit came on me, i hit the floor hard. from their i can only describe to you the best way i know how the feeling that shot through me. It was almost a tingling sinsation, like when your foot is asleep, except a very powerful but pleasanter feeling. it started from the bottom of my stomach and went to the top of my head. Then it became more and more intense. I have never felt that much power of God in my life. As i lay there i screamed, not out of pain but because i had to let something out. The power of God was too strong for my human body not to do something . I layed there for 20 min. at least, just with this power overwhelming my body.
As i got up i knew that i had been healed of my hurnea. This was only the first night, not even the conference that i was supposed to be there for. In the 4 days that i was their i worshiped God in a new wave, a new fashion, deeper, stronger. I was emersed with Gods presence in a new level. Every night we had breakout meetings were i saw countless people become healed and released from bondage. there was no hype, no artificial human influence, It was just a lot of God. A revival that has broken out amongst his people. I had two different prophets prophecy over me, which was interesting and exciting. some things i didn't want to hear, but knew it was truth. another was very encouraging. Amazing how God always has both for us. He is a loving God.
But in all of the really cool things that i saw God doing, it wasn't really that that got me. it was being in his presence in a constant basis. His filling my cup to overflowing and changing me to lead in a new way. To be part of a new wave. I have heard the phrase 6 different times in 6 different places that this year is the year of the Lords favor. This is the year that i believe that God is ready to pour out a revival amongst the countries. Even in our own country we are seeing it. rumors of revivals, in Lakeland and in South Carolina, some in California and i believe another one in perhaps Montana, but i could be wrong about that. The point is that God is willing and is ready to start his fire. But we have to be the ones that are open to it. Stop holding on to our ancient traditions and things that have made us ununited with each other.
As i came back i found myself on fire more then i have ever been. I am for once in my life content and happy, not because everything is perfect, but because God has anointed me and is pouring into me in a new way. a fashion. I really feel like that God wants me to bring back what i have found there. God is ready and willing,are we?
This, though long, is just a small part of what i have been doing.even my story of morningstar, i haven't explained everything that happened there. but i will tell you this. God is moving in a new wave, a new fashion. a new drumbeat. no longer passive but strong and mighty. a beat that is ready to sweep across the countries in a holy war. a beat that the Christians need to start stepping too. to the new beat of God. To the new wave of God. May i serve forever in his name, and follow werever he leads. God is an amazing and worthy of praise.all of this i say with love and hope that i have brought fire and a curiousity to your minds.a vision or perhaps a warning. with the love of Christ always at hand.
sincerely
Caleb J.Voss
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| Is it time yet Daddy? As the rumors of the last stretch come to my ears, i can't help but smile. The thing i have been looking so forward to is almost here. just another year. one more year and i'll be able to do what i've longed to do for so very long. But as i look back at the things, the people, and the accomplishments and failures of my last 4 years of life, i can't help but also smile. Going back to the first time i met melanie ticen. As i sat drinking pepsi like it was alcohol. Then finding one of the closest friends that i've ever had, as her and I forged our ways into life and grew in God and into ourselves. beocming friends with her sister bekah, and her mom, linda and living the many adventures that came and come with that. My dating experiences, most of them like a plane that tried to get off the ground and crashed terribly. Meeting karli and the adventures that we have had through all of highscool. The kasey fiaso that taught me what it was like to be persecuted for your beliefs. Also a stronger since of integrity that came with it. becoming close friends with bethany and then becoming more and then back to being close friends and the challenge of integrity that it takes to follow his will, no matter what. . The founding of the lighthouse, and watching it come from 6 to 30 in almost a year and half. Being a part of Gods great commision at 16 and 17 and seeing people saved through the things that he has had me do.
as i ponder these things and more, i realize that even if it is almost in my grasp. almost there to leave. I'm not there yet. there is still, and always will be, more to do before i go. from here and from life. Is it time yet daddy...no son...not quite.
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| ssoooo...update so monthly update of Caleb Voss, here we go. in all honesty its been exciting and yet terribly boring. now before you call me crazy because the two things don't fit let me explain. the month has been terribly exciting because everything is as it has been for the past two years of my life. new people to talk to, new lengths to bound. I even have a new girl that is polytheistic. a very intelligent girl who, in the"Christian" opinion, as she says, is terribly deceived and confused. from thinking that demons are her friends to perhaps romantic involvement.again usually, at least in the Christian society, we would call her rather dumb. On the contrary though, the most creative lies go to the most intelligent people in my findings. they are also harder to de-root then the basic ones such as "God doesn't love me" or "God doesn't have power" or some other bizarre lie like that. no instead we have an entire belief system. quite fascinating really. proceed with caution though, none the less. Some things are not meant to just jump into and see if you'll get hit. this is one of them.
On the female front(or lack there of at the present time) things are as it has been and will continue to be so. I'm sticking around and seeing what happens. I'm taking her to see my family in OK in july. That should be fun. I had gotten questioned about what that looks like. that it looks like that she isn't the average girl in my life. and in all honesty, they are correct. she is not. No matter what God has for her and I, she is special to me and deserves to be introduced to the rest of the voss family clan. I am nervous, and excited at the same time about it. meeting my siblings is something kind of major at the moment, seeing as you have to travel about 5 states to get there. as always, but even more so now, i have a very strong warning that, though i perhaps say sadly, i am sure it is neccesary for her, that i better not do anything dumb. aka like last time acting like we are dating. so no touching. period. quite the struggle for a person who is very touchy feely. please pray for that when we get there.
And while all this is going through i am also debating the close walk that i have with God. it seems to me that, though i learn new things about ministry, i am missing something entirely from my own personal walk. although it is close, and i feel him every day, which in and of itself is amazing, i am wanting even deeper and closer. something so close to God. perhaps i am missing it though. as many of my friends have pointed out, there are lots of lessons to be learned in what i am doing. patience, faith, trust in God. all of which are legit. So perhaps i am just supposed to conquer these tasks before moving on. Also i am coming back to where i started 3 or almost 4 years now. God has told me, as he should, that i need to stop being a jerk to hayden and become friends once more. He is a different person and so am I. so its time to give this thing another shot, and actually i am excited for it. although perhaps we have been thinking on two different thought processes, i think that there are things that can be gotten from this.
So now your probably asking, ok this does not sound boring to me. Probably it isn't, but im bored. ministry has become a every day routine and although presents new things in life, the basic principle still applys. Lost souls. in every size shape and color. the female, nothing i can do about it. therfor the comtemplating part is done and all i have to do now is and wait. not very exciting. My wanting a deeper relationship is probably the only thing that is new..er. and finding it is harder then in the past. but as i have contemplated it, that makes sense. I was so used to be spoon fed, now it seems that i have to go and look. to find the meat and to prepare and cook it before being fed. A much longer process, but the work that it took makes it so much better then the stuff that you get already done. and the taste is indescribable. so i am looking forward to hunting,discovering, and preparing the wonders that God has for me this year. I am stuck here for another year for a reason. I assume then, that there is some things to learn here before i move on.
So yes your probably nodding your head and thinking, caleb your retarded. quit being stupid, your not bored. in my response, yep your right. i realize. i'll figure it out sooner or later. So until next month or perhaps sooner. I love you all. sianora and goodnight
DISTURBIN THE PEACE
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| BOOM.....BOOOM.....BOOOM....CRRAAACCKK. The emotion flies over my head as i duck and watch and see the other feelings flying around in a circle. The rhythmic thud that bangs in my head keeps getting louder and louder. Suddenly a hand reaches through everything..picks me up and lays me in his left hand. In a loud voice "SILENCE" and the rush of everything is gone. Finally..peace. Then the lecture. the what seems, now common sense, is revealed quickly and perfectly. As i walk to my overpass, praises release from my lips as i smell the fresh earth and the growing of things. the three days have been good to me and for me.
Having a time with my beloved brother, i find the truth being spoken and finally sinking in. Random seeings of God and the the getting ready for the next battle. The long one..the reason why all of this has to be in place. It's funny how I already knew all of why and what is going on..and i just couldn't grasp it. Still...as i finally do i finally take the breath of fresh air in my head. Short lived, im sure. Peace in my spiritual realm is always short lived. There are to many battles and fights that i am involved in to keep peaceful. though i suppose there is a difference between having peace and being in peace. Either way the calm before the fight is nice.
As i finally feel ready to call again, i call and find out that what i knew but she didn't had finally came. The hope from her. Though prewarned not to take safety in it, and to keep the focus on God, i couldn't help a sigh of relief. dealing with the pessimism that came through with all of that was hard to fight in my own fears. Although a very large sketch of uncertainty is still there...its nice to see the small glimmer of light that i had to hold on too for a short period of time without seeing it. the line that is now in place is there for several reasons..none are anything to play with.
for the moment..she must live her battles and i must live mine. separate but together as friends. There are things to be done, souls to be won, and fights to be had. I'm sure a couple more crowns will be racked up so i can spend at least another ten min. playing frisby with them with God. They seem rather a useless gift in all honesty. We get the glory of God, and crowns are supposed to thrill our souls? eh..maybe i just don't get it.
either way i am at peace again. Finally seeing all of what i was told finally come to pass. I'm gonna have to get better at waiting for these things. two weeks and i felt like i was going crazy. oh well...growing in God is like growing as a child. One step at a time, don't rush things..you'll get hurt that way. love you all
DISTURBIN THE PEACE
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| God, why? God why is it that every time i get so close to things..you take them away much faster then i can grab? God why do you promise things, and then make sure that everything looks exactly the opposite of what you promised? God why is it that you keep talking in short sentences instead of explaining paragraphs so i at least have an inkling of whats going on? God why do you say something that doesn't make sense to her, and then make sure that i still keep a small hope up? God why do you keep me waiting instead of moving on like any normal intellegent human being would do? God why do i feel so much at peace and ok with things? God why is it that everytime im feeling depressed about her you come and tell me to have hope and to have faith that you have everything under control and things will work out? God why are you being vague when you say "everythings going to work out", you know i hate people being vague? God why do you make me so happy everytime i get into my"this doesn't look right" mode? Why do you give me the certainty that everything will be ok and that perhaps my wishes will come true, and if they're not you let me feel like that i'll be..great..happier then ever? heh why do you laugh with me when i laugh at how foolish i am? Why do you listen to my complaints and worrys when im not concentrating on you? Why do you make me laugh and comfort me in those times?And God...one more really big question...WHY IN THE WORLD would you love a whiny, complacent little boy trying to be a man..like me?
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