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Name: Jarrod
Country: United States
State: Missouri
Metro: Springfield
Birthday: 9/26/1979
Gender: Male
Interests: Music has always been a main interest of mine. Other things would include video games, computers and audio tech work. Lately I've been focusing on God and what He has for me. Something that I should have been doing a long time ago. Something that I shouldn't ever lose sight of...J
Expertise: Hmm, I don't really know if I'm an expert at anything. I can make some weird noises and faces. I'm pretty good at things concerning music and professional audio. And I work on and build computers all of the time...J
Occupation: Other
Industry: Construction
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
MSN: MacGyver_J@Hotmail.com
Yahoo:  GodsMalak
Member Since:
10/11/2003
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| It's funny, at times, the things that bring about realization in your life. The things that spark parts of you that were dormant for far too long in you. Even if it is but a small twinge in your heart, your mind, your soul. To reach in and grab you without warning. I suppose, depending on your personality type, where your hearts at, or any other such thing, that you could just shrug it off, or forget about it as soon as it hits you, acting as though you're just, "being ridiculous". I, for one, am tired of shrugging things off. Not that I do it all too often, but that when I have done it, it could have been a pivotal point in my life, that would have left me in a much different, possibly better, place. Now I'm not looking back and feeling bad about those times or anything. I'm just focusing on the point at hand. I saw a lot tonight, that gave me... not so much a different outlook, but a much different view on love, forgiveness, understanding and compassion. It has though, made me realize how wrong I've been in so many ways. How I've let people down that don't even know it because I chose to do the selfish thing. We all know, or should, as humans we are very susceptible to being selfish, hateful and outright mean to those around us. I guess what my point is there, is how many times we are so completely oblivious to such things. That our blindness overcomes us in ways that we shall never understand without the wisdom of God in our lives.
All I can say, at this point in my life, is that I'm sorry. Truly. That if I have hurt, ignored, shunned... anything... that I want to do better. That I want to be who God wants me to be. To not lie about things, to not overlook those God places directly in front of me, to not be blind and deaf to those around me.
To love.
...J
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| Baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gideon Mal'ak was born on the 7th at 6:44pm.
9pds 1ounce. 21 1/2 inches long.
Check out more pics at...
http://www.flickr.com/photos/godsmalak
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| Why can't I listen and obey you God?! I really would appreciate an answer on that. Paul wrote about the same difficulty. Doing what he didn't want to do, and not doing what he knew to be right. My heart seems to show me these things at times that would be great, would be something wonderful for Your kingdom. Yet my head weighs down on my heart, suffocating it and squelching out the ever minuscule flame that rests there. It's like rubbing two sticks together to accomplish the goals that You would have me to do. I long for the flamethrower. For the napalm. Something so big to swell up inside of me and burn out the impurities, the gunk and residue of my stupidity. To melt that which is evil and contaminated in my life away and strengthen my core with Your Word, Your Love and Your Spirit. To entangle myself in You, lost in a world where things are foreign to me if they don't come from Your hand. Thank you for not forgetting me though. For always convicting me so that I may not forget. Don't let me lose myself to my sins. I fear that every day anymore. I fear I will be consumed by my sins. Torn apart by Satan and his minions, thrown away like a failed experiment that didn't succeed.
I won't give up yet. What drives me at times I do not know. I can't see what there is that makes me hold on at times to even life itself sometimes. The only light in my life are the family, friends and the complete wife you've given me. Thank you for that...J
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| It's frustrating watching the people you know and love so much, dwindle in doubt, fear, depression, anxiety and what-not that can occur in our lives. It seems so easy to give the, "right" answer to people during those times, as we look from the outside perspective of it. I caught myself doing that very thing, and it got me thinking about all of this. How strange are we, as humans, to look at things that way? When we deal with our problems and issues, we get depressed, angry, frustrated, lonely, sad, etc... but when it's a friend, we just can't seem to see where they're coming from on it. The answer always seems so simple to us at those moments. Why is that? Why do we only seem to have the answer when it's not us dealing with the problem. That being said, why in the world do we have psychiatrists that charge out the butt for their services. I doubt that they handle things any differently than you and I do when in the moment.
I guess what I'm driving at is this. Instead of us giving the, "right answer" to those who are struggling, why don't we just tell them that we're there, listening, waiting to be told what we can do for them to help, mend, minister and love. Why don't we just let God do the talking through our actions, instead of thinking that our pitiful human minds can comprehend the complex emotions that we humans feel. And if you think you understand human emotions fully, then give me a call and clue me in. Be forewarned though, I'll probably tell you that you're just full of crap...J
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| Hey ya'll. I need some information... One of my wife's friends has told her that if you are getting medical aid for having a baby, as we are... that if you decide not to get the baby vaccinated that you will have your child taken from you by child services. We're hunting for more information on this. We need to know the seriousness of this and any true validity that it may hold. Sarah and I would like to know such things, it would help us make a better decision on this as a whole. The choice of having your baby vaccinated or not. The pros/cons of vaccines on a baby and such. This is what we're searching for. Our baby is due on May 6th, so it's quickly approaching that time. Thanx all!
Love Sarah and Jarrod!!!
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