"Sometimes He calms the storm
With a whispered peace be still
He can settle any sea
But it doesn't mean He will
Sometimes He holds us close
And lets the wind and waves go wild
Sometimes He calms the storm
And other times He calms His child"

Wow. That song is sooo true and real in my life right now.
God has the power to do anything.
ANYTHING.
And a lot of times when we are going through a hard time.. or a very long stretch of hard times...
We seem to think God is going to take it all away.
All of the pain, anything uncomfortable, He will take it away.
and should.
HE CAN
but shouldn't.

If God took every difficult time and made it all ok, what would we learn?
How would we grow.
How would we truly know we need God
and that without Him we HONESTLY cant do it?

I have been going through a hard time(s).
and to be completely real, for a few days, I wanted to give up.
I was done with everything.
I was sick of the pain and hurt and everything.
I wanted to go to sleep and wake up and it would all just be a really bad dream.

But thats not reality.
Reality is that I am going through a bad time.
and it stinks, it really does
but God is sooo amazing and I know he is going to take all of this and show me amazing things and I am going to mature even more and be able to use this, someday, to help someone else.

At this point it just helps to know that He IS still there and He IS holding me close.