Once again, this time with more passion!So it seems to me, we have a lot of things to catch up on. My, my... have i really let 4 months pass by without a single word? Believe me my precious children, my lovers, my readers, my friends and all the mystical and fanatical crazy people out there....*laughs* I do wish to update you on all the lovely happenings of my life.... Eventually As far as Uni has been going, well, i'm on summer break for now. Passed all my exams, (big surprise, eh?) spent a good portion of it with migraines, but oh well. OH! Eliza Marietta is the cutest little thing in the world. She is the cause of my migraines, she is about 3 months old now. Born early morning of 17 of march, 2008... yes, on the lovely holiday of most americans. Good enough excuse to drink here as well. I'm an Uncle! Huzzah! Livvy is a great mother... I never really saw this side of her in the past few years. I remember when i was looking after her, all the troubles we used to have, but now... My sister, my twin, my evil half.... She is married, a mother, and one of the happiest women i know. *sigh* speaking of women. Not sure if this is a topic i wish to dive into. I have had my heart ripped from my chest so many times. I had met an amazing woman (or so i thought) around the same time livvy had her child. Gorgeous Irish woman, captured me with her red hair and green eyes. Typically not my type, but something about her drew me in. I spent a good deal of time with her when we weren't busy with our seperate lives, but i really dont know what went wrong. Everything was fine and dandy, then next thing i realize, I'm ignored. I dont exist to her. What happened? Where did i go wrong? I've taken quite a liking to another beauty here latey, but doubt i will even attempt to persue anything with her. ------------ Dear sarah, oh dearest sarah....... Life is something that we all must endure, we come to a point where everything seems to be going against us, and we dont know if anything is even worth fighting for anymore... The hardest of these to deal with is love. I'm slightly aware of your involvement with said individual, i'm pretty sure i know who it is you are speaking of that has left for the military. But dont lose hope darling, all is not lost. Sometimes men do stupid things that we think will protect those we love, and things to just try to not do as much harm to the women. but we all end up hurting you just the same. Dont hate him for it, just let him go and realize that he will be back eventually... Oh, you would love this child sarah, i do belive i have the most beautiful neice in all the world. You would probably get along with Livvy so well, but i dont know if we will ever get to meet. I've been beginning to feel as if my life is nothing but a big charade, full of lies and spite. Although i try not to let them pan out here, they still haunt me. I might have to dissapear for a while, but who knows. Just know that you are in my thoughts, and i wish you all the best. Do not despair, and in times of deep woe call on jezka, or just comment me. I shall try to get on here more often, but there is only so many times i can access this and have time to fully set my thoughts to updating my life and being the one who i seem to be. ---------- Jezka. you bitch. *laughs* I'm just kidding, my darling, you know that. I thought i would attempt to make you smile. Yes, so much has happened to me, with me, and yet here i am, updating again. i know you'll see that i've updated as soon as you look at your subscription list. As far as you and I go, there isn't much more i can say. I presume you'll read what i wrote to sarah, and i'll say the same for you. Just dont give up and dont lose hope. I realize its about that time of year that you are always playing with explosives, so i wish you all the best luck in that and hope your company does very well. Dont lose hope in men deary, I know that we all seem to be arses, but there are a few decent ones out there... you just have to hold out for them. ------------ I have partially lost my train of thought as to what else i was planning to say, so i shall sign off. Well, not sign off persay, but i must go and comment all of you back and inform you of my recent return, then i will be gone off into my little world for another period of time until i realize i need to contact you all! ~much love and sorrow, many fine moonlit nights
~In the shadows i wrote to you, keeping up the good fights!
--David-- | 
