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| againit hasn't even been ten minutes and already it happened again i hate human kind i no longer be a part of your race | | |
| today...today, this morning, i'm still awake and i'm so torn, i can't do this anymore, i am so sick of people, nothing is ever real, not even the people that complain about how fake people are can even be themselves, no one even knows who they are, you can't truly be yourselves in todays world, everyones to worried about what they will look like, or if what they say sounds stupid, NEWSFLASH WHO GIVES A SHIT. why does it matter if someone thinks what you say is stupid, if they do, don't have out with them duh, or how about the working world, lets get into that one, job interviews, a manager never hires a person for who they are, they hire a person because that person has memorized what a manager looks for, even if they aren't they can pull it off. the whole world is so demoralized, the feelings are still there just not the obligation WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN
all that does is make it okay to fuck around on eachother WHAT THE FUCK i can't take it, i just want it to stop, i'll never leave my room, i'll be safe, does no one notice me spiralling down this horrible nothingness, i'm becoming a shell for the second time in my life, i'm tired of being filled with false hope. hoping tomorrow will be better but you know what it's always worse it doesn't get better so throw tomorrow away, because it's no different than yesterday, there's no way to get out, over such a long time tomorrow might evolve but it's still just the same as it was. is there anyone out there left with real feelings, i can't believe them. i have nothing left to give, but yet you all still find something to take from me, somehow you take things i didn't know i even i had, the last shred of dignity i have left, has been cut, the last bit of enthusiasm i had left has been snatched before my finger tips, for a while i thought i was truly beautiful and special, but now it's all gone, i know i'm not, i'm just a drag, i'm nothing, i'm a bleach boned skeleton sitting in a desert but somehow the vultures keep finding scraps of meat on my dry and empty frame, everyone keep picking maybe the bones will crack and the sweet marrow will seep out in some macabre delight. you would love that wouldn't you, to see me crack, i'll gaurantee you won't like it when it happens, so for a warning to you all keep FUCKING PUSHING GUYS, JUST KEEP TAKING. i'm at the end of my rope, and i've not a lot left to lose, so keep taking it and see what happens when i run out of rope assholes.............................doesn't anyone care anymore....... goodnight.
_-allie-_ | | |
| you are my catylist
my tragedy growing inside
you are the ambition that keeps me striving
destroying my way of life
before you i only wanted to sleep
sleep it all away
you have ruined me
and all i have to say is
thankyou
you broke me down and built me back up
never could i have a better lover. | | |
| WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I were drunk around you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started on a downward spiral of drugs & alcohol:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there(i would kick ass):
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Manners:
» Body
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] Have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you make love to me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I? hot hot?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I lovable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would ever kill someone?
[32] Do you ever think about me? How often?
[33] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? | | |
| yup it's almost eleven in the morning, guess who's still awake, yup you got it, ME, woot go me i'm so damn cool huh, oh yeah. does anyone read this crap, i mean really honestly i never post, do you all sit and wait for it, i doubt it, i'm not that cool, maybe i am and don't know it. Nope i'm not i know it cause then i wouldn't be home right now, i would be out partying who cares what time it is. okay, so i really wanna go to sleep but i told my boyfriend i would stay awake. so here i am, awake with nothing better to do than right to a pointless end. yup. i'm really tired, dunno if you've gathered that yet but yup it's true. i'm gonna go now because i'm making no sense i'm sure. so i will talk to you all later. LOTS AND LOTS OF LOVE *big hugs and kisses from me to you
love always,
_-allisyn dawn-_
ps i'm listening to pretty music are you, well i am so mwahahahahah yup bye | | |
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